A school shooter in Oregon shot himself in the head when I stopped blogging running everyday in Santa Monica. Then Keith said he flew to Oregon.
When do I stop writing if I become ill or depressed or have said all I need to say cant think of anything else. NOW I JUST KEEP WRITING THINK OF ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING KEEP WRITING NEW MATERIAL EVERYDAY even if its BLAH great COOL wow EW okay then TMI really NICE yuck YIKES or TUBULAR why? BECAUSE I HAVE AND ALWAYS BE A SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL PERSON NOT A STUCK IN THE NOW NO WAY OUT THINKER DESTRUCTIVE OR SABATOGE MINDED UP IN ANYONE ELSE'S BUSINESS BUT MY OWN why? BECAUSE THE LAST I CHECKED IN WITH A FRIEND ON FACEBOOK TO ASK A QUESTION I GOT SICK AND JEALOUS started running everyday UNTIL I FINALLY LOST 30 lbs in DECEMBER 2014.
Tubular reference to water slide at Atlantis (Resort in The Bahamas) through a shark tank.
Running now for 40 mins to 1 hour, punishment, put myself in SOLITARY CONFINEMENT IN WESTWOOD AND PRISON IN CENTURY CITY FOR BEING AN INSECURE LACK OF SELF CONFIDENCE LEADER DUE TO DUI CALLED A SLUT DRUG ADDICT ALCOHOLIC AND BOYFRIEND DUMPING ME AND FAILING OUT OF LAW SCHOOL --AND THIS IS MY YARD!
I must have not helped he shot himself in the head.
Now I write more solutions than the problems I face themselves and make up plans of actions for addressing those problems. And take FULL RESPONSIBILITY FOR HIM SHOOTING AND SHOOTING HIMSELF IN THE HEAD. Im not the BEST PSYCHOTHERAPY BLOG BUT DO MY BEST TO SPEAK
Punishment: 120 hours community service for DUI remaining.
Took a DUI in advance while code cracking morse coding online, in case something bad happened and was suicidal so drove in zig zags until I got pulled over and arrested on suspected DUI and they let me go. And then went out and drank and drove again and skipped sobriety test and took the DUI and opted out of psych ward option made available at time of arrest for a harsher sentence to help get me back on track not suicidal.
Im just writing Im not doing anything illegal I take all hits and stabs and death threats as painful as they are. But in May 2014 I lost patience. But have never hurt anyone gotten in a fight my whole life but have been beaten up raped (unwanted sex) and assaulted (unwanted touching).
GO BRADY CAMPAIGN IN FULL FORCE! ANYTHING THAT GOES WRONG BLAME IT ON MOLLY FOR NOT KEEPING THEM CALM UNTIL THEY CAN CARRY ON, solution offered for more resolution and public safety.
EMERGENCY GIRLFRIEND reporting to duty online.
Applause by Lady Gaga
For purposes of NOT arousing, no nude photos few complimenting selfies will be provided I apologize in advance.
But will redirect to those Im drawn to.
When Im angry or upset I get suicidal hurt myself because I cant deal with pain to my heart. If your heart hurts go for a walk or a run or play video games or listen to music or play a game online or read the news or watch TV until you feel better never sit with an emotion until you implode stay proactive dont do drugs when your down it just makes you tired thats when you need to try harder force yourself to do something you dont want to do why? Because when you do sonething you dont want to do you get outside of yourself and more present in the now not stuck in an emotion or the could have should haves and the past and thats how you move forward and help others to do the same.