When you are not feeling well you attract nothing in life, no replies, nothing you can do will make people think of you, respond to you, or view you in the positive, not if you don’t. Why its important to always take things with a grain of salt, that’s not always understood by instinct or feeling, a condition that needs to be corrected, occurs within you, not something that can be said to make you feel better, not after the damage has already been done, which speaking to can only make things worse not better. There is always something that can be done in the event you have been harmed, never give up in life, don’t self-harm, don’t get suicidal, don’t drink, and don’t allow any amount of feeling overwhelmed, embarrassed, or not able to speak interfere with your ability to live life as you are, that’s life its tough, and if you perceive things to be worse than they are, then its by your condition that you are rejcted from care, based upon how you appear, what they see of issue having to do with you, and that’s not how to get well or to be treated well, appearing as someone who doesn’t care what people think, or doesn’t care about themselves, someone who cares about themselves, does not wish harm upon others, some separations are for maintaining wellness, with respect in regards to who is more important, and Im never that someone that needs anyone to care for me, worry about me, love me, or be friends with me, I don’t need replies in life in order to know right from wrong, I need to not connect with anyone privately, not through work, not by email, not to court, and not to police, and learn how to be well on my own, whether or not I am trusted, and that will not occur through modeling, writing, or singing, if there is nothing that can be done there is nothing that can be done, and that much everyone has to respect about others, their right to fix their own condition and get well again. Sometimes space is necessary in order for people to be okay with eachother, once the damage has been done that space cannot be filled with anything that can help the condition of someone who is not supported by another, to look like a “decrowned joke” or a “China joke” or a “Germany joke” or a “war joke” or a “violence joke” or a “rape joke” or a “world peace joke” or anything relevant to defend yourself in not liking me, if my tears don’t inspire you to try harder and dig deep then it shouldn’t be something to photo, times when Im sad, or not doing well and not knowing what things are about, and its not love, its not respect, and talking to people is not how that occurs, it’s the exact opposite, someone trying to look better, someone putting you down, and someone hurting you as though you have ever offended anyone by what you look like, the size of your body, or need to be told to love yourself in order for you to love yourself, if I didn’t love myself I wouldn’t be alive, if I didn’t love myself I wouldn’t have gone to law school, and if I didn’t love myself I would not be liked, and that beauty in my eyes, is having been through hell and back, and not complaining or sharing grose photos of myself to let others know the moments when I have been gone or struggled that’s something that’s not entertaining when someone is not doing well. I have an edd.gov appeal appointment today, you can take the other $6000 and please everyone leave me alone, I don’t need your support, I don’t need the defamation, I don’t need a negotiator, I don’t need ads, I don’t need a pimp, I don’t need a friend, and I don’t need an attorney, if your going somewhere that’s where you end up, no Thomas Guide required, so if you are thinking things are about fires, missing planes, and rape then maybe that’s what things are about, and Im not your prime example of someone who has not had a hard life, or life has been any easier for me than anyone else, we are all affected when someone gets hurt, and if I cant manage a problem on my own that is why I called the courthouse, I write to the US Supreme Court, and why WHO contacted me, because if things are happening to me on a small scale, then there is good reason for something to happen to me on a large scale upon presenting myself to the world, and that’s why I am being attacked, Im not a secret person, a secret story, or a secret person to hurt, and appear insensitive to the needs of others, expecially victims of crime, or violence, and if you don’t respect that I am a victim of crime or a victim of unwanted touchings in life, then you don’t respect my story and my place in life, which cannot be taken by another with or without a crown, make fun of someone else, who doesn’t represent themselves well, Im not that person, I don’t have money, I don’t have a job, and I stayed well on my own, not bothering anyone, so Im sorry I messaged anyone, Im sorry anyone got to know me, and its my job to live the rest of my life, and not be a source of pain to anyone in life, and not self-harm or be punished simply for talking to someone and doing everything that was asked of me, help I didn’t need in life, don’t take my beauty from the world, and stop commenting and emailing me, I don’t want to talk to anyone right now. This is the voice of someone who wants to stay home for the rest of their life, who doesn’t want to work for anyone, who doesn’t want friends, who doesn’t want a relationship, this is the voice of someone with a bad attitude, who doesn’t appreciate all that they have achieved, doesn’t remember their well moments, who doesn’t remember all the good times, and who says everything to cause others to feel better than and realize that they are not where I am in life, and this makes no one relate to me, no one understand me, and no one can respect someone who has it good in life and who cant feel well and is easily affected by everyone, then who wins? Everyone. So why should I be affected and end my life if everyone is mad at me, how is that supposed to “teach me a lesson” I don’t care who your princess "or female role model is in life, and if it not me, so be it, but dont hurt me or my female role models in life and talk $hit about my Mom Please dont call my Mom I dont give out her number I dont need anyone to talk to my Mom for me about me I tell her everything please leave my family alone. Please don't treat me as though thats going to cause me shame and embarrassment, pick on someone else genetics I was born in Santa Monica, I lost weight for myself because I could not keep a man, dont label me a home wrecker to your story, if I was not a nice person I would not have been loved or asked for love from, and thats the end of that discussion. Im a woman and a human being and I can get hurt to, I don’t have to run, write or be strong for everyone, but I do have to run write and be strong for myself. Why should that bother anyone? This is when things could have gone well for me had I stayed well, and why things don’t work out for me when I am doing well, its something that is going for me that someone else does not see me as, then without potential you end up nowhere in life, and that cannot be corrected until you are able to stay well will you be allowed to work, date and have friends, and that’s the condition I am in now, to better others, at my expense, to end up alone and expected to be sad, to admire others and feel jealous as though I don’t have the same things going for me in life, its then not about body image but about weight, its then not about beauty but about my face, its then not about my voice, but something someone is thinking looking at me, and not caring about who I am or where I am from, or by who I know, all they care about is writing a list of things about me to pep talk themselves into not liking me or to justify their hatred toward me, so that I become discriminated in life as though I deserve it because of what I sound like, what I feel like, like I need sex to be loved, or that someone else needs to see my sex in order to love me, so don’t make fun of my body, don’t make fun of my face, don’t make fun of my voice, don’t make fun of my family, and don’t make fun of writing, don’t make fun of my brain, and don’t make fun of me if I report, that means Im not in a gang, if I don’t have money that means Im not spending, if I don’t have a job, that means Im not being hired and that should make everyone happy, you don’t need to destroy me as though Ive live a bad life have ever been an unhappy person, that’s not the solution, then you defend Brady, then you fight overseas, then you let other Countries make fun of us or our movies and songs, that’s why Im on IMDb. Learn to value people and their humanity its not all about being perfect, and if I look like Ive lived a perfect life that’s because I have made more right decisions than wrong, so take all my blogs, take all my books and figure out how to make money for yourselves, I don’t need money I need a home not a husband, and I need a job to have a home, not a boyfriend, and I need my website to get a job, not to stay home and do nothing, that’s putting my life to good use, and its better than being used for sex, which gets you nowhere in life, that’s not a club, that’s my BODY. Leave me alone.
[removed] "Common Takeaways" because it resulted in others thinking others see me poorly, people who know me, did not speak well to me, one Ex, thinking everyone thought something negative about me. = Losing another 30lbs, Im 165 lbs, I was 192 lbs, and losing 30 more lbs, go back to being confident. If Im okay with myself everyone is okay with me, thats the solution, its always something thats occuring for you internally that affects how others respond to you, why to always see things in the positive, and if you look like someone to fight then that is how other people treat you, as though you are ever bothered by other people, so until you accept yourself as you are, will you adjust accordingly to all people regardless what is occurring for you internally or externally to someone else upon looking at you, thats always in your control how you look and appear, not a condition that is ever not in your control, so so long as you like yourself you will be you, no matter who harms you, thats not something that can be taken away from you your brain, your face, your disposition, your personality, or your identity, there is always room for improvement, better yourself. And dont self-harm, stay out of trouble, and dont be an expense to others, not a worthwhile investment take good care of yourselves, take good care of your family, and do your best not to subject yourself to fighting in public because your head is small, because you self-harm, because you get aggravated, or because you dont see the positive in your experiences in life turn out to be a better person, not end up worse off. Sincerely, Leslie A. Fischman How when someone thought to hurt me in defense of people he thought hurting me was a strategy for protecting others from harm as though thats what makes people strong, or to make me look like I was asking for it in a sexual way, so that he can make things look like I came on too strong or someone who comes on to people and is worthless on the inside, takes love away and then people who know me which is like 5 people got hurt and their health failed, that doesnt mean Im important that means dont hurt me to cause me suicide, to defend another suicide, thats not saving lives thats hurting me and my life for reaction controlling me, if you can see a doctor then its not my condition that needs to better someones condition who is not happy with me, I can talk to whoever I want thats not sex, until people ask for photos to use to make fun of you and take money from you, so dont put me down and expect me to die to see who will be affected, everyone was affected when I did not sound smart or look smart and that cannot be repaired something done professionally ruined to make me look like an offender, Im not having sex for the rest of my life, if Im blogging or have a website that must mean Im a professional and dont need sex. Be nice to women, no matter whether you think theyre a whore or trash. All women are affected when you hurt a woman, and the forced to pick teams in life, and a lawsuit didnt make my life any easier when I was trash it was not necessary to prosecute me to defend others, when nothing bad happened, I dont need AA meetings, I dont need help from anyone, and I dont need anyone on the news or anywhere to tell me what has gone wrong in my life, like interacting with me is going to be misunderstood as a sexual encounter I have never flirted with anyone in my entire life, and next time anyone who is talking to me I will not make eye contact and will not talk to because that may be mistaken as permission to F me. Which is why modeling is a worthless endeavor if you get labeled an offender then no one wants to see your face or your body and they dont care for your writing, because no one cares why you have mental illness now or not well, and its not until you get fat, and look grose that they have won keeping you away from everyone in life. #stopsucide WHY Im losing 60 lbs and not having sex, because everyone complains now nothing is ever good enough and people forget what is important trying to stay in on a good feeling that I cannot provide someone feeling well or smart and me not being included in anything going well in life, then dont hurt me to prove a point and stop talking to me, thats not me rejecting someone who loves me, thats someone who hurt me because they love other women more than me and think I hurt other peoples health. Originally Posted 12-17-20
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