Everything I write makes sense, once written once through is always re read as I write and upon completion final revisions made. I always read what I write once through before posting. If there is a word missing, that may be because I was writing and what was in my head did not process when typing and/or was due to hacking. Any typos that dont seem natural and any letters or misspellings or words put in that do not seem to go with the rest of the piece are due to hacking. I do not communicate messages from within in my writing, because I spend so much time writing to be clear to try to do so would defeat the purpose of trying to say something and spending a lot of time and energy making sure that what I say is understood and under what context.
And for these reasons I became very ill Spring 2013, and drank alcohol at the bars and drove home and got a DUI, after I was not able to finish law school and broke up with my boyfriend because my head hurt, like it does now, going back and editing and revising posts that have been tampered with since first posting. But I have to keep on writing. WE DONT HAVE TIME FOR THIS, IF I DONT FINISH SAYING WHAT I NEED TO SAY TO GET EVERYONE TO BACK OFF, IM GOING TO CONTINUE TO BE SICK. NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO PUNISH ME OR HURT ME IM ALREADY HURTING IN FRAGILE CONDITION VERY SICK NOT STRONG AND HAVE BEEN THIS WAY SINCE FEBRUARY 2009. I am more sick now, because I drank when I got screamed at, I dated after I got called a slut, I went back to law school (LLM) after I didn't finish my JD, I ran everyday up to one hour and 30 minutes May 2014, I ran everyday for one hour for two months straight, I applied to 30-60 jobs per month beginning May 2014 until December 2014 when I applied to 100 jobs in three months (need to double check do a final count of number of applications sent). My boyfriend left me. I got two interviews, two jobs, and picked the job in the office because I cannot keep up with the physical demands of walking all day selling office supplies business to business. But would have been a great job if I was fit for it. So would the job I have now. But I became ill under pressure while dating, not being good enough and rejected. I have physical illness now, the tremors (Like a Stroke Victim) and I freeze, slow. They dont understand. Its not because of medication or pills. Its called mental illness (when you you're head hurts and you have to fight every second to just accomplish a task, nothing ever feels good, never in the zone, always have to try your hardest give 150%. And they still challenge me. I am mentally challenged.
Leslie A. Fischman
Intern Paralegal to Barack Obama's Law Firm