I just turned 34, my birthday was August 7th, theres really no pressure in getting older, just that more stability is expected of you, to provide to those around you. I’m not sure why I was not feeling well, but probably for the same reasons others were not feeling well, when you’ve done your best and your best is still not good enough, you wonder exactly how connected you are to others, and how much of an impact your journey in life has had on other peoples journeys in life. Exactly how much are we affected by those who come into our lives … there are so many professionals today, its not just you trying to be successful I have to remind myself at times, there must be jobs for everyone, if there are so many who are able to achieve success in life. The extent to which your influence carries over into other professions, well that’s by contract, whenever someone uses your work to benefit a work of their own, that’s called a partnership, or an agreement, that the influence to be carried over does not hurt or injure backwards to whom the benefit is taken from, and mass produced from on another level from the original purposes for that work. I know this because my Sister-in-Law is a songwriter, and wrote a song for Rhianna, which she sang. That’s my only direct connection to fame, other than growing up around my best friend, who’s Father is OJ. -I just left the hospital, spent 5 days off meds. There are people who know people, and there are people who are directly affected by being raised around others, that’s not being influenced by, that’s having known someone. Your new attachments in life, are to carry you in more positive directions in life, not follow the direction of those who have been punished, as their decision-making may be off. All throughout my younger years and adolescence I was one of the most popular girls in my class, with the most friends, hosting parties at my house, and introducing friends to friends. Even helped lead a funeral online, for one of my Brother’s friends, and made an album for their Mother. (When you are someone to be relied upon, and close to those who have been lost, spiritually or physically gone, that is a good omen, which sticks with you throughout your professional years -thats your choice to let yourself go and let others down, never give up, always be compassionate toward self and others). Everyone has been affected differently by mental health issues, some on meds, some off meds, and some even drinking or doing drugs to cope with their anxieties about life, I think right now its about acceptance, and getting the help you need to move forward in life. Not succumb to weaknesses or negative opinions on subjects which have directly affected you, Im sure if anyone was in my shoes trying to finish Law School would seem like an arduous task understanding the opinions of others, is not then beneficial to ones health as writer, but sticking to what makes sense to them, is of importance. -I think I became successful as a writer online, not by telling this story online over and over again, or having it be generally understood by others, but because of my ability to write and connect with my audience in a way, that is helpful or beneficial to their best decision making skills, Im studying Finance Law right now, studying Risk Management and Compliance, its taken me awhile to finish, but know that when I do finish Law School that I will be very proud of myself, for having chosen this path in life. Aside from being hospitalized now 9 times, and been in Rehab once, and Outpatient once. I will be beginning an Intensive Outpatient IOP Program in a week or so, for Thought Disorders.
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