You can’t write when nervous, or at any top of discomfort, makes it difficult to express oneself, like a headache, out of tune, and out of touch with reality, broken. Don’t allow yourself to become unrelateable by succumbing to the weak thoughts of others about you and your thoughts, that’s called being defensive, toward your own thoughts, and causing your own head to hurt thinking about the possibilities of the thoughts of others toward you, empower others to feel better than you, some call this a gift. It’s not considered hypocritical to live a life, and then not lead a life in which one is lived, everyone is responsible for living their own lives as best they can, with or without fans, and with or without accompaniment, trust, admiration, or support. It’s everyones responsibility to be independent not just hear what they want to hear, but accept criticisms along the way, we do not know everything, and our positions in life cannot be taken from us, as influenced by, or weakened by the good traits of others, made to appear less than or not as professional as others, and then think less of ourselves as a result, by comparison. Comparison is never the solution to ones problems, that’s not how to operate by influence poor influence in defense to ones best interests communicate to the weaknesses of others, to appear stronger than or to see if qualities existing exist and then play a blind eye to the problems of others to make appear as equivalent to circumstances treat people like they are machines, robots, or invincible, that’s not how suicide occurs, suicide occurs when someone who is in conflict with anothers, then self-harms, and continues to self-harm over a prolonged period of time in disillusionment, give up, that was my 2009, the times have changed, and are not the same now, as they were in 2009. You cannot justify for what reasons, people commit suicide and why so long as they are able to overcome those circumstances, during periods of recovery support them, never raise expectations so high as to leave people out to see if suicide occurs, that’s called dismembering a healthy situation, a stance, a creating a different stance with someones positive purpose, to dissuade others from connecting with someone. Whenever you share an idea with someone, and then take on the challenge of bettering yourself, to enable yourself to have in life, your have should not equal the misgivings of others, and benefit should not run to the benefited, whether deserved or not of discrimination as though known, and for what reasons, as though known, without fame coming up, be treated as though without class. That’s called discrimination, when to continue to steal ideas from someone, who pitches an idea after the fact, to make them appear as needy or make them appear as not apart of, or to make someone feel less than or incapable, that’s taking your profession out on the profession of others while receiving a benefit.