In 2008 I began my studies as a Paralegal student at an American Bar Association Paralegal Certificate Program. After taking a course on Introductory Civil Litigation, I had a meeting with a Professor after school hours to discuss “how to seal a deposition.” Upon background checking myself via Google, I found that my name had been cached to a Deposition from 1994, the year that a woman who was like a Mother to me, was stabbed to death in front of her home the night of my last Dance Recital at Paul Revere Middle School.
I was told to write a note of compassion, which I expressed in a brief statement on a memorial page on Facebook, “please respect the privacy of her children and do not write anything that would be considered offensive [to the memory of their mother, Nicole Brown Simpson].” As a paralegal student I felt helpless. After writing my personal statements, then reading a deposition led by Mr. Petrocelli of my parents, I became suspicious of the intent for which those questions were asked, in regards to the whereabouts of his children, to which I was a named party to the response to the open ended question. Reading further in my mother’s deposition, I found a piece regarding the length of my friendship to Sydney, considering now I am going to law school and her father going to jail, I felt at odds, that this would look to be something related, to which it was never meant to be related.
Needing to gain a better understanding of why these question prompts were asked, I found a very strongly suggested piece of evidence to which he was adamantly trying to get responses for, regarding my mother’s book, and requesting for a copy of the book. Reading this, and recalling my mother’s book being reviewed by friends while at her home, I read the book briefly up until a point where I could see that the information contained in the book could be seriously misleading, given it was edited by someone with no forethought, just trying to paint a picture without consideration for the potential consequences or implications that could potentially arise from the order in which the characters of the book were introduced. Seeing that I was the first individual described in detail, I immediately became concerned. As I thought this was a book about my mother’s life, entitled “The Whole Truth and Nothing But the Truth.”
I began seeking a response, just a simple response, why did you write those things in your book about me, portraying me as someone who is mentally disabled or in need of special assistance or severely learning disabled. I do not recall needing that much attention or assistance growing up, I was active in sports and gymnastics, had friends, and generally liked school and an enthusiastic student.
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I called my friend, and blamed my mother’s companion at the time for all of this, called her crying on my knees, telling her this should have never happened to your mother. [Why? Because he existed/entered the equation it added controversy to a deposition where controversy was not needed nor existed at the time at the way in which Mr. Petrocelli was advancing questions in increasing intensity to try to allude to personal questions about her personal life which created a negative character judgment of my Mother, who was not selected to testify in the Criminal Trial by a judgment call by Mrs. Marcia Clark because my Mother was a friend of the family and did not take a side. My parents were already separated and my Mother lived in another apartment, which only embarrassed my Mother, my family, and made my Mother feel bad about herself, that she was not there for her friend at the time of her death, and that they had been estranged at that time do to lifestyle differences, separated, but had planned to go running the morning after my recital and we were invited to dinner with the family at Mezzaluna, but declined because I was tired and just wanted to go to sleep, wish that I had attended and slept over at Sydney’s house that night like usual].
Unemotional, [my friend] replies I’ve moved on, and this isn’t something I want to talk about. [At the time I did not have the basic understanding of the law and rights of individuals who testify, and why these depositions were upsetting to me, or disturbed me, caused me to panic]. [She] then tells me “we’re in this together” and “my Dad says he is eating a bucket of fried chicken” I go “huh?” And she does not explain further. Respectfully, I stopped contacting her regarding the subject after she stopped replying to me. Confused at that point, is when I began entering a state of psychosis, looked up Johnny Cochran on the internet, and visited his webpage. Since I felt as though I was being wrongfully associated as a witness to a crime and not to my knowledge notified that as a minor testimony on my behalf was given in response to a question prompted by opposing counsel without representation in a civil trial, I grew gravely concern, and gravely disabled. I called all of my friends and no one responded, then in a state of absolute helplessness decided to take my own life, and swallowed a bottle of pills and woke up in a hospital. I was very emotional there, and was put in 5 point restraints at one point, which during that time past out, and upon awakening could barely speak or formulate a sentence. I could think but the words could not come out of my mouth.
In June 2009 I began law school and my first grade was a B. Given this experience I have become determined to continue making a difference, with or without the support of my peers, as when I relied on others to sustain, I fell apart, but when I rely on myself and the tools I have acquired through school to help myself and help quell the confusion of the issues and assumptions made about how and why I committed suicide, the better able I am to move forward from that experience and become stronger as a result and more resilient to life’s stressors and general rejections.
It is for these reasons that I believe that A Masters in Law in Risk Management and Compliance would be the most appropriate area of law, indirectly applicable to the issues, that run closest to heart and at home. When in school I am a diligent student, hardworking, and able to keep up with the course load and material provided to be learned each week. As a Juris Doctorate Student there is only so much you can learn within the narrow confines of a general legal education, which is why I am choosing to apply for a Masters Program in Law that specializes in the kind of detail and expertise needed to succeed in any one area of law, and differentiate myself from the other applicants when applying for jobs in a Law Office Setting.