I’m not new to recovery … but will have 30 days on Friday. I first got sober 2014. It takes time. Bipolar is another issue separate from addiction and drinking. I have 400-1000 followers a day, but unless I stay sober and manage my bipolar, I do not benefit from having a blog -well that benefit doesn’t seem deserved if I don’t keep up with what Im supposed to be doing. I wonder can you tell the difference in my wellness, when I’m writing well -everyone has their off days. Always be thankful for the support your given along the way, every little bit counts. You are what you advertise about yourself, be mindful that when people are listening, they could also be judging you, as they are one of the benefactors of you sharing, and have every right to be critical of you, spending their time, reading your writing. Just wanted to say thank you for following! Back to it … I try my best to be in the now, but sometimes the past gets the best of me. I’m not sure whether that’s PTSD or just plain overthinking, its important not to diagnose oneself … not even my meds seem to accurately describe me, mostly for sleep, and one med for daytime. Although it may seem like a lifelong battle with mental health issues, I assure you the agony of it doesn’t last long, as long as you are doing what you are supposed to be doing, that is setting daily goals, not reminders of the past, and moving forward that is being present, not zoned out, fixated on whats going wrong, but focusing on what is going right, and doing what is right. I don’t have any selling points memorized to provide any type of reassurances that you will overcome whats bothering you, only by my own experiences can I share strength and hope. That I hope the reader understands. I’m not perfect, and Im not a professional advisor, yet, with an LLM that may change, with experience, job skills wise (Re: oversight abilities, learning a lot blogging, need to finish my FEMA certificate in social media, get certified), but I'm not a mental health professional (but have worked as a crisis hotline counselor in the past, and as a victim advocate for VWAP), I'm just now experienced under the care of mental health professionals, unfortunately that’s not a resume builder, all that time spent healing, no one used to care how long it took you to get well, but now everyone is more sensitive to one another, given the times, one thing you cant count on is for everyone to be happy for you once you get well, you can't expect patience from people who do not know you well enough to believe in you, that would be asking too much of them. If that helps. Some days Im the advisor, other days it looks like Im writing to my audience for advisement, as though they can direct me in real life, but that would be asking too much, from your neighbors or those around you to follow your blog, for input, its not something I talk about blogging. Half serious. When you’re speaking to a crowd online, that’s one sign bipolar is kicking in, speaking to specifics, or thinking specifics are listening and reading, its usually the opposite, people you don’t know reading your blog, or so I thought. One of the biggest pet peeves about me is posture and eye contact, something Ive been corrected for over and over again … I can’t seem to muster up the confidence to stand tall, even on days when Im proud of myself, it never seems like a perfect day to stand with my shoulders back and chest out, when is a good day for that. I don’t even wear heels, It seems Ive completely given up on femininity, except for makeup, but its important not to dress like a tomboy everyday, then you’ve completely given up on feeling pretty, that would be regressing to third grade shopping in the boys section wearing plaid shorts and t-shirts. Just lose weight I tell myself, no one wants tree trunks for legs, I’m actually one of them, TMI you say, TMI. Why I run everyday.
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