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When I lost my housekeeper job, I thought my life was over, but it had just begun. You have to be thankful for your blessings in life, and everyone in it. You never know when someone is down and when they are up in life. Always be thankful for what you have. What it looks like on the outside, like cats, people hide on the inside. –Walking in NY I didn’t flinch when when the bus drove by advertising a Housekeeper Show, I go oh no not again. You just have to keep a level head on your shoulders in order to think clear. The Gardeners are not as loud now, that’s very nice of them. Always be thankful for where you are in life, and for who takes care of you without whom, you would have difficulty surviving. Marta cooked everyday for us, when we came home from school, adobo, pancit, you name it, spaghetti. We ate everything, mostly carbohydrates, why I struggled with my weight for so long, we were not a salad family. It wasn’t until pre-made salads came out that I lost weight I was 147 lbs and I started throwing up and eating salads at school. And when I got down to 142 my soccer coach noticed and complimented my body said “Leslie has good body” and imitated my soccer stance. –I even played club soccer in law school. For whatever reasons people thought I went to law school were not the reasons I went to law school and for that I am sorry, it was under the advisement of my Brother that I discuss the case, not my intuition, it was going to start with a story, about my experience on the crisis hotline, and my brother suggested I write about my own experiences, how related to the trial. –I think that’s what took the turn for the worse. Then in 2008 after attending a Birthday Party in Las Vegas, I received a relayed phone call from a friend’s Dad in jail, for gun handling, and a wedding ring. She spoke through me on my way up to Law School, there was a conflict of interest, and she reassured me that we were “in this together.” -I think that its important for people to live their own lives, not be too enthused by others, or weight responsibilities on others to make amends for them, or to figure out life for them. Im religious but not that religious. I can see now hope won and hope lost by disappointment, Im sorry I moved to West Hollywood, that was a mistake. I just wanted a nice apartment in a part of town that is awake late hours, how I felt safe. It was there I came out with the “war overseas” theory (2009), that there was a case inside a case, and for whom blame was placed, and protections placed upon another. This is why Marsha did not have my Mother testify, to not take sides. You have to be very careful about what you say about others, and what you discuss, it can make sick the present, past, or the future, its important to always be mindful of the thoughts, feelings, and emotions of others, not jump to conclusions and bestow blame. This is why I created a pen name, to disassociate from the trial, and not be known in association to the members of the trial, that I thought was a smart decision, to be separate from the case, and not known as apart of the case. Be independent of everyone. I’m very overprotective of my family, and shelter them. They may get mad at me sometimes, but that’s because they don’t understand me, think that I am up to no good, or worried about me. 9 times out of 10, I am doing the right thing, not causing trouble, never a troublemaker, previous drug use, but minor cocaine use. I am not a drug offender, or offender period, Ive been in the helping professions.
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