Keith did want to be with me, felt like everyone turned on me thought I was guilty, no ability to write explain mentally ill, focusing on school happy, really hurt grosed out assaulted & then forced the next day to engage in sexual acts I did not want to engage in became suicidal, then he got mad at me. He kept seeing me but we could not bond bc Micah made me feel grose and Aaron made me feel grose, and Keith was perfect for me and new felt too far away I just gased myself in my car sprayed lysol in my ears, for a week. And when I met my Boss I felt the same way. So I masturbated instead. And was calm.