For the most part moving forward means not treating open spaces as private spaces for public discussion, that is taking your experiences in life, stories, or your memory, and then using your recollections to hurt you. Everyone lives their own life, and its to each ones responsibility to live the hours of their life, be wise, and live productively. You cannot move forward if you keep revisiting old issues, or your past, as recorded (i.e. google photos, iCloud), as memorized or remembered by others by a third view not an in person view or knowledge of you, or timeline. Mostly when we respond to attacks on others or our character we respond, we do not save in memory, those moments, but remember the best moments led, to their lives that is the victims. There are many unrecognized victims to a story, and just by reading this, I understand that there is care there, and just by reading this I understand my responsibility is not to care what other people think of me in the past and continue to do well presently, sleep every night, take meds as directed, and not leave room for error moving forward, live life as productively as possible, that means staying home, staying out of trouble, and working on my dissertation until I’m able to work again off disability. If you work online on social media, you are bound to save and keep track somewhat of the past, I recommend doing your best to save your own best work, not the work of others, as reference or to be remembered, you’ll mostly want to see your own personal growth irrespective of whats going on around you, and not respond personally to whats going on around you, in public, or online, on social media, make reference to in response, its by what you say following an incident, that marks you down for interpretation.
Everything in small doses, is what I would say. Whether you do or do not self-harm, too much of anything is not a good idea. Never take a bad photo of yourself, that’s the worst way to play doctor on yourself, always choose to remember your best self, not your worst moments. Don’t be defined by the times you felt most embarrassed, or a wreck, your guaranteed once those feelings resurface to go back to those moments in time, its by your better moments you move forward with ease. You only have one identity, and everything you put online, well it lasts there forever, that’s your impression upon the world, whether for business or pleasure, how you attract your audience, and build esteem, personally and professionally. There’s a lot of stigma surrounding people who self-harm, especially others not wanting to associate to those who do.  Therefore, don’t go on engaging in behavior knowingly making others feel uncomfortable talking about it to them. Theres one thing, having a bipolar episode, in public, and its another thing to have a bipolar episode in public then share about it, sometimes less is more, and when you figure out the causes for self-harm then do your best to get help, call NAMI.  After researching online self-harm and blogging I didn’t find much other than self-harmers who blog, and stories from their blogs about self-harming. Does blogging cause self-harm? Is blogging self-harm? Well not for all, apparently blogging is useful to self-harmers to share their stories, but I don’t think all would agree that it’s a safe subject to talk about, we always do our best to avoid, things from happening again in our lives, if it results in self-harm. The good news is that self-harmers are not suicidal, in fact one article argues the following: “The underlying mindset between someone who is suicidal and someone who self-harms is very different.”  Self-harm has been defined as “a habitual way of coping with stress.”  The better your coping mechanisms are, the better off you’ll be and avoid situations and/or people that influence or cause you stress, that is the knowing of information that causes you discomfort, that’s your right to privacy, therefore the less you share about yourself, the more unnecessary stress you will suffer having others know the same personal and private information about you, less likely to self-harm over it. Do your best always to get help when needed, but don’t be too hard on yourself, you don’t always know when mental health issues, may arise, during the course of blogging or sharing of your past, that’s why its best to always do so, with guidance by a medical professional.
To avoid popular comparisons, to those who have achieved success in their lives and are successful, don’t denounce those who are, by perpetuating insult toward, as the keeper of resentments or contributors to humor as directed as causes for domestic hate, that’s would be blaming good people, for sharing stories from their lives, as though knowing that music or film was trying to portray reality as through forms of entertainment, I think for the most part these sources and outlets of support are for making life more enjoyable, not for influencing illness or sickness upon others, as though felt, or occurring, learn how to leave people alone, and not do anyone unwanted in public, that means retaliating upon or making sick others, because you yourself bear some resemblance to illness, that would be contributing to illness, or weirdness, I think taxi cabs and coffee shops have covered for everything odd, its best to let others, enjoy life, find love, and continue to do well and achieve success not to the disparagement of others. If you cannot handle anyone in your meditation space, that is because their voice affects you negatively as heard without you present, that is someone who you have come into contact with knowing you, and speaking badly of you if you are not in the public sphere, and then claim victim to worry they have for you, you are your own responsibility not the responsibility of others, and false alarms, are false alarms, and not causes for retaliation upon others, to connect incidences of self-harm and correlate story telling and self-harm and or suicide, to pictures on buildings and by where people live, or have lived past … put together as likeness to someone of bad or poor standing, allow poor judgement of them to be past, upon the telling or making known, all negative incidences that follow the sharing of a story are the responsibility of those who are directly associated to the prying and the pulling of private information from a person, which occurs not upon experiment but upon going through the private spaces of others as recorded, relive their past, as viewed by someone past, or present reviewing their current turmoil, and then triggering them to re-experience an incident past, which is made available only in private, to one’s self not to any others, that is a misuse of going through the private life of someone’s personal space, and causing discomfort or extortion of the self-care routines, or maintenance of self, which is none of the business of others, to pry. #righttoprivacy
Stay calm and don’t respond to news or other media outlets, follow the guidance of professionals, and always get counsel from 911, whenever you feel scared or under duress, that could mean one of two things, you are not well, or the hearing of news is making you not feel well. Its best to ignore others, whenever you feel threatened by anyone, not enable others to cause harm to you or disempower you, that causes depression, a stuck state, or scared state, always do your best to seek professional help, ie meditation, therapy, music, film, entertainment outlets online, or professional sources of news to help process events or stories, in a way that makes sense to you, not all opinions, or facts will be of benefit to everyone, and sometimes the sharing of information personal, can be used to argue that your illness are a contributory factor, not a preventative measure, help sought or received, and for purposes of getting help, self-serving, theres a tremendous amount of pressure anytime a joke is placed on you, and with that fear of what people think, always do your best not to condemn others for their actions toward you as this incites fear to them, and retaliation upon you, always see the positive. You cannot expect everyone to be nice to you, and/or blame you for the illnesses of others, or poor decision-making skills of others to which images are harmed, or reputations of people, as associated or brought up, affected similarly negatively as you are being hurt by others, always take it like a man, that doesn’t mean self-harm it just means being quiet in public as to your own issues, and pleasant around others on your best days, and stay home on days when you are not well or until you get well, you don’t have to be out in public if you are not well, those are usually the days that you get taken advantage of or treated differently not on guard as tired, or unable to meet the demands of socialization. That’s normal social anxiety.
Its is not required that upon being squeezed in life you divulge information past concerning what people thought of you then to argue that is deserved now, be contentious of the feelings of others or those who come forward and share, that they are going through a lot right now, and probably not confrontational, then to make someone not confrontational fight, causes illness to all sides, who just want peace and peace of mind, that’s not being accepting of the privacies of others, not respecting the peace of others, and thinking that some individual interest is more important that serving the interest of the greater good, that’s called being selfish, when someone who thinks by their actions, can trigger a set of circumstances or actions upon others, control whats around them, that’s being provocative with words or actions, to provoke illness in others, or to out them as something they are not. Be wary that there are many victims to a puzzle, and some need no mention, when someone does everything possible to communicate to others, and when not well in private spaces discuss their problems out loud after coming off bed rest, give them time to adjust, and be accepting of one anothers disabilities in life. Not everyone is capable of self expression, not everyone has confidence, and not everyone is able to vocalize or share how they are feeling out loud, that doesn’t require patience but requires acceptance from others. I too am a victim of story telling, I committed suicide and that’s not why I committed suicide, I wrote a very nice blog on Instagram, my first book. Its not deserved to be put down, but don’t go to unauthorized systems of support, is how you get hurt that’s not people not being down with you, that’s people not wanting to be associated to you, knowing you, or by what they hear about you, think you are bad for business, or bad for association, or (now) bad as an influence to others, with bipolar, I have not assumed any leadership positions, but I’m not street, Im just accepting of all people, let them feel bigger than me, that’s my gift is making people feel smart, now Im in the need of help, and need to find others who are above me more experienced, but accepting trusting of information I know, to help me make basic decisions for myself, not others, put them at risk of harm, commit suicide.
You cannot justify change just like you cannot justify a retaliation upon you for changes you’ve made following incidents when you were not well, not up to par, not at your best. Its then that acceptance of you makes no difference, but your own wellness becomes paramount to your thoughts about what others are thinking, as you assume that they are thinking in the negative of you, if limited to only a few, leave it at that, if you can correct your behavior (#sober) then do so, if you are only made to feel sick if drinking then don’t let those stories about you take hold of your ability to function in society as a positive member of the work force, by those stories of you be put together to cast you out as looking bad or a loose canon, for not being well then, and then try to justify or argue why not doing well now, the causes for suicide are not the same for members of the upper class, and members of the work force, there is a missing component money, and success, a law student is someone who works hard but does not get paid for their work, that means they need to prove their ability to achieve and to keep going in life not burn out to become a member of the professional class and work force as a writing or legal professional, why I’m a writer with an LLM Masters in Law (2019) not an Attorney. No one with empathize with anyone they feel wronged by, and by their successes think not justified or proper for you to be among the well, or be treated properly as well, based upon stories heard about you when you were not well, its not therefore my fault and not therefore the fault of others, for gun violence or for suicide, resulting from unwanted pressures, that’s just people not wanting to be around people who are not well, not wanted a previous association to be known about them, not wanting others to feel left out get sick, not wanting to include others and make others similarly sick, it becomes a situation where there is limited room for error, on the part of those who are trying to achieve success, and the successful defensive to those who are trying to achieve success, make them look or appear less than, to build themselves up or to prevent association, deter association, or make known an unwanted association, to. This is because once a relationship ends in order for new relationships to happen, those past feelings are no longer, and to minimize the chances of people thinking those feeling still exist, disassociate from people, places or things that remind them of someone who has harmed them, or to avoid people places or things of where harm has occurred, or what has caused one illness, if it can be fixed than fix it, but don’t make matters worse … trying to fix other peoples judgements of you along the way, you’re likely not to make as much progress than you are having ignored everyone and simply doing your best to start a new life as best you can. In these cases you cannot prove others wrong, as by their evidences in life, depending upon whether they feel you are winning in life or not, prove you wrong.
If you’re not happy with the past and wondering as happy now, why we were not afforded the same privileges growing up, well then welcome to the club. Not all things as they are now, are the same but different, we cannot change the times, or blame the 90s for anything now occurring, which in the past we feel was not dealt with accordingly, every time period, has its own way of dealing with problems, not all time periods are the same, nor people nor devices we are left to for assembly of ideas or persons, if all things were simple, we would all be created equal, but some have greater access to systems of support and coping more so than others, we should not labor ourselves to assembling ideas in life, but spend the majority of our time on earth assembling ourselves, its when you are doing your best to better yourself each day, not worried what others think, is when you think best thoughts appropriate in the right places in life, not focused on others, or their methodologies or rationales. People who do not know you in life, will think differently as from their age, occupation, and standing, we cannot all feel the same, if so, empathy would cause illness, not be deemed as helpful to show compassion toward others, or to have empathy for what others are going through in life, to not empathize with the hardships faced by others, is generally thought deserved if a person is categorized as not well, or not a functioning member of society in the work force or wed. We cannot all arrive at success at the same time, nor arrive at a later future point in time, where we are better unless we start getting better now, if youre not feeling well, chances are others are not feeling well around you, or it could be bipolar where you are not feeling well, thinking others are having ill thoughts towards you, and causing you illness, because they do not feel well around you, not because they are not well on their own. It takes a certain type of person’s humor to make everyone feel apart of, that is by people you know, we cant all be comedians, its usually by friends that know and love you accept them, do not disappoint or take advantage of the wellness of others, thinking its to express any discord you are encountering and then to spread that discord among friends, life doesn’t work that way, its among strangers that discord spreads. // If youre not happy with the past, youre not being appreciative of where you are now, and if you are not happy with where you are now, you are not being appreciative of the past, and if youre thinking was not in alignment past, you don’t need your thinking to be in alignment now, to better understand the past or present, should make no difference moving forward, what was related in the past who has been punished, and for what reasons, think that its by association people are punished, or for acts people are punished. Its by actions people are punished, rights and wrongs, not systems of notoriety or association are people set back in life or brushed aside, as unimportant, and from anyone looking on the outside in, well they have the benefit of knowing people, thinking its about them, and if you do not write in a way that benefits their psyche, think that you are being purposeful or not making sense, out of lack of intelligences in life, how intelligent do you need to be to function among, and how forward minded to you need to be to rise above. How important are technology and connections? I was thinking with no connections in life, I have faired well, successful academically and career wise. I don’t think by connections you get jobs in life, in fact I have been applying for years, that is not a matter of discrimination, nor the purpose for blogging, as though I have always suffered from mental illness, its only recently, the last few years, its because of disappointment, embarrassment, and failure one becomes suicidal, unforgiving of the past, I am not suicidal.
Looking back its easy to say I knew this was gonna happen. Exactly what are you referring to? When people take it too far. Its usually for advancements in society that people push the bounds for acceptance, without “fear of the other person’s negative reaction” and without regard for any “hinder[ance] [of] a relationship from reaching its potential.”  Those who in the process of seeking to be known, know this, there is only so many first interactions and first impressions you can make, and it usually starts with presentation, not common sense. What is common sense? The news, manners, etiquette, from where do we learn these “common” practices, its usually by example, that others are led, and by learning from the best acquire the tone in common acceptance of or achieve the wellness in accordance with principles of wellness deemed more important than leading other discussions in life, astray. That is but one principle of acceptance, what we adhere to, well that’s not religion, its just knowing the difference between right and wrong. Its best to therefore be “conflict-avoidant”  and “learn which behaviors are and are not acceptable”  especially in writing or in any industry which pushes the bounds of achieving normalcy, not relative to the times or helpful, but a reflection of something ongoing past it seeks to bring about, that’s not moving forward, that’s opening a can of worms. In some cases “It takes courage to overcome inhibitions, break through barriers, and take chances.”  When you understand how you make other people feel, well then that’s awareness, and when you can comprehend, how mentions make others feel uncomfortable, well that’s acceptance not of your own thoughts, but of the thoughts and maintenance of the good condition of others, as their good character relies, on their own image of perfection, not to be used to help perfect your own life or image, that’s when its time to be yourself, not next to anyone or any set of ideas, to help identify yourself, but you inherently have internalized what it is that makes you who you are, that’s a proper transformation of what causes you illness, and not sharing those facets of thoughts or life, that ail you, instead doing the right thing which is to live and lead by example, not by story telling alone of how you got to where you are now thought wise, and in better condition than you were, having had those thoughts, therefore the later sharing of thoughts that have caused you illness, is that for purposes of your own wellness (think to yourself) or for the purposes of benefiting or preventing future illness? That would be one example of an appropriate pushing of boundaries if the effect is positive looking back and if the future as looking upon us thinks positively not depressed by the obviousness of non-disclosures, of patterns seen, we can’t all be Michelangelo, with the same ceiling overhead.
The are certain times to discuss the past, now is not one of them, for the most part on good days we live presently, resided in our thoughts about today and our future, that means that people are moving forward. There are a few things I remind myself of whenever bipolar hits:
You wont always know what to say … during times of chaos, but especially during times of peace and a multitude of successes, discuss the past, as it relates to you. Who is benefiting from situations or the telling of stories, is it your story to tell. When is a good time to come forward and take on some leadership when it comes to influences in life, is it appropriate to speak for others, not always. Stick to what youre good at, if its psychopathology then discuss your thoughts in a psychotherapeutic environment, is it about entertainment media or news, then its best to rely on sources in entertainment to understand from where other peoples thoughts come from on the subject. When it comes to being special, it is the stories about our lives that make us feel special, and the sharing of stories about others, usually despecializes them to others, or makes us appear as though we are all knowing, no one knows it all. You usually know your own life well, but you don’t understand or always know the lives of others well enough, by contact, or interaction to explain from their point of view what you see has happened or dictate what you think has occurred show that you now have a general understanding … that usually makes it look like you have had an understanding all along.
After you’ve shared anything personal, give it a minute to process or even a day, sometimes not all thoughts are appropriate. You don’t want to be read by everyone, but at the same time you are supposed to make eye contact in conversations and be read read others in order to have a conversation. I think for the most part, your beliefs are viewpoints you keep to yourself, not everyone shares online, their opinions on entertainment or politics, these things you usually keep to yourself, listening or watching for the time period it takes to hear a song or movie, but if youre not in the industry its not something you think about, so it would be wrong to assume that everyone on the outside or inside thinks the same, or that all things alike come from the same places or set of ideas. Everyone has their own influences in life, not all people are the same. Just keep that in mind when sharing your two cents. If it would not be known had you not shared, then that could be something private, or something shared only among people to a group or profession known. Not all people are lucky enough to work in different industries, I’m not sure if that causes illness, to know too many people, but I think when it comes to connections less is more, growing up you don’t really think about the politics of knowing people or go by what people think, youre usually into your own thoughts, thinking you have your whole life ahead of you young, but as you get older, pickier, with whom you associate with and by who you are connected to changes, may change, based upon your wellness, if you don’t stay well, you miss out on events, important days, and forget to stay in contact with people close to you, that’s a product of drinking (and addiction) its hard to go backwards and reconnect, sharing is one way of reconnecting with others, but not if you dive into new subjects or old subjects and for some send backwards in time, to their surprise you’ve just arrived at jokes, these things or thoughts no one would admit to, that is thinking everyone is thinking the same thing when they see someone famous, or see a group of people who are famous together. On the outside looking in it seems that everyone talks or is in sync with one another, but that’s not the case, not everyone talks in real life, best is to live life, on your own terms not the terms set by others, not that youll be out of the loop, but that’s okay its better than trying to stay in the loop and get disoriented, we used to read about others professionally not by what is said about them in summary to things that they share about themselves, by writing professionals in magazine, but that’s no the case today, you have to do your own PR and that’s by staying well.
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I think generally… anything made privately shared in public is considered offensive to the recipient who in private spaces or confidences, needs no mention of experience with or of interactions made privately, that’s considered confidentiality, and maintaining confidences, that’s a matter of professional standards, but not in the private sphere to those who live public lives, often times their private lives are by what makes them human all the more so, judged by how they are in private … determines whether they are of good standing in public. That is how to rate anyones professionalism, by how they appear in public and how they treat others in private, that is how one determines, their good character, whether fit for certain clients, or subject matter, that is a heavy subject, when heavy subjects are brought forward it’s the listener who always benefits having put things together, but only if the listener brings inward those emotions as affected or takes personally the sharings of others, as directed toward them, then in those cases, determines the fitness of a professional to handle certain subject matters, to some these subjects are elementary with a better understanding of the times, and for purposes of historical outlook moving forward know better how to handle situations or subjects given their experiences redirect others, that could be by knowledge from personal experience or could be by knowledge based upon fears, or pains in life, or knowledge based upon education and experience know how to handle the emotions of others, that’s professionalism knowing how to keep a room calm, knowing how to speak in public, and how to carry oneself around others in conversation takes time, from speaking in public to speaking in private or speaking privately in a public space, how loud to be as toward the person or surroundings.
Nothings impossible unless you make your life difficult, more difficult than it needs to be. Be forgiving of others, and mostly forgive yourself for how you appeared past, as insensitive, not all are privied or think the same thoughts, especially about who they admire, or look up to, or think highly of, we all have different role models in life, or ideals we seek to live up to. What resembles … same or similar is not to each ones individual privilege to call out others based on what is around them or based on how they look as connected to others, or deserving of being put down as a possible connection or of likeness to others for use. Everyone has their own identity, if we all imitated or based our ideas off the same concepts, then life would be monotonously, boring, and self-serving a one-way ticket to disillusionment, smashing together concepts only putting together what matches, that would make life too up tight. Be apart of, but its not required that you conform to any one set of beliefs or opinions, it takes a general opinion to create a bigger generally accepted opinion, do not blame the impetus for action on same or similar circumstances or movie or music cases, to recapitulate circumstances same or similar if a same defensive methodology was thought used, just do what you think is right, and if everyone picks an issue they believe in and the more people trust in that concept as making sense, then we hope that its for the greater good all benefit from that support, if everyone is not benefiting from joining a general system of support, then allow people to grow and support causes they believe in at their own paces, not as same or similarly in defense of as a sign of guilt, for any other areas of their professional lives … as coming from a place of guilt, helping.
For every action there is a reaction, always keep in mind the ages and intelligences of others vary when it comes to comprehension, always do your best to make sense, not spread bipolar ideologies, but represent yourself as you wish others to represent you or your ideas in life. Be respectful. Everyone does their best to help make sense of life, you are no different, neither am I. We are not all experts when it comes to living life, if you cannot learn something new daily, well then youre not living life to the fullest. You are the only limit to your successes in life, be sure not to insult the successes of others, at your advantage to tell your story in life, as same or similar to, always do your best to be unique and original, we need not all respond the same #slutwalk, to show our true stripes and regain our independence of choice in life. You are a product of all choices in life good and bad, and when you live with those choices, do yourself a favor and forgive more often, its likely to lead to better choices in life, not choices with the underlying pains of disappointment of choices past, but upon arrival due to something present going well for you dictating your direction in life, not to undo a past decisions or life led, or relive a set of poor decision making circumstances and choices which you are responding to which need not necessarily be responded to by others again. If you live a better life, well then you have bettered yourself, and by bettering yourself and living a better life that’s how you benefit others, not always by going backwards and redressing or addressing the wrongs created by others in your lives, but by positive coping skills demonstrated by living a productive life, is how best to rise above, all sides, benefit from that structure of recovery and forgiveness.
As you get better you’ll feel less and less inclined to defend yourself against voices taunting you or ridiculing you, that’s just a manifestation of others unhappinesses with you, whether or not they can control you when youre up or when youre down, that’s their loss of power over you, and that’s not your responsibility to correct or make better others, only yourself. Whenever you suffer from an mental anguish or ailment, its not your responsibility to help others, only yourself, and if you so choose to help others, and run the risk of others trying to prove that youre not well, and have no standing to be apart of, well than that’s just them not wanting you to be apart of those who are well, it must be because they think that they are better than you, and you not deserving to be apart of well somehow suits or betters themselves, to see you not doing well or to do well achieve well, and then not appear or do well in life, don’t let others get to you, not by phone hacking and especially not by voices be affected by anyone, no jokes or puns intended on #worldpeace, but have beared the grunt work to it (understanding the non-productive humor residing in any jest to motion for it), not to be obvious as a daughter to a season ticket holder to the Lakers since the 80s. I’m sure there have been jokes flying around for a long time, but none attached to my family, not until my ex-boyfriends best friend and him, Film Majors, created music videos, and YouTubes, and later a sister-in-law wrote and sang a song with Eminem while I was in law school, know your limits to association, if you were not associated then close, then not at a later point in time can then become associated and close, that’s not the basis or connection from which any material was produced, but usually material is made from material that is already produced or out in the open for use, that is how material is made based upon what is existing, as a law student I led a very private life, how I got jobs in positions of trust, and able to date, and have a normal life, as a blogger you are under a much different set of circumstances as a writer, you live a more sedentary and secluded life. That’s not a product of being anti-social, its just a product of being sober and staying home, and wanting to be successful and by those successes be able to help oneself and help make a positive difference in the lives of others. You cannot judge someone now, as they were then, as a matter of wellness, one gets better over time, and whatever underlying causes for conditions existed then, do not exist now, and overtime voices will slowly take less hold over your abilities in life, the more able you are to focus and stay steady minded, not appear not well to others.
If you’re thinking about getting something done and you keep putting it off, you’re likely to not feel good about yourself. The goal is to at least get something done, that helps you toward fulfilling those goals in life, anything off the beaten path … well its you that winds up feeling at a loss, when you do not end up where you want to be in life. When you have time at your disposal, use youre time wisely, that means setting a schedule for yourself, and not getting into procrastination habits, where you pick up one thing, start something, then not go back to what you were working on, lose focus in life. According to the verywellmind:
“No matter how well-organized and committed you are, chances are that you have found yourself frittering away hours on trivial pursuits (watching TV, updating your Facebook status, shopping online) when you should have been spending that time on work or school-related projects.”
Being in a position where you can schedule youre own hours is to your benefit, but when you are given time off to work on yourself, that means use your time wisely, we all have deadlines in life … meet them. We all have daily chores and self-care routines, keep up with them. Whatever gets you going in life, to start your day, and keep going in life, then don’t stop. In fact its not uncommon for us to “underestimate how long certain activities will take to complete” often times when we leave a project and get back to it, its just a matter of sending an email, following up, or participating and attending functions, this shows that you are proactive, and by being proactive, you are positively aware of what needs to get done, and getting what needs to get done, in alignment with those goals and interests in life. That’s being organized with your time. Whether its keeping a daily calendar or schedule, that’s how to stay on top of things, a little advanced planning goes a long way, that is setting daily reminders to accomplish goals.
Growing up I never thought that was odd, film, or who worked in film around my family, it was never a dream to work in film, but now have jobs in Tech and Film. -They filmed scenes from the movie Clueless on Bristol, where I grew up, on Rockingham. 2015 my best friend came to town and we toured the Mann Chinese Theater in Hollywood and the Paramount Lot. I don’t think people are so organized as to be provocative about the times, but I think in doing so, it looked provocative for us to be on tour, as though an outing to out those who may or may not have caused harm to beauty standards and standards of intelligence deemed beautiful. I think for the most part, these films have led us perfectly in terms of fulfilling standards of intelligence and beauty, if there were three movies most relatable to my life, it would be: Clueless, Legally Blonde, and Black Swan. These movies are about beauty and intelligence, popular movies, popular doesn’t mean most relevant, but at the time, not a big movie buff but have seen a few movies, these were a few of the movies I saw in part, I didn’t finish watching Black Swan after the cutting scene, it was too relatable, self-mutilation. I think blogging is fun not in a way that self-harms but in a way that similarly allows you to shine or pick yourself apart to do better. I don’t think that movie code or music code rules the world, but it has in some respects affected our intelligences and the way we see the world, for better or worse (there are a few examples of for worse, we will not discuss: Hitchcock and Manson, one of two were sued). When reality hits, one should not recreate what is seen in their lives follow like a script, nor treat others as though they are living in a movie, and adhere to scripts to portray someone as movie like. For the most part I have done my best, I did not go to law school because of a movie, it was because I was a hotline counselor 2004, certified and wanted to make a positive difference in the lives of others, and thought a law degree would be more helpful to learn how to advise others, but see that a legal education helps you think better so that you can advise, but by laws. Overall I think I have become a more intelligent person having attended law school, and look forward to finishing law school, although its taken me many years to finish, working in between semesters, to keep my career going in life, have finally found a couple jobs, who believe in me, and willing to work with my schedule and accommodate my interest in finishing law school.
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