My Dream was to work in DC Summer 2011, but got dumped during finals, and went into depression. I had to withdraw from two courses, the day of the Final Exams to protect my GPA, and got a 4.0 and A in Advanced Legal Writing and a Within Award.
I got the job at DC Law Students in Court (Summer 2011). I applied for jobs Fall 2010 via a WIIDC flyer posted in the snack room of my law school. I also interviewed at Bazelon Center for Mental Health Law after obtaining a position at DC Law Students in Court, and did not get the job as an advocate to The White House. It was my dream to live and work in DC, but have since been taken off course in life, unable to help others similarly situated recover from illness. All mental health issues aside, until well one cannot help others, and if one does not continue to do well, than one experiences disabilities in life not related to their ability to help others but in regards to their ability to help themselves, irrespective of what others are doing with their lives, that should never affect ones ability to help themselves or others, be affected by what others think or base their thoughts and decision making skills, upon what people think of them, that is not how thoughts are derived or how achievements are made, for others, or because of others, but for one's self one's own good, one achieves with or without help from others. When you have no one to help you, always trust the process, that people mean well, not assume the worst about others, or get unsolicited help from others, or be helped in ways that cause you harm or to self-harm, as predicted by their actions toward you, to create an overall story that tells their story, how they see things, thats called a fight, and an unnecessary waste of time, when trying to help yourself overcome mental health issues, be side-tracked by the mental health issues of others toward you, for whatever reasons don't misread the actions of others who are not well, and respond to people who you do not get along with, that is just one example of why its important not to respond to bullying or respond in a way that causes you self-harm, pain, and suffering to empathize with those who offend you, or who you do not get along with, When left to your own devices, it is easier to see what is going on, and what to focus on, when easily affected by others, it makes it difficult to see well. Once you're in the wrong, and get proven for being in the wrong, than that continues to be of interest to prove that you are in the wrong in future circumstances or that your love and attention or care is unwanted. Some people don't mix well, you are who you are, not who you represent, and not as represented by others achieve in life, you can either make the most of your life, and work hard, and get along well with others, or you can waste away and turn success into failure, and be an example of someone who has had it all and failed and not able to achieve in life now, due to their own decision making skills. Once you've exhausted all resources and means for coping, sometimes thats a sign to leave things alone, not to be defensive, and not to situate people in places or cause them to make poor decisions, to relinquish onesself from liability assumed, or to make someone look bad, before even given the opportunity to present themselves to the world, as achieved. Based upon negative judgments sometimes, blame is placed, and based upon those negative judgments, people care or do not care for people, its by who is important, and generally those who are important, are important in people's lives, and based upon what importance you give to certain individuals in life, you too can achieve a feeling of importance and be of value to others, regardless of your mistakes in life, or regardless of the poor judgments of others of you, we cannot all be winners in life, the most well liked, life is not a popularity contest, and it certainly is not a by product of blogging online, that people achieve in life, or experience good fortune in life, its by what you share you are judged by, and by what you share online, will determine people's outlook of you and given your past, be judged as in the wrong, or deserving of punishment, pain, and suffering -when no one cares, thats time to focus on yourself, when people are fighting, thats time to be accepting of others, and when people are not happy with you, thats not a good time to be confrontational or try to correct them or punish them for moments of confusion and lack of clarity, be judged as connected to others who are not well or who have ill thoughts toward others, thats not how to help people, by categorizing them among those who are not intelligent and of harm to others, based upon abilities in life or beauty. Once someone is able to find their way in life, with or without support from others, able to achieve and be an independent thinker, that assessment works.