Romeo and Juliet (2014)
First time I got to dress up, wear heels, get picked up, driven, taken on a date, and get to know this person, but knew that I was too mentally ill to end up with this person and too fat to be his girlfriend or meet his friends, so I ran until I lost 30 lbs and got a full time job, and havent seen him since September, and will not hear from him for a long time. I have always been the one driving and paying for dinner and buying boyfriends gifts, he was the first guy Ive ever dated who I was intimidated by, did not feel good enough, why? Because I was not successful, I needed to be successful to maintain a relationship, so I knew it was not going to work out right away, because the bond was broken when my Ex decided to be nice to me make amends when I was doing well feeling better had moved on finally after 12-13 months ready to move forward and happy inside again. I was the most compatible with Keith, because he has been to rehab too and he will be away in rehab for three months, while I start working again and finishing school. Someone came down too hard on him and he got hurt and I went to the psych ward and he was on Vicodin for awhile when I got back for a back injury playing paddle tennis. I went to the psych ward after he told me he saw someone new, in response to me telling him this is too hard (because we dont talk but only when we see eachother missed him too much) if you love someone else just tell me its okay, that was May 2014. Because I got paranoid, felt like there were bugs crawling on me, and kept smelling noxious fumes in my car, went nuts with bug spray and lysol all over my car and apartment because the smell wouldnt go away. But resumed dating a day after I got back from the hospital in June until September, and started talking via text message and he said that he will be away in Chicago and rehab for three months and said I may not hear from him for a long while.