97.1 Sugar by Maroon 5
Hi Mr. Denzel Washington, staying in character is difficult when youre not on point not confident because youre not making good decisions for yourself, and reacting based on those around you and losing sight of who you are and your character, should not change based on changes exhibited in those around you, but be able to adapt stay in character not change when the character of those around you changes, or be affected by changes in attitude toward ones character which does not change when another exhibits characteristics or traits or tries to manipulate your character by behaving in a way to elicit change to your character. Requires more than just being yourself. I keep reminders up on my wall and now re reading old school work and papers essays and journals Ive written during times when Ive been strong and times when Ive exhibited weak characteristics to understand why, so I can go back to how I was not how I am now, easily manipulated. It has taken time to get grounded again by greater acceptance of self and others even those who dont like me or no longer in my life or people who dont appreciate me, most important is that I appreciate myself if I present myself that way they think I am this way because thats how I am or have always been or why I am the way I am. Im sure you see this happen to people. Congratulations on all your success.
Okay okay. Sergeant Denzel Washington
Thanks for being a great role model.
My acting coach for all in person appearances, need to work on smiling, break character. Im always concentrating really hard, so I look serious all the time, Im not acting. But I dont laugh in front of others if Im in a good mood keep it to myself out of respect for those in a bad mood. Happy people piss off moody people, so I just stay serious has always been the best neutral posture for me, or a comedian. I dont know how to act. Ive never taken any drama or acting classes. I always try to just blend in (I try to always blend in). We're similar, I dont imitate him, I just am this way. Hes professional. What happens when I stopped being on point, changed, I was attacked, and made a turn for the worse. And now cant go back to being taken seriously. Self esteem respect issues come and go in life, so long as I take myself seriously, than I can move forward, if I cant move forward its because of fighting with my Ex Spring 2013, and dumped during finals day before an Evidence 2 Exam, and dumped while on a pay phone in the Psych Ward. These things happen, Im no different or special that makes that persons opinion of me so hurtful that I damage my own character and repuration so that he feels good about himself because I left him made him feel bad, that was the first break I needed, why hurt me if he didnt need me now need me. I dont get it. What are all the psychological games about? Does everyone feel rejected in relationships? Or is it just me?
I moved to UCLA end if story. I was assaulted, Im not going to get into it. And I get blamed. Now I dont talk to anyone dont make eye contact with anyone, care about my feelings first. Got heckled for months at my studio. They stopped. Theyre a tough crowd to please and win over. Smart neighbors.
Im not that pretty but that doesnt mean Im desperate or that a man is gonna make me feel pretty. I dont flirt. Im not a sexual person. Why Im a flamboyant flirt online because I dont understand why they want it when I dont and when I need them they dont need me.
Im talking to Denzel, because he's not attracted to me and Im not attracted to him (sexually). So he seems like an easy person to talk to about these issues.
Are you ready? Okay.
He looks back in the stands, turns around. I look around, to see what theyre looking at. Never thought much about it.
94.7 Everytime I Close My Eyes by Babyface
Great role model.
Im managing the current crisis to the Womens Movement, playback repeat mistakes, rise above. Its possible. No one takes you seriously if you dont take yourself seriously if you do, no mistakes in life, no drug or alcohol addictions will keep you from reaching your goals in life if you take good care of others, diplomatic, and work hard, you can be successfull too. --If you are dating someone who leaves you for another woman, start walking exercising, reading, writing, get online get a new job or hop onto match.com and MOVE ON LET GO AND CARRY ON FIGHTING CAN CAUSE PHYSICAL DISABILITY AND MENTAL ILLNESS. If they loved you SOMEONE NEW WILL LOVE YOU TOO JUST THE SAME. The next is ALWAYS BETTER THAN THE LAST.
It cant get better than Sunbag. I dont even need to talk to him, he just says everything right. Hes quirkier than me.
THIS IS MY HAPPY ENDING RIGHT NOW.
Keith no esta en la ciudad porque necessito ayuda con bebe mas toda la noche. Lo siento, no preguntas dame esta tiempo solamente comprende muchas gracias con assisto la hermana cuando no fuerte, y muy depreciado lo siento voy a la oficina. Hasta luego. Escriba mucho toda la noche es muy importante por mi cabeza. Trabajo siete dias lunes a domingo, practica simpatica cuando no numero uno y numero uno trabajo con hambre no siempre malo interasantes es necessito yo communicado en la hacienda de weebly, lo siento.
Keith broke up with me in September. Im still nice to him. That was really upsetting. Ask my Boss. I shut down. Stopped going to work couldnt function.