Don’t give your power away, especially not to anyone who provokes or heckles you to see if you become something you’re not because they think just because you are overweight that you are grose or a pervert or a lesbian, or something so horrific, to damage your esteems by criticizing your well being. Whenever I am criticized this causes me suicide, ie harm to self, whenever someone thinks that they know me best and want to control me, I self-harm. Its usually when you are experiencing difficulties in life, people with nothing better to do, than to help you, no one is asking for help, need not be directly spoken to, as a contributory factors for mental illness or self-harm. That is not my responsibility to explain why my head hurts or why my hand is broken, its from hitting my head, and my hand accidentally hit the shower handle. That’s really no ones business, why I had surgery and fractured my hand. I don’t need anyone, I don’t need friends, I don’t need a boyfriend, I choose to be on my own and because I choose to be on my own, I have friends, I have boyfriends, and I have achieved success in life, given jobs, and will now be finishing my dissertation and going back to law school. Why boil life down to factors to initiate hardship to anyone as criticized, or to hurt anyone minding their own business, to be as described, make me look like Im looking at others, or jealous of the health of others based upon my status or by how I look not 140lbs, I have been 140lbs a size 2-6 my whole life. When I lost weight that was for me, to achieve my ideal not to look like anyone as an ideal for all I know I still felt and looked fat, had dysmorphia, at 123lbs, kept running everyday and eating junk food once a day, salads, or a sandwhich, that was my diet. If someone cannot be positive toward you that’s not my responsibility to correct that’s too much work to correct someone thinking toward you who is shouting at you or calling you names, in my mind I’d rather be dead than fight with anyone, and Id rather not have anything written on my blogs, that caters toward anyone hatred toward me, not existing at the time, I wrote @mymollydoll on Twitter, I was not feeling well after leaving a 28 day hospital stay, I was not suicidal but with a job when hospitalized, arrested in public, publicly humiliated, why I ran on the beach in purple headphones. That does not mean I was suicidal it just means I can publicly humiliate myself.