How to Establish a Writing Style First: Think of your fondest memory, most inspiring moment, or most outside the box thought or rationale for making light of circumstances which otherwise cause you discomfort and which make you smile knowing the difference between what is real and painful and what is not real and if it were real would be even more painful, so therefore its amusing, because its not as absurb as the truth, but generally taboo in the sense that its considered a graver mistake to “lose your marbles” and cause irreparable damage to sense of self, than would have otherwise been maintained had you not incorporated too many opinions and second guessed yourself, you would have been on the ball, so now you’re at a point where you have to throw out an even crazier ***[set of circumstances (within the confines of the contextual parameters of your life experiences and schemas to which you can relate to on a personal level or schemas which makes sense and seemingly adaptable to put uncomfortable life situations and discord into a mindset of understanding and acceptance rather than discord regret and self aggradizing deteriorating and self destructive reasoning which rips apart your insides, because your ideas no longer conform with the consensus, because at this point in time what matter most is your health. when your health is put in jeopardy, usually occurs among those who by nature put the needs of others first and once everyone is happy realize they have not found or achieved that level of happiness in themselves they see that they were able to provide for others. -its not the end of the world, and doesnt denote a failure on your part or deficiency that anything that doesnt turn out the way it was meant to turn out, doesnt mean that what resulted from a good deed at good timing, at a peaceful juncture, was meant to last. All in all, the one with the best instincts is the rock in the relationship to which those lost wander too in the middle of a storm. I am a rock and have always been a rock. But if too many people beem over to me, I begin to experince grave concern, for what is logical to me and how i incorporate schemas and maintain a level head are misjudged and criticized as being “absurb” well then theyre missing the key point. The point of getting abstract is to see the beauty in simplicity.] [moved to a separate paragraph -and weaved in the thought within this paragraph that triggered that segway into that thought: analytical direction mapping explanation] *** to logically conclude in jest what subconsciously you resent in yourself that you wish you had chosen a different path rather than chosen a path less traveled and then forever building, and looking back with fond memories of a life where everything feel into place and now a life, worth living, but against the grain. to my surprise, upon arrival, I have found many others, who I never knew thought the way I did, for many years I was chastised for being too introspective, too analytical, too reserved, too quiet, too shy, too withdrawn, too submissive to the point that I was downright walked all over like yesterdays news before the news hit me that for awhile now I was thought to be purposefully aloof and detached from reality for some peculiar reasons, so much so, that it was perceived as a hidden life or otherwise life lead in the shadows to which i was ashamed of. I was never made to feel ashamed of myself, until i was literally having sex in a parking lot in a construction site, knowing that it was wrong, but because i became to accustomed to people pleasing it mattered more to me to get along than to fight, especially in a relationship with someone to whom i was intimately involved with.