Chapter 19: Finding Myself Online by Leslie A. Fischman
12/07/17 (Originally Written – See Facebook Handwritten Notes 12/30/15)
quotesgram.com – They say that, “sometimes you find yourself in the middle of nowhere, and sometimes in the middle of nowhere, you find yourself.” (ilovemylsi.com). (#googlesearch: finding yourself quotes).
When I first joined Twitter I did not know what to expect for many years my Account was just a “blank space” online, with no words written or sent but just received and read. I never thought in my “wildest dreams” it would be a place for me to correspond, connect to individuals on a direct citation basis, and form long lasting relationships with individuals and entities who were once complete strangers to me. (Reference: Taylor Swift).
When I left Law School in 2013, that’s when I began my journey, soul searching. Soul searching generally begins when you feel lost, displaced, and looking for something new to occupy your thoughts. For so long –school provided me with shelter for my mind but when taken away I absolutely lost my mind.
Drinking, drug use, and dating followed that Spring 2013, along with the separation and breakup from my boyfriend in Law School of 2 years. That was a very difficult time for me. I felt lost because I grew Co-Dependent on another to feel validated and to receive positive affirmation from –on a daily basis, to provide me with reassurance that I was where I needed to be in life and that so long as I had him everything else would fall into place. –That’s not uncommon –to think that if you have one thing in life, then you should have this, this, or that. Thinking things go together when they don’t, or thinking things should come together when they don’t, is a common misstep in life. – Rather, I’ve found its best to focus on “is what I’m doing now going to get me to where I want to be in life.” (Advice from my Psychic Andrea Peet). –Drinking, dating, and drug use, obviously didn’t get me to where I wanted to be in life, set me so far back, I thought I would never recover from those losses. –But found hope for a better future for myself writing online, sharing my thoughts, making a difference online helping others, while helping myself achieve stability and find myself again.
Focusing on my strengths has been key to my Recovery and Positive Development as a Writer Online. They say “some steps need to be taken alone. It’s the only way to really figure out where you need to be” (Reference: Mandy Hale, picturequotes.com, Google Search: finding yourself quotes). –Going through a break-up or any separation isn’t an easy process. In fact, its one of the most difficult hurdles, I’ve had to overcome in life; recovering from a suicide attempt February 2009, following a separation from my then boyfriend of three years.
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Leslie A. Fischman
Please Note: I have finished writing the first draft of my first book, still editing Ch 13-25, my goal is to publish my book 2020 after I graduate, working on myself right now.