mymollydoll.com (Book #2) - (11/16/17) to (11/16/18)
First Draft to be published on lulu.com ...
By: Leslie A. Fischman
Twitter Heading: #bookblog: Book #2 mymollydoll.com (103 pages) by #lesliefischman #mymollydoll (With Dedication to my Family, thank you for your support, unconditional love and fostering my growth as a person, and for keeping me alive for 33 years).
Eventually you reach a stopping point when it comes to communicating within conversations and building rapport with your audience. That is not something that is helpful to do when people are not getting along, thats considered an unwanted communication to all, as through someone, not on the behalf, but as directed toward them negative attention, that usually occurs when someone is up and feeling well, they are put down by others. That negativity you feel as toward you is non-acceptance toward you, also known as insult, when people think that by their communications and abilities in life, are above you. We all make mistakes, when it comes to respect and appreciation for others and the good that they do in the world, that communication to someone, as negative or insulting, do not interpret as directed toward you, thats usually occurring to communicate to others, or to justify that what was done to you when you were doing well was justified, as not enabling you to move forward in life, don’t allow others to make fun of you, or to chastise you for your wellness, or why you are well or look or appear better, that does not mean that one thinks that they are better than that just means that they are not letting anyone affect them. There is no power in controlling people, the only way to empower yourself, is by being in control of your emotions and discourse, it is not your responsibility to explain to others where you are coming from, only to do your best to be professional and not engage in defensive behaviors that cause wellness among and further separates you from others, or being on the same wavelength as others, that does not make someone smarter than, just because they are able to connect with people in a way that you are not able, that does not make you less than or disabled, it just means that you need space, to figure yourself out, and how to empower yourself, without relying on acceptance from others, to feel good in life. You don’t need people to like you in order to feel well liked. Its important to get along well with others, no matter what is awkward.
If people don’t like you that’s not your responsibility to correct. Your focus space is not up for interpretation, when judged as not well, or partaking in activities that can cause illness. One should not judge for what purposes someone is either dating or not dating, I have since decided to go to a mixer, that is not a good reason to leave jobs or relationships, out of unhappiness or lack of wellness, that means that your inside communications need to be stronger than communications outside of you, that you cannot control, what other people think. Don’t let anyone get the best of you, in due time, everyones true colors show, whether in acceptance of you, or whether they think that they know you best and don’t know you at all, judge you. You cannot go backwards and fix relationships, when you think highly of someone, let their wellness speak for itself, that based upon good premises, they shine. Don’t enable others to cause harm to you or your wellness, that you cannot take back, when embarrassed in public or in private spaces, confrontation or discussion of the issues is not advantageous to your own health nor is discussion of the issues to anyone to whom is causing harm to your relationships, benefit. Allow people to bond, and stay well, that is not something you should take personally, as left out or not apart of, that is the role of those who are well to take care of others, those privileged enough to be in caretaking positions, benefit from those relationships, get taken care of. When you are well enough to share, what it is that’s going on that’s bothering you, that sense of togetherness or comradere as directed toward you within conversations, that is not something you should take personally, as someone who is hard or difficult to get through to, should not be someone who is treated as not intelligent, or not well enough to understand or comprehend misbehavior or behavior interpreted as toward or in conjunction with communications toward. Whenever there is a conversation, you have to allow that conversation to occur, and whenever that conversation gets used to illustrate or correct your sense of being as wrong, then don’t take personally the conversations of others, how you respond, internally is your right to privacy, how you feel, is your right to privacy, what meds you take is your right to privacy, what meetings you choose to go to is your right to privacy, what information you share about yourself is your right to privacy, don’t allow anyone to put you down in life, as not well, or cause you illness, as assumed you are something you are not, you can always date and drink.
Don’t hate [on] people because you think they've gone too far [thats not the solution], or come too far in life to well, that would be doing everyone a disservice in life, for once someone gets well to get sick. #issue - The importance of image playfulness. Be kind. I realize now to get hair cuts and dye my hair and smile more. -Dont make up your mind about people right away, always give people a chance to be known, your first impression of them may not be the right, sometimes people are off putting from the get go, you never know where someone is coming from in life, dont over invest in likeability you usually end up coming up short in life, short handed meaning, less is more, in other words, if you are vying for the wrong attentions in life, things wont work out in regards to whos acceptance youre in need of.
You have to keep going in life, the moment you lose faith, is when you need to turn to a higher power, or someone other than yourself, to help steer you back in the right direction. That loss of consciousness or contact with the present, is your mind leaving you, or when upon interaction zone out, forgetfulness is a product of uncertainty or pressure, it could be for a variety of reasons, but know your steps, that usually helps you get back on track, whatever it is you believe in, never stop believing in yourself, we all stick to a different set of ideas, mores, and norms that we see fit, or help us to see and understand the world, the world is a big place, know yourself best before placing judgment upon others, as they are. Not everything is a product of your life, that means when you enter the lives of others, that shared space, is not comradere but mutual respect for the boundaries of others, usually fosters the best relationships, thats not love or admiration, but creates an area in which you can think. We all come to different stages in life, at different times, depending upon how many people you know, how well liked you are, and based upon what you look like, no one person is the same, we all blossom at our own pace in life. Be patient with others, never blame others for any system of beliefs which cause you illness, thats not the solution to pick apart what is not well about others, instead focus on the positive and always see the good in others. You may not be able to predict the future, or control your present condition, that is health, but always do your best, not to interfere with the good health of others.
If this were a writing prompt station then I would be well, but because I am not well, I cannot teach others, only by example, live my life, as best I can, without dictating to others how to lead their lives, as advised, I write from the heart, given that, its not a conversation with anyone, where its coming from, but to myself, if I were my own best friend. When you lose all your friends, its usually because there is something you need to work on, in order to have friends in your life, right now … my friends are my likes on Instagram, call that random, but all help is welcomed.
Don’t allow others to make your writing about them. At my last job, at Farmers, they had me do an excel assignment and I was hospitalized for 28 days and had to sign a GVRO. Thats because I was judged as mentally ill with a job, [because I went to meetings twice a day as recommended and did the 90x90 suggested by AA, don't overstay your welcome, or be judged as needy, you usually misrepresent yourself in that way if you are too open with others, make others uncomfortable, be cognizant.] -Knowing that its not my fault if given an assignment, which is not in line with my political interests or cares, which is anti-violence. I obviously grew up in the middle of a heated debate, I would not want to relive that experience in the present times, by drawing unwanted attention to myself or others. Thats not how to move forward in life, I do my best to stay positive and to think new everyday, as I would expect others to do the same, not try to prove negatives, or look for negatives, or wait until things are well to cause negatives, and see who blames who, thats a waste of energy to get involved with the past, there are moments when people see light, and there are moments when we lose faith, thats for no one to judge us when we are feeling good, or up, and over what, a win or focus, or experiencing a loss, what triggers our focus, and how we respond to events that either do or do not make sense to us to comprehend, the quality of care needed at this time, which should be positive, anything else would be inappropriate and selfish at this time, but in good humor I blamed Saks for selling me a 39 1/2 for a party in Vegas with my then boyfriend who golf’d with my Dad we were going to get married, but could not handle the pressure of applying and going to law school, taking my LSAT, and dating. We all make mistakes in life, I have a dissertation to finish, then will have completed law school at Thomas Jefferson School of Law. We all waste time in life, sometimes not purposefully.
When Things Don’t Make Sense – Anger + Outrage
When things don’t make sense its easy to become befuddled and maybe even upset, when you hear something wrong, or think that something is about you, come to your defenses and fight. That’s about protecting your integrity and sense of health not wanting to be affected by the problems of others turned off in life. That’s a natural condition, some conditions are unnatural such as when others to their advantage make you look stupid, on purpose or out of lack of respect for you, think deserved, if you allow those moments to bother you you’ll never reach a sense of clarity required to appreciate the present. It takes a moment or two for things to settle, not dust, but thoughts, and that sense of peace you feel when the thoughts arising, are in tune with how you want to feel, well that’s the best feeling, a sense of peace and quiet. I’m not sure how the mind works, but I am too learning just as everyone else, I always write from the heart, selfless, and not to show sides or argue sides, I was taught to see all sides, and that is more than one side and that’s for sure, maybe why I experience mental illness, that is my gift in writing, to be balanced, and if its not jiving with you, then that must mean that I am annoying to you, or sound well, and that’s annoying to you if I am well and you are not. I have been not well for many years now, trying to stay positive and keep busy, I just started working, trying to stay out of trouble, and at the same time, be a positive life force for myself and for those around me. Never allow the misdirected hate to undermine your totality of circumstances present as disfavorable to your own interests, things are how you see them not always as they seem, and if you get too into artistic representations of reality then yes you will lose your mind in befuddlement, and control, trying to tweak and subtly change appearances to communicate to others, that’s how some communicate that’s not how I communicate Im a perfectionist. Being put on risperidone and abilify shots left me bedridden for many years, a writer + runner. Never lose your sense of control in life, persuaded by others to mimic and taunt as deserved, that may seem like a good idea at the time, but after many years of being bullied, eventually we have our wits end with tolerance of such behavior markedly immature and a turn off, so knowing this when people are new to any jokes in life, allow them to have fun with it and turn a blind eye, or plug your ears, its not for you to judge how others communicate to one another.
So maybe Saks took it too far, with the 39 1/2 I was a nobody then with an Amex. No one ever knows if you’re important unless you tell them, otherwise you run the risk of being treated like trash based upon appearances, if you look used up, then thats how you get treated, its wise to always appear well and do your best, with wit and smarts, not allow others discomforts to be your own, cast you off as questionable based upon what you look like, and how you talk or look at people, if there is something about you that is wrong, that will show on your outsides, especially your face, thats something you cannot hide, confidence. Once you lose your confidence its probably with someone else, much like your soul, that travels to and from the people you love, thats not your blood line, thats just your memory, and even if you get hurt or injured, your body remembers everything, stay strong. People may not be able to relate to you, but that doesn’t mean you should stop trying, its hard to predict if something bad will happen to you, never lose faith, and don’t go backwards blaming people in the past who have tried to argue that there is something wrong with you, everybody does things for themselves, and much to that opinion will try to prove their smarts in advance or in defense, if you’re too slow, who looks like the innocent person then, usually the one who is most put together, thats not a look, its a trait of being good, confidence, not by experience, and especially not by how much love you come from or get in life, that does not necessarily mean everything will work out for you in life, if you don’t utilize your best decision making skills. I have been hacked, papers books and notes stolen, and likewise my clothes have been thrown in the driveway/street, everyone gets upset sometimes, just don’t imitate people who are in the wrong to prove that that type of treatment is deserved whenever someone questions you, that does not mean that they are a traitor or that they are upset with you, be forgiving of those who get angry with you, that is because they are not happy with you, and defensive if bossy toward you think that they know best, thats not jealously, thats not love, thats just people being territorial over their feelings or by what they know best, think they see things much clearer than you based upon their vantage point, everyone deserves an opportunity to be well, regardless of what people think should think agree upon, or disagree upon, your ideas in life, are your own, and when exposed, your secrets or computer or facebook or messenger, you should never say anything that you would regret, once you start talking $hit about someone that usually manifests itself into some type of disagreement, that disagreement is distrust, and the part when you start talking $hit is when you think the other is turning on you, people at best, are trying to make themselves look good, and for whatever reasons, we think that intent is directed toward us, sometimes it has to do with their own insecurities in life, and nothing to do with you or trying to make you feel worse off or the same as, given your experiences or privileges in life, how much has any one person suffered, that they so choose to make others feel the same, it seems to everyone best interests to protect others from having achieved the same apathy or treatments in any given state of mind, where you are most comfortable, make sure that is first with yourself, and then it will be easier to be comfortable around others, self-harm is never the correct response to heartache or confusion of interests or conflicts of interests thats not the way out of problems, humor is helpful, take things with a grain of salt, and life is not a movie to be replicated or relived moving forward in the future, bringing to life characters past in your life, or characters past in history to prove likeness to characters known, we all know different characters in life, be yourself, your backbone is your knowledge and your knowledge is what helps you see and make decisions in life, sometimes based upon what others think, but always put yourself first and the interests of those around you who will matter to you eventually, once you get to well, leave the past behind, and do your best not to destroy your progress in life.
In case anyone was wondering, its based upon my wellness I am treated, Im not spoiled, I work hard, and I am very disciplined, stay home, study hard, and keep to myself, have lived alone since 2004 and had 3 long term boyfriends … I listen to my parents, and I respect the privacy of my friends and family, I do not go through the things of others, to be in the know, or go through the things of others, to feel apart of something bigger than myself. I have a sense of myself and purpose in life, my own identity, once you experience identity issues, then you need a psychiatrist, when you do not like yourself, thats not a reflection of something you’ve done wrong, but something identified by others as wrong with you, listen to those who love you, they know best, and when everyone tries to interfere with your systems of support, its to take away support from you as not deserved, those are called privileges in life, trust is one of them. If someone takes advantage of your wellness, then you can always ask for help, no one deserves to be put on meds, it happens to people, who are not well, and I am one of them. Why its important to respect the privacy of others, there are only so many accommodations you can make to help people, when help is asked for provide it, when help is not asked for, steer clear of telling a story, in the aftermath, to characterize the one responding, as something or someone they are not, thats hurting a cause, or a good purpose, and making them look like they dont care, or with bad purpose, no one intends to make faulty connections in life, and we hope that those we work for can be trusted, that is not our fault, but learn when to say no, when uncomfortable or when something does not feel right, you are responsible for your life and outcomes in your life, if you get into trouble, there is no one to blame but you for allowing trouble to occur in your life, in this world, if you are not assertive enough life will pass you by with fewer opportunities in life, sometimes you have to be more accepting less aggressive dont allow that condition to be caused by feelings of not being apart of or as a reject, thats how you reach non-acceptance, look like a loose canon, and everyone in response rejects or defends themselves as normal, and you are the one who looks weird, or gross, or overreacting. Think before you react, less is more, dont wait until you collapse or people get sick, to do your best, connecting is not necessary to being understood, just maintain your sense of self, its not necessary to make sense of things in the unnecessary to make you look like your a criminal, thats not a good way to live, to drink or do drugs or to associate your mind with people who communicate criminally, such as tagging.
When you dont feel well, thats not a matter of someone communicating to you to interfere with your communications with yourself, thats something thats not mixing well inside you, thats a lack of chemistry not a sign of chemistry whenever an unwanted feeling occurs, and your head burns or your heart burns, thats an unwanted communication to and from your mind to your body and to and from your body to your mind, some people feel well to others, and some people their thoughts, demeanor and well being do not mix, do not be offended by people you do not understand, some people are conservative in their approach to life, and some people enjoy human contact and interaction, once you get hurt is difficult to trust others, and to feel well in trusted spaces, thats not how to build connections, by imitation or by bonding to make fun of people to their face, as in conjunction to a shared opinion as known about them, some people preserve their privacy, and some people enjoy doing things in private and sharing those private moments with others, I’m not one of them, Im a very private person, when you share love or your life with someone, that is usually with someone you feel comfortable with, otherwise allow people to be themselves in trusted relationships and not take personal the boundaries of others, or their inabilities to connect well with others, some people take awhile to warm up, that big feeling inside is feeling whole, that small feeling inside is feeling less than, and when you’re finally able to blend in well thats acceptance.
If people dont think positively of you and if you think negatively of yourself, thats how you get treated in life. Thats how bullying starts, as deserved or thought deserved. Self-harm is in your control. All communications from the person being bullied is unwanted, thats something you have to live with once you become a reject, dont experiment with people who are well liked to see how they respond as an inexperienced reject, social skills are by people who are well liked, you cannot acquire good traits from people who are manipulative seeking to prove you are something you are not, that is how a reject is made, when adaptation skills and adjustment skills that come natural are created to suit an interest or a side, thats is how someone becomes ill, in my case, myself, thats why you just have to move forward its not required that everyone believe in the same thing or for all people to believe in something, and keep someone form believing in themselves, once the fighting starts, thats a turn off, and if you dont see positive, then the negative occurs for you in your life, if you allow the taunting to sit and haunt you. You have to think for yourself, and not be judgmental of others, if you allow negative judgments of you to sit, you are in control of how you respond to others, its not your responsibility to defend yourself, or control how people communicate to you, or make you feel, you should be in control of how you feel, benefit goes to those in alignment with eachother, thats how you get left out in life.
When People Turn On You
When people turn on you based upon appearances, those negative opinions and judgments of you get felt, just like when people meditate on negatives to see if you can tell what they are thinking or what they are up to, or if they are reading your work, that’s not how to read people. That’s people being experimental with you, by reading your work, to see how writing works. The mind is an individual, and those individual thoughts comprise you. Much like blogging was founded in New York, for those reasons people write, not to control what you think, but in a general sense to help you think for yourself, and hopefully think well. Mental illness is about things not mixing well, thoughts or voices, that when put together don’t feel well, and then you have yourself, are you a product of the negative voices you feel, when then who is to blame for that illness, afterall you are in control of the voices you hear, do they reflect that you are well, or do those voices reflect that you are not well, and your inner voice, is that your heart, or is that your mind, and if so, when you are in love or doing well, and the voice that comes out of you, is that an accurate reflection of your wellness and fitness of character, or does that reflect that you or someone around you is not well. What makes people feel well? Is it ourselves that make us feel well or is it other people that help us to feel well. What is happiness? Is it us feeling well or is it people at peace around us, that makes us feel well. When you are not feeling well, is it other people to blame for that illness, how much control do we have over our own wellness, and what is our correct identity when well, when there is conflict within us, what is that a by-product of, what is shown to us, who is showing what to us, and why people are showing us themselves, because they think that we need or want something to feel well, or because they think that they have something that we don’t have, need or want, this is why its important not to inflict emotions into the character of others, as though you know them best.
By: Leslie A. Fischman
You can’t force things to happen for you in life, when things are not working out they’re not working out and that’s not a reflection of anything wrong with either party, sometimes things don’t work out, after awhile you get tired of trying, and with enough rejection give up. That is your body telling you to let go, you cannot manipulate the disposition of others to suit your needs, expect to be spoken to in a helpful way, and in return put someone down, that creates a toxic relationship. Whenever we feel like our buttons are being pushed when overwhelmed, it can create a situation where one feels like self-harming, that’s just your mind telling you youre tired, with added support, and help from others, when needed, that feeling can stop -these are just readings, when you cannot read your surroundings, that doesn’t mean dig deeper … from where does the benefit run, from the wrongdoer, certainly not, from the person retaliating on behalf of another, certainly not, if you allow people to affect you they will have an impact on your best decision making skills, and events will occur that translate to others, that you are the wrongdoer, that’s called manipulation, space means everything, sometimes you just have to let certain subjects go, and certain people go from your life when things are not working out. You cannot judge a book by its cover, or allow people to get help at your expense make you feel bad about yourself, and cause you physical disability, we all have our limits, know when to stop. You cannot build a stronger position in life by putting someone else down, theres no such benefit or positive end result when someone snaps, it always hurts, when people are not themselves. That disillusionment is real, not purposeful, and never deserved, that doesn’t mean someone is senile, it just means that they are not themselves, because they are too busy accommodating the best interests of others. It’s a no win situation, whenever someone becomes the butt of a joke, or the bearer of guilt placed upon them by others, that’s called guilt tripping, when someone does not feel good, blaming people around them or others for their illnesses, its not necessarily anyones fault when someone is not doing well in life, try not to be too hard on others, life is short, and it certainly does not need to made shorter, when benefit is taken, and anothers disposition is preyed upon or weaknesses brought about to see what they are made of good or bad, that’s measuring someone up to a negative, it is never advantageous for any party to bring about weaknesses or negativity in others, that doesn’t make anyone look good or better than, and then everyone feels bad, then its by who feels worse, is empathized or offered sympathy for, and the one who is not responding in sadness, deemed the provoker or guilty party for causing a series of consequences disfavorable to the outcomes lived by others. You are at most responsible for yourself, if you so choose to get help, we expect that that help does not misdirect others, as bullying often does, telling someone one thing, that sets them off on a negative tangent, while the other relishes in excitement of having power of the lives of others or any one person in particular. That is not how to control a situation, allow people to live their own lives, without chokeholding people to a set of standards befitting to personal interests not in the best interests of everyone, the totality of the circumstances is dependent always upon wellness, and based upon wellness, others feel well, and when one is not well one gets help. Who that person chooses to get help from, should not be taken in offense to anyone trying to help a person or group of people, don’t place blame upon someone for not asking for help, help is always on an as needed basis, allow people to be well on their own, thats co-dependency to leave one feeling better than the other, at the expense of either party. That is not how one looks like the helper or a bigger or better person, let them come to you.
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You can provide so much information and do your best and still not be good enough. Sometimes people don’t know when to stop when they’re feeling good or on to something, that’s a good time to remind yourself of your values and whats important to you moving forward, that’s how to be a good decision maker, not by relying on social cues alone, you are in charge of your own settings in life, you cannot blame others when you fall astray, you at the end of the day are responsible for how you react and respond, read, interpret and perceive others as toward or about you, that would be selfish to think that decisions are made based upon your being or sense of self, as worried, as offensive to others. Learn to be accepting of all, its not all about being well liked, but more about being comfortable with yourself, if and until then, it will be difficult to get along well with others. -Don’t waste the time of others.
Its usually the case, that if you bring up issues that have prevented you in the past from achieving in life, they will replay out again in your life, if so don't allow those issues to overpower your ability to stay present. You may assume that likewise others are similarly empowered by your misfortunes in life, but you only do yourself a disservice by reinforcing negative opinions or assumptions about you past, then watch yourself walk through those assumptions proving or disproving those deductions about you in the past, as causes for concern or reason for conditions exhibited, looking for justifiable reasons to reinforce negative judgments or reinforce the processing of negative deductions about people. Steer clear of negativity in the event of any opposition, further reinforcement of any negativity, only drains you of positive energy needed in order to achieve in life and move forward. Its common to get paranoid, once you reach a stopping point, or quiet lull, in a new space, or among new people, its not easy to start a new life for yourself, especially after failure, but if you focus on your imperfections in life, then you only leave room for further self loathing, and reinforcement of negatives existing or not existing past present or future. This is a common way in which sides are created, when a position past is replayed in the present, sometimes the past helps to remind us of what we have done right in life, and sometimes the past hurts, reminding us of what we have not done perfectly in life, and what we are now trying to do a better job of, forgiveness is everything, embarrassment is another, and losses occur, never lose your sense of self, its all apart of life learning to function without having everything in life, and once achieving privileges in life, maintaining positive momentum so that you are well received not burden others as taking a risk by interacting with you, as though they are doing you a favor and at their discretion reject you to see how you respond, either once they feel better, or once they let go, or once they achieve a sense of peace on their own, sometimes, its difficult to achieve a sense of peace on your own, often times with the help of others either directly or by indirect observation of their lives, do we see a clearer path for ourselves, rarely when people who do not get along, cross paths, see anything other than defects, you won’t know until you interact with people, who you mix well with or not, or who carries a prejudgment of you, and gears conversations to reinforce a more knowledgable position as to the issues, as though there is a need to reinforce or carry on a negative conversations about with someone present, and bring out characteristics they deem are undesirable or unpleasant, or a turn off. Anyone comfortable with themselves, speaks without caring what other people think, that is an attractive quality because that demonstrates confidence, and confidence reflects someone who is sure of themselves, a good decision maker.
Don’t empower people at the expense of others, who are not well, end up worse off, as disconnected, proven deserved. That occurs upon communication through people to others, to get any communication across, no parts understood separately, as connected to previous statements, stand as argument toward in justification of responses, post disclosure of insult, no insults thereafter, pester nor affect the listener, as they are quiet, once an opinion is voiced, quiet follows, also known as a disability, or inability to speak, thats not difficulty or a reflection of a failed interaction or unwanted connection or disfavorable interests to any particular party, favored over the other, it represents, not being the butt of conversation or joke, and that begins where and when it starts, and causes for following, are not a product of the responses generated by others as in conjunction. There are many instances where communications fail, or words misrepresent the process of purpose for which words are spoken, never assume that anyone is speaking to you, or that words are directed toward you, passively, as warning, or test for disruption, to see what is taken personally, what effects, what relates, and what simplifies or creates a likeness to situations to prove if parallels exist then the problem existing under one set of conditions, are likely, occurring in the present, the past is the past, and if one does not understand the purposes for which troubles arose in the past, no troubles created presently communication wise, above, below, or about others to their face and behind their back should matter nor affect a persons output, behavior, or present itself as descriptive of their present condition, as affected presently, as resulting in the same set of consequences for them, thats picking apart a person, to understand a problem, and by simple focus on problems, if when trying to understand others, what they are thinking is negative of you based upon how you speak or what you write, then they are focused on the problems as stated, with privacy, if another problem occurs that they do not know about, then they are only responsible for the problems resulting from their miscommunications above, below, or toward you indirectly or as assumed understood. If telepathy existed then you could blame the thoughts of others, as affecting your current behavior or communication skills as resulting from their miscommunications toward you, about you, below, or above you. But that simply is not a justifiable excuse for having thoughts, positive or negative about others, be careful never to assume that one who is not well spoken is negative toward any one person or set of people, or a product of feelings of being above others, most instances of intimidation occur when we are not sure of ourselves, misguided through conversation by others, and then after the conversation looking back put things together, as purposefully directed toward you or not, learn to let things go, everyone is new upon meeting, and first impressions are everything, be careful never to assume, that any communications are when grouped intended to befuddle or belittle you, you know what you know and by what you know you understand, with or without help or acceptance from others, as understood, know your part, and by what you do so logically understand as representing any set of communications, do not assume as related to your own experiences are about you, or in communication to what you write about online. Everyone is different, thats the bottom line, we all have our moods, and preferences in life, sometimes feeling closer to people, and sometimes feeling at a distance from the present, thats a matter of focus and choice, and by my standards of normal, requires medication to effectively communicate with others, without running the risk of insulting them by assumption. No one wants to be the negative one who everyone goes out of their way to accommodate, what causes people to snap of commit suicide is much to do with misunderstanding i.e. my suicide attempt 2009, than it is about other people or how they communicate in written or spoken form, if you are you and others are themselves, than no manipulations of your character to bond or make closer you to themselves or vice versa should affect your sense of person or abilities in life, if by choice you choose to listen and allow others issue within themselves to affect your best judgments of them, why they tell you never to take anything personally, as time goes on, nothing post argument ever reflects positively of a person or their ability to communicate everything comes across as verbose and intended to likewise justify current emotions, if not neutral than taken personally, if not affected then compassion has obviously been shown, and in jest, a likewise sense of frustration about the individual to whom compassion is given, by and from the person to whom acceptance is waited upon, if nothing feels right, then check your best instincts not be cued by statements made by others, when a fight is created its by the placer of emotions, to whom responses are by choice illustrated, and based upon those illustrations of emotions or effects, you are judged presently irrespective of the past, the present, or what is said above or below you, you then separate yourself by choice, not by the statements of communications made by others, how to maintain under pressure of assumptions, its hard work.
Leslie A. Fischman