Call it a void, but nothing is better than shopping. It seems clothes can convince you you look okay, are the right shape, and doing just fine, but stepping on a scale, reminds you of how far you have to go, putting yourself back together. Medications seem to work, but they don’t seem to help much in the weight gain department. Sure my mood is better and Im more stable, but I’ve gained weight, how impressive is that, what to explain to others. Appearing as though you care less about yourself, when you are taking good care of yourself, doesn’t make any sense. What exactly is it you are looking for? Self-acceptance takes years to accomplish, youre usually unhappy with yourself, until you’ve accomplished something, but we can’t have a graduation for every milestone, and we cant have a wedding for every love, and we can’t go on a vacation for every job well done … you usually have to do that mentally along the way, and keep going at whatever it is youre doing well in life, that’s keeping you afloat and motivated. In between phases … are usually when we are most unhappy with ourselves, filling voids, or wasting time doing nothing but napping and reading … where does that take you in life, if youre not building anything for yourself for your future then youre not working hard enough, and if what you are doing now is not helping you move forward toward a better place in life, then you should really question whether what you are doing is worth the time spent doing it. I run everyday … but I don’t diet, I think my biggest problem is being efficient with my time, I work really hard, but sometimes the reverse results occur, that’s most likely self-sabotage, you have to give up a lot of things in life, to save or to lose weight, and spending and not dieting is a sure fire way of going backwards in life, and feeling spent, complaining that you’ve done everything you can to look the part but still not sufficient. Figure out first whats keeping you behind in life … and from that point, don’t expect others to carry you forward in life, that’s something you have to do for yourself, prior to meeting anyone new, be at a stable place in life, that’s how you get hired, that’s how you are able to date, and meet new people. Keep lists, that’s always helpful goal setting, whats important to you? What matters to you? And set your priorities and daily goals according to whats going to take you to where you want to be in life, if not here right now.
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