If you have to go backwards to explain yourself, or even forced to go backwards by someone else putting you at an imposition to explain yourself, then do so. There’s no manual for coping when you are thrust under controversy, made to look stupid, at a loss, and overcoming something difficult in life, such as the emotions you encounter when you are made to look bad, ignoring the fact that with sincerity, you were kind to others, respected their wishes, and provided photos via their direction, who would think that upon explaining your demise, you would once again be hurt in that way, when you were down, and had yet to come up in life, popular, fully launched. Usually its people, who want to credit themselves, for your progress, in life, or be credited for your abilities in life, and be credited for being apart of your progress, that seek to be mentioned, and by hurting you, get attentions, they feel are deserved, to take away from you, what progress you have made moving forward, to their benefit, get people to turn on you with them, that’s called a breakup, when sides are taken, and people are at a loss, it takes awhile to overcome the shame and embarrassment that accompanies, a change of heart, or direction in life, that doesn’t keep that once companion in the spotlight, as attached to you and your successes in life. Not only does that hurt ones abilities, but it adds and unsurmounting pressure upon someone to be treated as without someone, tested whether they can succeed on their own, without the support, of someone, who exchanged loving words with in support of someone, who is no longer replied to with an even exchange of love, but seeking to move on, that’s moving on, respectfully, backing off, from a previous relationships, or friendship, and switching care to someone else, more willing to provide for someone, beyond just fantasy, or pleasure, be a real life companion, theres a lot at stake for me, if things don’t work out, looking like someone who benefited from the support of someone, saw better, and because of that support, was able to put together something online, or be put together for others, its usually by self-care, and making the right decisions, that one is able to grow, professionally, by their own experiences, and because one is professional, likeable, or desirable, as a candidate for the exchange of love or companionship. You would never think that at your top in life, or having come full circle, and beginning to feel better and ready to finish law school, graduate, and work again, after years of struggling on meds, that someone would hurt your esteems once you are able to be stable on your own, without them, if its not marriage, one is not obligated to care for someone for an indefinite term, and if someone is more available, to be supportive, and to care for someone, than it’s a woman’s right to move on, and be with a better match in life, who they have more in common with, who will not subject them to hurt, and would not disrespect them in public, make them look worse to others, and ask for photos, when someone is not thinking they will be exploited to all, to hurt or destroy their image, their likeability, make me look trashy, cause me self-harm, and cause me to feel bad about myself, why I called the police, to request that the photos be taken down, and they were not taken down by Facebook. -I have privately supported this candidate since 2017, and have always done my best to inform him, and console him during times of need, redirect his focus, defend him, and provide for him insights, to help him to love himself, love his family, love his life, and forget his past, be proud.
Im sorry no more pen pals, however approved by my Attorney and Therapist, only speak to the Courts and to the Police, keep a running dialogue of my progress, maintain a timeline, be professional, thats for the purpose of preserving the public conscious and maintaining the peace.
Personal Update: Due to the pandemic, just filed for Social Security Disability today.
Follow-Up (04-18-20): Pictures were taken down ... what a pal, always a diplomat, thats me, have faith.