Magic Shows ONLY on weekends:
On Weekdays my Personal Journal is kept locked, while writing, and keeping up with editting and re-reviewing, and modifying if and when necessary, otherwise unfiltered, write from the heart based on how I feel at the time, so when a change is made without authorization to paint another picture is very time consuming emotionally to have twice as much to go backwards and review and not present writing forward thinking.
I stopped doing my school work. Because its annoying that when I was focused driven loved being in school and studying and reading, my work ethic was not valued because I was not earning an income but working for $8/hr made me a hardworker. I get suicidal because before Im even given an opportunity to earn a living establish a career for myself, people are very hard on me. IM WORKING WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK IM DOING STUDYING TO GET A JOB THATS HOW YOU GET A JOB YOU LEARN A POSITION LEARN TO PERFORM IN A POSITION THEN THEY DECIDE IF YOU QUALIFY FOR A POSITION IF YOU DONT QUALIFY YOU STUDY UNTIL YOU GET PICKED.