Being needy is not necessarily a bad thing, it can get you caught up in a string of emotions, leaving you feeling empty and drained. Don’t wait on others to come to you in life, you have to create your own opportunities for yourself in life. You cannot rely on others for self-esteem, thats not how to make yourself feel better when you are not feeling well, thats how you get sick, when you attach when you are not feeling well, get your hopes up then get let down in life. From the inside looking out, its hard to say much, sometimes when you are not being well received or if you feel misunderstood. When you are needy you are more likely to develop unhealthy attachments to people, and when if in doing so, can cause self-harm. Don’t rely on others as a pick me up, to make you feel better in life, especially those who are not to be trusted. In healthy living spaces and environments we get the support we need in order to feel whole. In an unhealthy environment, we do not feel well, that can be because of people places or things. Always be patient with others. Its not for you to judge others as not well, based upon their earning capacity or their likeness. If you do not approve of others, its not for you to make happen widespread disapproval of them, thats not a positive purpose for coming forward in life, to cause disruption based upon personal interests.
I used to be a 2 hour runner, and have since stopped and gained weight. Just finished writing a book. How we use our energy in life, is our own personal business. I wrote my book August to May 2018, and still writing. It takes time to put a book together, especially of your best writing, its for no one to judge, respect or not in the past given.