When you grow up and have your own company one day, then your input is valued, after having built something of your own you have had to sustain and keep afloat, with likes, and a following, not just be a trend, or someone who blew up on social media for one post, or one video. It takes a long time, to be able to maintain a following, it has taken me years to get the hang of it, and to build something that is resistant to not only my own stresses, but hopefully helps others to build a resistance to things that stress them out about life. I guess here is for conversations about what we think, and what we say, and the difficulty one experiences when there is too much held within, that a literal pain can be felt in speaking, that’s not wanting to speak. What does that mean? Im not sure Im not a doctor, but I know during the times when I have been carried away, literally carried away by a stretcher, taken to hospitals from the ER, I was not only not feeling well, but probably not thinking well too, that’s a good lesson to learn in life, to know your limits, and to understand and know the limits of others, when it comes to furthering your understanding of life, not everyone will be as interested bombarded by the same concerns you have about life, if they venture too far off the beaten path of normal. Ive found that 90% of the time when I assume I am being belittled or made fun of to my face, its not that they think Im cute and do so, maybe its because they think that I think Im cute, or trying to be cute, and not really cute inside, or a nice person, I think we are all capable of flipping out, and being taken off the cliffs of sanity in life, what I call a bipolar episode, when you go absolutely haywire, like a tantrum, and simply cannot deal with life, as though things are so complicated that you don’t have the power to put into words how you are feeling, never forget your education and ability to be your own voice of reason during those times and journal. -I remember the first time I learned not to bully, was in elementary school playing dodge ball, with an overweight kid, throwing balls at us, and started teasing him, he ran across the court at me, and my friend put him in a headlock. Later in the school year, the same kid was carried up the stairs to the principles office, over the shoulder of our Cambodian PE teacher. That’s how I learned not to make fun of anyone, because I got attacked when doing so. Similarly online, be cognizant of the same competitive energies people have concerning their smarts and the way they look, not wanted to be taunted or tormented, as though its ever deserved, or a retaliatory effort to put another in their place, as though they have brought that harm upon themselves. We don’t all stay after school with the guys to learn this lesson, but I did. Im sorry if ever being online with a jazzy pen name, ever made anyone feel under attack or criticism, in life as coming from me, as though I was trying to be smart with people, and not actually smart myself, via my own merits, there is a difference between someone smart, critiquing you and someone who is not as intelligent as you critiquing you as though they have had the same education and background to do you a disservice in life, as though you intend to do anyone else a disservice in life, by your pen name. Or as though your pen name is to some admission, of any wrongdoing on your part or the part of others, with concern directly to your own life story.
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