Its easy to get carried away explaining how you feel but always think first what service does this do to me to speak to and what service does this do to help others, think who are you helping and why, and is the help provided necessary to your health, the minute you connect to a cause or a group of people, is how one or the other is affected by one or the other, when in communication, and upon observation talked about more, leave things alone, allow people to have some independence of their own, to do what is right not what is wrong, and if in doing something right they look stupid, then I believe at a later point in time, a better way of processing an emotion can be achieved without letting them win, and failing at being heard, empathized with, as though your actions or reactions are lessons to teach others how to respond, or further normalize or define whats appropriate understandable, usually what comes to mind, is everything that describes the pain you feel, thats your body and what you think and feel making you express yourself in a way that others may not understand thats okay, keep trying, the better able you are to articulate and represent your concerns in life, it doesnt matter how focused on the issues your expression presents as observed but if so memorable is to improve the condition of those who do care, and while mismanaged by systems of trust, appeared disorganized in rebellion to the every system of support, its when you get hurt its common to want to share know that what you share even if it gets through to who you think is harming you, only gives them more power, to know how to be, not affected, you know the bigger they have to look, shows you, that you matter, and they need to change try to. Stay well dont self-harm! We will all be here when you return your normal, please be patient, and recover be safe!
Everyones passionate after the fact, but what can we do to prevent ourselves from being harmed by those who take advantage of their privileges in life, and freedoms, and cause harm to others, thinking they have a right to, or to protect themselves, or with expectation of someone resisting their efforts to serve justice to whomever was harmed, is that right? Is it okay to not excuse individuals, and be more aggressive toward those with mental health issues, who are often times hesitant to get help, until things get worse, and they cannot function comfortably among others, what type of rehabilitation is that, isnt punishment for the purposes of correcting bad behavior or misconduct in a public place, exactly how threatened can anyone be by anyone else, where one life is justified by punishing another, one life is broken as a result of being punished, disabling their ability to work, get jobs, be accepted, spoken to, making everyone turned off by them, as less than, no one deserve to go through that process in public, be humiliated in public, and punished, what does self-harm or a tantrum represent, is that criminal activity, or is that just a manifestation of wellness, unless someone is taking out their illness upon others, can it be justified that another is infringing upon their right to stay healthy and not be aggravated, its amazing to me that someone can claim theyve been affected, when its the opposite because one is mistreated, not taken seriously, ignored professionally, or interpersonally, opened up to share, only to be rejected once they get what they want, that means got to know you, didnt need you, or saw you and kept going in life for themselves, with their own understanding of how the world works, and who is to be included in those understandings, and who is to be left out. Once you hurt a persons motivations in life, its really hard to overcome those feelings of worthlessness to the world, this is why I made website. Think less of why someone is strong, assuming for the purposes of freeing someone who was in the wrong, and think maybe its because they care, and are doing the right thing to care. #Brady. Dont be a threat! <3
Its human nature to want to help someone in need, its called empathy, caring and wanting to make a positive difference in the life of another. Sometimes it may be easier to care for others than it is to care for ourselves. And sometimes through the admission of our problems to others in confidence, will lead to conversations about shared circumstances or feelings to inspire you that they too have been through difficult times, and be reminded that you are not alone. Why is it easier to give advice than it is to take our own advice? I have wondered the same thing, as a self-professed self-help blogger and ranked in the Top 100 Personal Development Bloggers online, Ive made a commitment to improving myself, working hard, and beating the odds against me, with bipolar and a learning disability, that kind of strength to endure difficulty and how to overcome those feelings you feel challenged by is what is wanted to be advised about, sometimes it may feel more difficult, when the shoes have changed -when the advice giver suddenly needs help coping with their lives aside from what positives they have shared with the world, and individually to friends over the years. The main point is to keep things light, and if someone opens up to you, dont feel overwhelmed, maybe its just what they needed to feel heard, to feel normal again, unlike within families, cut off or told how to think. We dont always get that in the real world, who is more likely to ignore us, when we are off not fix us. You can only better yourself, thats the bottom line. In fact its "easier to give advice ... than [it is] to take it."  Why is that, because its easier to listen than it is to open up about yourself, most lives people live are guided, managing their right to privacy, and talk only to doctors, its becoming even more rare for people to share their problems and risk turning off a friend or a lover, or even disappoint loved ones, that you are not strong, and worry if you'll ever get better, have faith in yourself in those moments when you feel alone or ashamed, you have to believe in yourself if you want to make your life better, that means getting help, and its okay to ask for help. No one wants to help you move, but if you can make friends like that youre in good hands.
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No, life cannot be more depressing than it is now, why Im on 300mg of Wellbutrin daily, and taken off Vyvanse for 2 weeks, what does that mean, slow down. Doesnt that feel counterintutive, like we are supposed to have energy to spare without jobs, when at rest, actually the opposite can occur, you can lose motivations in life, and lose your drive. Take it from me, why I built a website and continue book writing, if I hadnt made a job for myself, then where would I be now? Isn't life better doing what you love? Definitely talk to a Doctor if you are experiencing depression, describe how you feel and be honest, you may get meds for it like me. So take it easy, one step at a time, processing current events, or while counting your job prospects, for some of us its too late to go back to school, I went back to school but lost valuable years of work experience, so its I either get hired, or need more experience before getting paid, which is why I filed for unemployment. How long can my parents support me, not long, which means I really need to get my life together, and thats a very painful realization. -Youre not the only one feeling like "what should I do now" why we're in this together. Never worry for a minute that your problems are unsolvable, just talk to a Doctor! #sober (2014). Addiction to anything can really set you back in life, keep applying for jobs and learn.
We all make mistakes, but that doesnt mean beat yourself up over it. With grace move on. Sounds easy, but difficult to do. Tinnybuddha.com suggests to "focus on our intentions and moral compasses."  For instance, "We all want to be accepted and loved, and mistakes can make us feel unlovable and flawed."  Whats important is to "accep[t] whats happened and mov[e] forward"  whats more important is to learn from your mistakes and do better next time. Remind yourself that no amount of effort is a wasted investment of time, so remember to breathe, even if youve "poured a lot of money into a useless endeavor."  So forgive yourself, and instead of focusing on the problem itself, let go and forgive yourself, and accept that change "won't happen overnight."  According to Inc.com, "if we want to actually get over our mistake, [we have to] stop justifying it."  Some mistakes are simply "unavoidable," so if you keep justifying your behavior or actions, your trying to excuse a condition as tolerable, rather than improve upon your best and correct your own errors in life, decision making wise. 
Online its easy to get wrapped up about yourself or about others, then feel lost, where do you fit in the grand scheme of things, and how can you best communicate your skills out loud. Sometimes we can tell whether someone is smart, well spoken, and sometimes, we get confused try to understand the perspective of someone we do not know. How valuable is your perspective, unless anyone can see the way you see the world, and have lived life, can they equally share their input, or criticisms of you. Ive been through a lot. So that means Im not perfect, but when I fall off the bandwagon I get help, and when I get help I get better. Be patient with yourselves, you cannot expect to change your life overnight, it may take many days, months, or even years to turn your life around, dont wait until its too late to try. Whats not real, is your viewpoint of what a celebrity life feels like, I wouldnt know, Im not a celebrity. What I do know, about being close to a celebrity, is that they keep their lives private, whereas I share everything fearlessly, maybe at my own expense. You can always get hurt, just be smart. Know your place in life, and keep thinking from your viewpoint, not blow things up.
Theres really no way to get out of a rough patch in life, if youre taking everything to heart and taking life too seriously, have a happy medium in life. Lighten up, but never too much, that you appear disorganized and unprofessional, what good does that do to your self-esteem. Its important to always be mindful and with consideration for the time of others, easy to understand, grasp concepts you share, and minimize potential for insult or critique of others lives, and stay focused on your own life, not threatened by others, not be easily harmed. Losing control over your life happens all the time, whether missing a deadline, filing for an extension, trying to build something new, you know nothing about, reading instructions, then try to apply your knowledge to the tools youve been given in life, it all takes time to move fluidly through life, be patient with yourself in between phases, and dont worry so much about what you look like during the recovery process, you cant stay well, if you dont take yourself seriously, and it matters more to others to see you centered in control of yourself, than to be fun or likeable. We all go through changes in life, its how you adapt post change that separates you as a success. Can you get out of inefficiency, can you be more efficient, are you diligent, do you care. Well than show all those skills, manage your time wisely, and please more people and forget the rest. You cant move forward over-focusing on the past, dont bring yourself down in life. -So one day at a time, reflect, be cautious, but dont stop moving forward in life!
Sometimes it gets to be too much, whos in the lead, whos left behind, who understands, who has a better grasp of life than others, causing an inner sadness, not as happy as, not as good as, not as successful as, then follows a feeling of incapability, gone from smart, going nowhere. These are good times to stay disciplined, to feel good, to speak well, sound good, not by connecting during a down, thats when its too much, unless you have arrived to well, people prefer not to have their time wasted in small talk, mini stories, and want the main point of things, sometimes as a writer you dont arrive to points, and sometimes you do, its all about what you see and what you hear and how things look from the inside, know yourself well.
Some voices are mean and the meaner they get and advance rejections of you screaming at you, means your not viable for public acceptance ready to represent others nor yourself. If you are scared inside, your voice gets lost, and you only shine look well clear if you are going to live, doing what is right, living long, or suffering day to day, you cant go back and change what represents us, but never allow for poor behavior to continue can be perfected. #nobelprize -My book was sent to them.
With mental health issues, recovery is more about surviving the day without feeling bad about yourself, hear voices, worry what people think, and get down on yourself self-harm. Thats not the way to live life, if you cant turn your day around, you cant turn your life around, food for thought. Having a positive mindset means not predicting the worst seeing the best in others, and expanding our capabilities to cope with the present moment, whether we are at odds, whether we are shining, whether our lights get dimmed, thats life, hardwork to sanity. Having a normal outlook and perspective is so important, where do you stand in the grand scheme of things, and are you important or trying to be important, and understand why you are important. What are your gifts in life, if its helping others, dont self-harm and stay sober! Everyones a rookie to failure! Do your best!
A loss of repect for you, thinking you are gone and because you did not live life responsibly you engaged in friendships and dating, that put your body and mind at risk of harm, via the judgments of others, stuff people dont want to hear about, unattractive things to know about you. Anyone taunting you is trying to prove that they cannot remove you from their lives, as though their life is more important than you, to make jokes defending a basketball player Ron Artest, who attacked a fan, and has mental health issues, lets not go there, try me and see if I care, and still live my life anyways, its about who wants who these days, turned off, about how others make you feel being around you, trustworthy, honest, get to know the feminine side of you, allow you to blossom and be fun, for some of us that point never arrives, professional. Who hasnt had bad breakups, when love is lost, and both do not know why, just let go, or work on yourself, give time, for the other to want to include you in their life, be thankful that everyone is still here and living for their families, doing their best, adults now, wiser, kinder. -Just like I got removed from the face of the earth, I deserve to live life too.
If there are no dictated rules or concepts directed for others to make use of your work, then thats on you for not being more detailed and saving all the good points made, so your bad days dont shine, or loom over you, as a reflection of where you are now, gone or lost. Just went for a walk today havent run in awhile. If what you look like matters "physically" then do your best to keep your shape, and maintain a positive presence, no matter how far youve come socially, romantically, image wise, handling teasing, to not be a source of reference for past works, or current works, influence, if you can be better be better, there is a stopping point to inspiration, looked upon graciously, if they dont know who you are, or why you need help, is how you get put down in life, its a very tough position to be in, when whats known about you, affects you. Others will try to bring out the most immature responses from you under stress, being mature is about getting a job and keeping a job being professional, disconnected, listen well. When you listen well and follow directions, is how trust is made, thats a professional bond, gets work done. When work gets done you will be treated nicely, you dont have to accept any favors from people, money, or a paycheck, if you can be professional, then money will be exchanged. -If you take things personally, you let yourself down in life.
Just got my dose of Wellbutrin upped to 300mg/daily, and off of Vyvanse for two weeks. Doing my best to manage symptoms of Schizophrenia, and stay focused and balanced. Theres no cure for mental health issues, other than to see a qualified Psychiatrist. Most will not be understanding of your condition, until you are normal, come to appreciate your insights, while on their own, trying to navigate in the world, listening only on the basis of wealth, status, or other hierarchical principles of wellness, when it comes to general thoughts and well being. Not everyones experience with mental health issues, are the same, just as no one feels sorry for you if you have schizophrenia & bipolar (hospitalized 9 times - 14 days/per) just thinks less of you, expecting someone of your social status or education to be not only well spoken but also affluent meaning, able to make money, no affluence can be generated from popularity alone, not through a blog, and certainly not by who you know, can make you feel better when it comes to social well being and mental health issues. Why some people dream, of a better life for themselves, thats not an escape from your current life, its an escape from what people think of your life, as it is now. At what point to lives look small, as compared, and as compared sometimes you make other people feel small, or appear, less than, depending upon whether you are domineering or simply being subservient to the interests of other judged. Thats basing your likeability upon whether they are attracted to you, dont be mistaken, attractibility is important in some respects to representing others well and being affluent, and avoiding mental health issues as a separate consideration, which affluence should not encounter or attract, the esteem of others who are not affluent, taking their anger out on people, who they think have it better than them in life, or by making fun of their health status, no longer see them as human, better off.
With regards to Facebook, "likes block" because I was getting 300 likes a post, my likes got blocked, and called 911 and was hospitalized. Thats not me coming up, and setting others off, thats me coming up, as better, and as better, support the wellness of all, and as made to look stupid, suffer just the same, down now from 1000-4000 likes per post, once ranked 34,000s on Alexa, a website is high maintenance. Nothing is a product of me, its more a product of how I am treated, worse off.
According to bustle.com, there are ....
7 Ways to Look On The Bright Side & Be More Positive :"
(1) Rid Yourself Of Negative Thinkers. ...
(2) Share Positivity With Others. ...
(3) Search For The Silver Lining. ...
(4) Practice Gratitude. ...
(5) Separate Fact From Fiction. ...
(6) Pick A Positive Thought. ...
(7) Move More.
According to "Travis Bradberry, emotional intelligence and leadership writer, said it is important to separate fact from fiction when thinking about negative aspects of our lives in an article for Forbes. He recommend writing down exactly what you're thinking in order to evaluate its veracity."
Just do your best with the given resources you have for coping. You wont know unless you try. And although the times may be trying, that doesnt mean that you cant bounce back, and be a better or stronger person one day, more resilient to the daily stresses, thinking about life, where you see yourself in the future, as well as evaluate whos around you. Seems like a good time for writing and journaling, theres no better way to get to know yourself, than through writing. Tracking youre feelings and thoughts from day to day, can give you great insight into whats to come, what you value, and what living life means to you. Its a tough subject, the importance of discipline, when it comes to preserving our own humanity, and just as we want to live healthier happy lives, its easier said than done. Most of us, arent in relationships, most of us don't have steady jobs, and most of us are finishing degrees, waiting to go back out into the world, so what does that mean? When the economy suffers so do we, and that doesnt mean give up, it simply means to navigate with the times, and pick an appropriate course of action, when it comes to managing your life crisis. Nows a great time to reboot, stay sober, not do drugs, its you time, how to built a better you, and it starts with your thinking.
Before I started blogging I had three internships, one in Film Distribution working on "The Lot" in West Hollywood where OWN TV is, one working for Senator Hertzberg in the Valley doing research, and one working for pillowguy.com at the WeWork in the Pacific Design Center. I guess you could say Ive had great work experience prior to working online creating my own blog. What does working from home mean? It means flexible work hours, time for myself to read and run errands, and time to edit and work on books. Its a full time committment, writing. You dont really understand, how a writers mind works until the moment you pick up the pen and start writing, it seems to be non-stop from that point on. In the meantime I have been working on finishing my Masters in Law LLM in Financial Compliance and Risk Management at Thomas Jefferson School of Law. It may seem like Im all over the place, but I do believe in the importance of continuing to work, even during in between phases in life. I hope everything works out for me in the long run, get a paid job one day! Ive enjoyed blogging, and have learned so much about myself, and while meeting my audiences need, hear back via likes, what interests you guys most. The main point is to keep going in life, no matter what meds you get prescribed, no matter what job you have, no matter what you do in your down time, love the life youre in, and dont stop no matter what. It seems that whenever we stop in life, it becomes harder to get going, again, whether that be a gym routine, a blogging routine, or work schedule. Which is what working from home is all about, not losing your skills, while at home, and continuing to learn, for me I learned blogging and how to build a website with traffic on my own. The skies the limit, when it comes to writing, value yourself, and in valuing yourself, others will find value in you, and your work ethic. Never stop believing in yourself, and never give up!
Its now been 5 days on Wellbutrin and still trucking along. Its not been an easy 5 days off of vyvanse or adderrall, sleeping all day and all night for the first few days, I just started getting going again today, and will make an effort to post once a day, and continue free reading.
The purpose of benefiting from wellness is so that if attached, you are not harmed, feel better by what is shared, how it is shared, from who it is shared, get a clearer picture of life, and where you see yourself with respect to others in the world feel capable. Thats if you are not denominated in life, to something you are not, you cant control the treatments of you in life, always assume that everyone is doing their best to inspire and keep others well around you. A lot of negative input is seeing how you respond to insult, whether by delusion you think things are about, if you are in the public sphere, and then try to make things about you, to cause a disservice to the services already being provided to all and working fine. That would be throwing a wrench into a system of thought, where clarity cannot be reached, only someone with a clear conscious, can provide insight to others, and its upon being punished for whatever reasons, that one becomes unclear, either by others, or by what specifically caused someone to lose conscious awareness of the wellness around them, and be constantly paranoid, about their own safety needs, wellness needs, and build trusting relationships. its not by who you know you are trusted, but its by how you respond when thrust into any controversies, made to look like a chump in life, or a bottom feeder, someone who is friends with those who cause harm to others, not someone who looks out after others, and condone, the mistreatment of peace, as though by your behaviors, actions, and feelings are not a solid contributor of insights. I think people think its easy to write live and by all stories told, blame your energy as the cause for losses, as though upon your mentions, lives are lost, or people feel lost, because you are lost or suffering, as though because you have suffered mental health issues, far graver than the issues faced while in law school (JD) have not recovered. If I had not recovered I would not have been a 3.0 GPA Law Student at Thomas Jefferson School of Law, and because I was sharp, but not confident, was treated as someone who is less than, because I had yet to go out into the world, with confidence, and beauty, and get jobs, and be apart of the real world. that opportunity for a normal life was not afforded to me, after years of solitude, studying and trying to finish law school. That is why I had time to volunteer, time to put up flyers, time to watch CSPAN, and time to live life and think about life and "grow up" experience other hardships that people face who do not return from drinking, addiction, and dating, that is no ones fault but myself for going out on my own to see what the rest of the world was like, before deciding to build a website and blog. -Give people time to heal from their mistakes in life.
In being professional you will slowly come to realize that not all happiness is shared. I dont think it was meant to be shared. Well. In love. Sober. Clean. Working. In Recovery. Suffering. Disabled. Successful. You kind of pass by people in life, and get a gist of what they have been up to, but no one really ever, thinks out loud to one another. Thats not normal. To hear someone share their thoughts about life, or share stories from their life. Living is about what you are doing now. There will be moments of instability. That is true. Thinking things are a certain way and realizing that they are not that way. Or looking back and thinking others think poorly of you but do not. Thats just living life. One day at a time. Some teach you to focus on yourself, in order to make things right. And sometimes you focus on others, meaning putting others before yourself, thats being selfless, not in a bipolar way trying to control others, with your thoughts about life, thats giving back to your community in a way, thats not condescending, sharing your insights, some things will make sense to others, and some things you will say will not make sense, thats just reading and writing. Learning to speak for yourself, without skipping a beat. That means not allowing whats others have to think or say to interfere with your better judgments, and not become something you are not, by then they have won, thinking you think you are bigger than you are, or something you are not: beautiful, talented, gifted, or smart. No one will think any of that of you, if you experince mental health issues. Many mental health issues are not our fault, sometimes by things we hear, based upon how we are treated, are more or less confident around others, and thats not because we are doing anything wrong, or because there is anything wrong with us, its just seeing us, lit, thinking that we think we are bigger than we are, or think of ourselves as more important than others see us. You learn to roll with the punches, following any event in life, in which you are not looked highly upon, thats being punished in life, and not at your best, and then after getting well, if you get well, being forced to explain what experiences in life caused you to suffer from mental health issues, and how you were able to overcome mental health issues. Not all will be accepting of you, and most will think that in your exaggerated prose, you intended to present yourself as more well than you were, once a worse condition occurs, thats just mental health issues, you have to manage your symptoms and condition daily, its a daily effort, to not allow your mind or yout thoughts to become deteriorated by feelings, unwanted feelings, and lose energy, over voices, or become moody or an unhappy person, once that happens, nothing works out for you in life, thats just unhappy people, never happy with themselves, and never happy with others, upset at the world, upset about their circumstances, and only happy once they are happy with how life is. Take a look around, people are happy in spite of a lot of things in life. And while Im nice enough to share things I thought when I was not well, its not a proud moment to say the least and very embarrassing to speak in hashtags, and not write in a professional tone, nothing to be proud of. -Without fail you will always be held down to your worst moments in life, and much to the chagrin of those who imposed difficulties onto you in life, judging you, thinking less of you, or thinking they were better than you, thats just food for thought, how worth it is it to care looking back, if everything is a reflection of them, and none of it a reflection of everything positive you have done in your life, to have a life, lives a good life, and be fortunate enough to share your life online, meet new people, start a business, be offered money for your business to buy your business.
(1) http://www.mymollydoll.com/website-personal-statement.html (Website Personal Statement)
(2) http://www.mymollydoll.com/facebook-speeches (Facebook Speeches)
(3) http://www.mymollydoll.com/facebook-deductions.html (Facebook Deductions)
(4) http://www.mymollydoll.com/emails (Important Emails)
I never saw myself as important, and because I did not see myself as important I was important to others, and had people in my life, seeing myself as apart of, not better than. Because I dont see myself as better than, I was approachable, and because I was approachable spoken to. Its only upon becoming better than, that the opinions you hold of others matter, why people feel threatened by you, so to counteract your ability to look or appear better than, are put down in life, thats to punish you, upon achieving a well condition, to make things about others condition, to see if that betters others, upon arresting you, or suing you. Actually its only upon me doing well, that things get better for me around me, and its only upon doing well website wise, that opportunities open up for people around me, and do their relationships with others get better, easier to talk to, less about whats going wrong, and have more things to talk about, with less going wrong in their lives, or the lives of people they are close to, feel more sociable. There is not acting when anyone you are close to around you is going through something difficult, thats the misconception, that being raised around fame, situated me as better off or more well than others, spiritually, or mature faster than anyone else, watching the news. If there were a place in life, above everyone, it wouldnt be one woman's place, thats for sure. And if it was one womans place that others sought to be like or be better than, it was because it was encouraged by their parents "to be more like Leslie" to two of my best friends at one point, before they matured, and blossomed, and became popular on their own. Thats on a personal note. On a public note when it comes to the identities of those who are famous, whos parents were once friends Cici and my Mom, who were both friends with Kris Jenner, who was best friends with Nicole Brown Simpson, who is my best friends Mother, you would understand that each were well on their own with families, popular together, whether or not they were married, divorced, or separated, we as children still had lives, unaffected initially, only until now, looking back through our lives, probably should be more appreciative of what they went through being on the news, having suffered a loss, a friend murdered, and done more with our lives socially, and publicly, to stand up for what they went through in adulthood, thats what being successful is all about, understanding where you come from, without having to explain to others, what you went through, account for your losses, in a positive way, whether that be becoming famous, going to law school, modeling, teaching at Harvard, building a website for the betterment of all, its each ones responsibility to not bring the rest down, as later connected upon reaching moments of success, and after contacting one another, not be offended by one anothers wellness, or conditions, seek to be good on our own, unaffected by eachothers troubles, as well as the past, having suffered losses, and near losses (ie my Father hospitalized 2018, why I got a job, to bring him good news). Sometimes upon watching other people live their lives, we think that they are out of control, too much energy, trying too hard, or doing too well, taking too many notes, too detailed an outline, writing too much on an exam, and think that it has to do with their drive, to "#freeoj" and punish them, as though thats the main point or purpose for their journey going to law school, as though they are not aware of whats going on on TV, punish them, as though they were doing wrong up to no good with a boyfriend, and on top of a TV Show, send them to rehab for two months, why I was disowned, by my siblings, and my best friend was hard on me, how could someone with two jobs, and in law school part-time, suffer so much defamation before fame. If you treat someone like they know code, or expect them to respond to the code, and see how they feel when put among, then try me, I am just as witty as the best of them, capable of being cordial like the rest of them, and can model with the best of them, no matter what size I am, feel pretty and be smart. That really proved nothing, it just goes to show that when confidence is based upon how you feel around others, as being read or controlled, and misread, is how you lose confidence in life. Based upon how you are treated when put among, suffer losses, when you get looked at as stupid, and told things, to disorient you, or your Mom by phone, Boss who controls you, as texted by them, thats to illustrate, who is on point and who is gone, I can control my own Mom, thank you very much, and upon telling her not to text my Mom, we had a falling out, but still friends. -If people think less of you then thats how you get treated.
Its by whats important to you, as stated, you get viewed upon, as having the energy, know how, and understanding of the scope of difficulties, others are encountering in their lives, or whether you are still stuck on subsidiary issues, such as personal losses, or hardships, not thinking about everyone else at this time. Some have the courage to help others, and some dont. Its not always necessary to help others, by informing them of what we know, as though that will ever make a difference, but it does help, to prepare others with how to cope with losses or hardships, in that I have experienced my share of losses, and hardships, and still alive today. For some it just doesnt do it for me, its not giving me what I need to know, in order to make a decision about my life, or finances, means that Im not the right person for you at this time. If you are coming to me for advice about how to make your life better, than I may not be your solution to bettering yourself, until I have been able to better my own life, and the lives of those around me. Some have very high expectations of others, that they do the work for them, such as research and write citation papers, articles, without pay, I simply dont have the time energy and patience, for that right now, and have a dissertation I need to to attend to. When I am able to focus wholeheartedly upon my website (i.e. lose weight, not experiencing voices bipolar, and insult because of dislike for me), and improve upon what has been written, then at that time I will do so. What is discussed is important to me, as it concerns my freedoms, and what is thought of me, making world peace deductions, in sobriety, and while in recovery, on different meds, and in between doctors, thats really no ones right to know, what my medical condition is self-harming or not, that has nothing to do with anyone (voices) thats my problem as it concerns my well being, my ability to function, and move forward in life. These entries are not defenses, nor is this website a defense to anyone or any set of ideas, about me or others. This is simply a website, to help others, now its a time of need, then when I wanted to launch, was a time of need but for others reasons, not launched then, when is it time to help yourself and to help others, when you become successful and able to earn money, then when you become a worthwhile investment to others, can others profit from your stability and success. -You will always be judged based upon the services you sought to provide, and based upon whether those services have been provided to all, judged as whether with all sincerity you are currently providing the same caliber of support you once were providing (quotes, and blog posts) in a way that is palatable to the tastes of all, not just personal insights or opinions, based upon mental health issues, but able to also respond to real issues too. #worldpeace -Fixing yourself requires a lot of motivation on your part to counter-hate toward you, to rise above arguments, disagreements, personal issues such as personal history and memory, and continue to be a good person, in spite of the past, what others think, and be focused on what needs to get done in order to be a better person, more successful, while at the same time continue to help. Sometimes I think its where people think you are trying to be in life, put you down in life, as not good enough for a future place in life, thats the force with which you are hurt or put down, so that you cant move forward in life, so that you get looked at, not with respect, to see how you respond without respect, as though that wasnt the first thing you said before a suicide attempt 2009: paid respects. (Now, this conversation does me a disservice, after reading my resume, and seeing how I was able to achieve in spite of being hospitalized, then treated as someone who was not well able, or sober, I was third in my class when I started law school summer 2009, and recovered from bipolar, able, well. Bipolar is a treatable condition, its always when you are up in life, you get put down, and its not until you prove them right: hospitalized 8 more times 2013 to Now, that you start to explain why, by then the harm as already been done to your reputation, your medical records are your #HIPAA, this is not a campaign for kids, to speak to kids, to help kids, I already worked for kids summer 2010. Thats hurting me, to say that I am working directly with a population, to say that my condition, is abusive, because Im not able to stay well, its not my fault I cant stay well, if other people dont like me. Its not my fault, if other people dont trust that I was well at the time I worked, and was not doing anything bad, its because they heard about my second date with a 48 year old, while working at CLC, that was a date in Pasadena, they only heard about my first date at Villa Blanca, judged me wrong, that occurred after Michael Jackson passed away, when I started Law School. At this time, I dont think its appropriate to shed light upon losses, and to connect me to people who have passed, as though in Law School I should have known, what losses were about, just beginning to understand now, how losses can happen, doing my best to help those in need, not be brought down in life. I used to go to Neverland Ranch as a child with my best friend Sydney Simpson, we drove golf carts, with music).
Regarding our current financial hardships, with one win under our belt for #california, read:
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