Keith never hurts my feelings he always loves me and cheers me up and never rejects me or make me feel insecure, he makes me feel confident, and he's 10 years older than me.
If you want to survive the HPV outbreak, date older, why I entered a relationship with a Divorcee, older not promiscuous and free of STDs clean, like me.
I get tested between partners, and while in monogamous relationships to have peace of mind, and got my vaccinations AND ALWAYS make them wear a condom (and would buy them myself - I learned to buy condoms in my Sex Gender and Society course at CU Boulder there was a lecture which at the end they gave out free condoms in buckets). Im VERY RESPONSIBLE AND GO TO THE DOCTOR OFTEN I NEVER HAVE UNSAFE OR UNPROTECTED SEX, except with my Boyfriend, and thats how I got HPV and had two surgeries because I got High Grade Carsinoma Cancer Cells spreading to my Uterus, occurring sometime between Nov 2013 and July 2014, and ran everyday like Lance Armstrong until I lost 25-30 lbs. Its been a few weeks since my last surgery but I am beginning to feel better, only today, but need my rest and try not to push myself too hard because I get burnt out easily, but diet and take vitamins and do my best to stay healthy, look healthy, and be open about what I have gone through this past year. I am lucky I was able to pull myself together and get a job, and stop being angry or upset or hurt.
And Im half Asian half Russian Israeli.
Im not going to live a long life now (thats how I felt but Im trying to visualize a different life for myself not get sucked into negativity and hurt myself beat myself up too much, I run for an hour instead and chain smoke on bad days), I have every right to get upset, because fucking and getting fucked was more important than loving someone who loves you and staying faithful, never had sex with anyone but you. I got the Gardisil vaccination in college, tested clean NO HISTORY OF STDS OR HPV in July 2013, November 2013, and appointment Spring 2014 for birth control prescription (to get samples because Blue Cross initially would not cover the birth control brand I was being prescribed needed to get a prior authorization around February 2014), and tested free of STDs in the psych ward May-June 2014 had them do testing because on Wednesday, May 7, 2014 I don't remember leaving a bar after 3 drinks only and found passed out in front of my apartment after Karaoke night, and a couple called my Mom from my cell phone to get me inside my apartment because they could not find my keys, I hide them in the inside compartment in my Kate Spade purse you have to unzip the flap, and kept them inside a pouch. The last selfie/video I took of myself (by accident phone was on video mode started recording) was around 12am inside the bar and my Mom got a call about 2 hours later, so not much could have happened, but went to the emergency room for a rape kit exam anyways just in case, I was in an empty bar in West Hollywood anyways and didn't talk to a single person but those performing when I walked in, was laughing, because it reminded me of Neverland Ranch, I used to go there as a child, driving the mini lincoln sedan golf carts and blasting Michael Jackson songs on CD's in the golf cart's stereo system). That has never happened to me in my entire life, I never black out, Im always coherent and get home in one piece, why? because Im not a big drinker, the only times I've drinked more than I can handle is at home alone or with friends. Why I would go out alone, not talk to anyone, with my headphones in, and have 2-3 drinks and no one bothered me, and drive or walk home (without having to deal with being stranded or waiting for a cab or convinced to be taken home or accept help getting home when I got I could get in the cab myself and the cab was already there in the taxi line outside the bar anyways, have someone jump in the cab with me, that just started talking to me when I was smoking a cigarette deciding whether or not to go home, and wake up to him feeding me noodles he cooked in my kitchen while I was passed out - didn't even know his name - that has never happened to me in my entire life that happened one night out with my friend Heather, got separated they went home I said I was fine and walked to Townhouse with a group I made friends with).
Micah NEVER fucked me he is Russian and lives in West Hollywood AND NO I DID NOT GET RAPED and he gave me a ride home when I was stranded on Sunset Strip with a dead cell phone. I got scared while charging my phone on an outlet outside Tenmasa, three guys across the street at 3 or 4 am, started lunging walking fast like Valet parkers to run and get a car and shot up and ran to the nearest intersection, and Micah pulled up, offered to give me a ride home I was scared just needed to get off the street. He touched me, I said stop, I have a boyfriend, please just take me home. He tried to take my pants off while I playing music on my iPod or iPhone, unzipped the back zipper to my pants from ANGL, never wearing those pants again didn't know they'd put me at risk of harm when Im not paying attention.
Why was I there? To get Cocaine for ____ because he needed Cocaine. I was busy studying doing well in school running everyday not taking any night meds able to sleep at night. And Ive been sick ever since May, and he stops seeing me. Why didnt you ask someone else, anyone can get Cocaine, why did you have to ask for my help, I dont have any fucking connections.