Chapter 8: MYMOLLYDOLL
A more peaceful present. By everyone else passing thru, not necessarily needed by the two points of interest but a great time machine for input to get to the present. In darkness we see light only from within without which [we] can see no clear path from here to there, to escape the tunnel [one] must build a bridge. –Sometimes compromise and connecting two points that don’t connect naturally can help us get from here to there, when our tunnels get fogged. –The building of a bridge is the most dangerous part of compromise sometimes acceptance by either side not welcomed but needed nonetheless.
Life begins the moment you decide to let go and stand up for yourself fight back[,] rise above and crush your fears of failure [and] see the horizon. Don’t wait until it is too late to tell someone how you feel. You never know what positive difference you can make without trying. There are two reasons for failure in life. Either you’ve given up on yourself or you[‘ve] allowed you[r] fears to come to fruition (by giving up). When we are lost its not because we are misunderstood or alienated you are the reason always for your place in lie never because of others. When one relationship falters another one will blossom. That’s how Karma works. When you are good [you] keep blossoming if bad you stifle others. It’s nothing to be ashamed of when rejected or experiencing failure in life. Life requires perfection unfortunately so if not up to par why so. At some point everyone comes to a turning point in their lives when they no longer respond to the judgments passed by others and just be themselves. It’s not required that you adjust to every quirk and judgment help by others toward you if they cannot roll with you the way you are then [its] not meant to be. Failure is a consequence of rejection by one person to another which causes everything else in front of them to fall apart. That means you’re weak. A strong person whether rejected or met with a failure of some sort is not easily triggered weathers the storm and still finds success.
Letter to my Ex-Boyfriend Aaron Brown
If you walked away that means you felt secure you felt secure because she made you feel secure means you were doing well a good match. She’s not gonna make you feel that way because that’s how you walked away [and] cheated, why most women don’t over cushion their lovers tough. People don’t want to be controlled and you should not only feel secure when they need you [and] you don’t need them. –You made me feel worthless like without you I had nothing. Why I walked away. Got taken advantage of. Don’t do that to people. –We won’t work because you turned me off. Hurt my feelings. I was in love with you. –You hurt my image. –I can’t help people now because I have mental illness you sent me to the psych ward too many times suicidal dumped [me] during finals. –You weakened me. That’s my gift. You hurt my purpose in life. Trashed me.
Everyway I go now, I have to just ignore everyone telling me to go this way, go that way, you’re this you’re that, I’m fine. I’m really lucky I got a job in Tech via my skills Fashion Blogging self taught learned about Affiliate Marketing –cut my wrists. My image cannot be repaired because I’m not strong enough now to rise above ridicule I just get suicidal vs. prove them wrong.
Sometimes in the beginning you get a lot of attention. That’s normal. The one who doesn’t need attention means the other affirmed them well did a good job the one struggling didn’t get enough affirmation to establish [a] bond. That’s when you give a lot of affirmations to establish a bond. Then once there’s a bond the partner feels secure. And doesn’t require attention.
Happy people compete with themselves focus on themselves feel whole because they don’t ever feel less than because they keep their plate full excelling. Unhappy people feel good for different reasons than what makes happy people feel good. Not a match. We don’t compete with others.
It’s important to be independent to date. Why I’m not dating until I feel independent again strong with or without [a boyfriend]. Why Social Media is great because you can be co-dependent and independent again. Why I’m doing better online than offline. People who have everything like me and still unhappy –means they have low self-worth cannot repair themselves no longer independent of others. –Always forgive those who have harmed you how you sever their ability to continue harming you, [you] allow that harm to continue injuring you. Forgiveness means letting go of those who have harmed you misunderstood you, judged you, ridiculed you. –We do not throw people in dumpsters when they have harmed us we make them clean up their own messes in life [leave] them to themselves. When we cleanse ourselves of the wrongs of others through exercise and good nutrition we rejuvenate our souls, replenish ourselves from wrongs, [theirs or our misdeeds toward them].
The me against the world attitude red flags everyone. We should encourage socialization not discourage it [if it] creates inner turmoil, acceptance issues. The war is not here, should not be here, should not be tolerated. We are spoiled. We need to be more grateful work together better #teamusa. Temporary fixes [include movies and music] to get from point A to point B, its peaceful here [now]. I think we function better now, I don’t know why.
When things get painful be productive. Get your sleep. Eat healthy. Exercise. Reconnect. Don’t wait on lovers just keep going. –Being in the helping professions is not an easy job. Practicing self care is really important to maintain[ing] longevity in this profession [i.e. burnout].
Life is but a dream. Words unspoken are often misinterpreted or used to cause harm to others or unsuspecting victims when enabled. [Always] see [the] positive. Sometimes you get caught up in nonsense and damage your own image fighting with others lose your cool that’s normal not the end of the World. Id rather hurt myself then prove myself wrong then succeed for anyone else in life. I do everything for me now. People who hurt you want you to fixate on them and the things they say to obsess over them and why be attended to how they feel empowered.
Everything you say matters –to whom where and why. Make sure to always stay present not give in to emotions and end up making excuses. It’s easy [to] say sorry once all is said and done but the damage to relationships that result stings longer than the time it takes to just be silent. When you are not yourself best to bite your tongue and be silent than give in to negative emotions react and say things you later regret. Once trust is lost its hard to get back and can only be earned not given. Don’t allow negative emotions to overconsume you change you.
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A moment of silence is required when we must mourn our losses in life [and] forgive those who have harmed us and forgive ourselves for [our] transgressions. What is required is only that we learn from our mistakes [and] continue to improve and always apply ourselves when down to come up again. When you love what you do you are fearless. Don’t let anyone keep you from coming up in life by requiring you to give to receive just do you. I think that transitions in life are the hardest part. But once you get going things seem to work out. Hard to go backwards. Learn to forgive. You steer the course of your life best lived a life in which no parties feel harmed or dismembered upon interaction with you but positive results. Always do your best to focus on the positives no matter how many people try to come back into your life when up, stick to those around when [you were] down. In life you have two choices: (1) move forward never look back (2) sit and ruminate make amends got through your inventory. With AA I do both.
Life Philosophy (Shared on MYMOLLYDOLL) by Leslie Fischman
Love requires maintaining composure when lost love is lost power always stays with the rock in any relationship nothings forgiven off putting. We find hope and strength when lost when we stick to our strengths and not lean on peers who exude the strengths that bring out our weaknesses. We are only as strong as those around is never stronger than what any one person can achieve but can achieve a great many things as one unit. When in Rome, build with your strength of character not build upon strengthening weaknesses and you will shine from your best work not at your worst.
Moral turpitude the loudest of roars underneath the billowing sails of deceit the wretched drones of melancholy despair enthusiasm behoved. Everything in life is within reach at your disposal if you work hard and others feel you deserve to have your life too. Visualize where you want to be in life. To achieve dreams one must know the difference between right and wrong. Practice what they preach. Everyone comes into your life for a reason. They may not live up to our expectations but we accept them the same special or not. We all have been harmed, In life we protect ourselves by not allowing the harm to reoccur why distant to [others] even though I love them. [Stigma hurts.]
To have no enemies in life requires tact and self restraint to know wrong from rights as well as ones [own] weaknesses not bestow on[to] others. Rejection (definition): [an] inability to get what you want in life because you are lacking a likeable quality required for acceptance to fit in. Translation: life is short no time worrying what others think but your own thought when clear will guide you best toward positives[,] hear yourself. What is required is only that we learn from our mistakes[,] continue to improve and always apply ourselves when down to come up again. Human Genome: everything you touch becomes apart of your genetic makeup you feel with or without that stimulus present [air theory].
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Please Note: I have finished writing the first draft of my first book, still editing Ch 5-25, my goal is to publish my book 2020 after I graduate, working on myself right now.