People will always blame their discomforts in life on others, especially those who have suffered from mental health issues. If you are already suffering, its not necessary to worry what others think at that point, your health comes first. Don’t self-harm. Its easy when others are not comfortable around you, to blame you or your behaviors in life as justifiably off or deserving of being taunted or put down in life, that’s just taking a side, to minimize the suffering of the person who was harmed. If you were not present, its none of your business what happened in the lives of others, that has caused them disability in life, if theres anything you should let go of in life, its always what you do not have control over, people, and the past, especially the past lives of others. Everyone seems to claim victim, whenever someone is suffering, to deflect blame from themselves, argue its justified, or that they brought it upon themselves, mental illness, sometimes sometimes is not the case, especially when no drugs are alcohol are involved. Sometimes pain and suffering, occurs when we think too much, no its not about people pleasing, that’s not a subject that rings a bell other than the fact that our bridge was tagged above the 405, if necessary to reference and not refer to, that would be nice, thank you. No matter who your connections are in life, or associations, that doesn’t create comfort, when someone does not like you or trust you or thinks less of you, deserving in life, feels as though your mental health issues harmed their health or well being, then those are moments when forgiveness is not granted, even if you move forward or become a better person, there will always be resentments there, we hope not. Stirring negatives back into the interpretations of the lives of those who have bettered themselves or gotten their health back, is not worth furthering fights over toward or against those individuals in life, to be like what they thinked happened in the past, and say if like or similar then have standing for suit, and based upon job or profession delineate blames upon others, that does no good moving forward, it makes me sick, and it makes those around me sick, not to be around me, but to similarly suffer from negative interpretations of them, based upon their new association to me, which if even a select few are trying to argue mental illness exists, will keep furthering that belief until something happens in that persons life that makes them make themselves look more mentally ill than they are. Mental illness is not the same as disability, be respectful of one anothers hardships in life, not all are purposefully brought upon themselves, left in isolation or suffering in life, that doesn’t make them criminal or mentally ill, just because they do not currently live a lifestyle within a social hierarchy, socialization does not come easy to me, spoiled in the sense that I grew up with the same close friends my whole life, who Im now distant from. Its not about pretending to be something that you are not, it is assumed that one who is punished if they are able to achieve again, are in a better condition now, you will always suffer hardships once you encounter punishments in life, its then you have to begin proving yourself to others, if you are getting tired proving yourself capable to the wrong people in life, you could burn out and get nowhere in life, manage you time and energy wisely, its really no ones fault, when time is mismanaged, procrastination occurs, and careers are put on hold, held behind in life. Its not fun to be an open book and constantly dug at for dirt, even while suffering my own personal hardships in life, that’s not being a perfectionist to better oneself at that point, it then becomes a matter of survival. What was once fun, blogging, has now become a serious sport. I think that was the point of putting me at a disadvantage in life, to see how I fair suffering, or feeling like I’m dying, overcome graver disabilities in life, than a learning disability, to test to see whether I am honest, or have lied about the past, and allow God to decide whether I live, based upon whether I have been a good person, or whether I have been a bad person, to explain for me, or justify why I became suicidal to argue that I was being bad at the time, and because I was being bad at the time is why I attempted suicide. No I was not being bad at the time, I was trying to get help, and because I drank and relapsed, I attempted suicide, none of your business. Now is not the time to be casual with my words or subject myself to suit, and be a let down in life, it seems people only feel better about themselves when they can prove you wrong in life, never fight with someone who is recovering from a suicide attempt, that’s an unnecessary infliction of emotional distress upon a person who recognizes what has gone wrong and is doing their best to correct their behaviors now, live life. Don’t play God.
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