Theres a point in everyones life, when we question our own self-worth, and purpose in life, now is one of those times. Its usually after someone has made you feel absolutely worthless, and below your set standard of beliefs, that usually keep you going in life, feeling less than, feeling not good enough, someone who questions you usually does the trick. If you love yourself, then love yourself, but loving yourself doesn’t require you to love other people, that’s not always required of you. Your health comes first, and while you will meet people in life, who will love you and care about you, its you that comes first. Never go out of your way to meet the demands of anyone, whether for pleasure, or for political purposes to defame you and embarrass you in public, like you deserve to be treated that way, because it makes them feel better about themselves, special or above you at that point. To put you down in order to bring themselves up in life, like their story about you, is more important than your own version of events, when talking about your own life. People will come into your life, that you don’t want to be in your life, and it can feel like it has the potential to hurt your image, and make you appear less than, as you come up in life, and get overshadowed by the identity of someone you no longer want to associate to having learned of their real identity. That’s called being used. Used for being nice, used for being vulnerable, used for not being married, used for not having a job, and used for knowing someone famous, treated as someone less than, to make themselves feel more powerful than you, have something on you like photos or stories about you as experienced with them, to make themselves feel of value or having something valuable to say or talk about. That’s just life, there will be people who only want to know you to leverage themselves as important in life, call them social climbers, catfish, or starf-ckers, who think that just because you know people of importance, that they can bring you down in life, to make you feel less than of importance, as compared to those around you, not treat you with the same respect, as important. That’s their way of trying to control you, by putting you down, so that you feel scared, or feel like by abiding by their threats, that things will get better, and they don’t, it seems the more control you give to people over your life, the more they think they have a right to hurt you or turn on you, should you no longer abide by their requests for money or photos, that is how a relationship is maintained online, money and photos.
Pen Pal (1): Met on Facebook messenger, thought he was a Trump supporter, but today found out that he is not a Trump supporter, but uses a photo of President Trump on the account he manages. He has asked for photos while threatening me for the past few months, talking since March, and just received 4 missed calls from the White House, and have just confirmed its not him. Initially as friendship, like all conversations start, turned into something more than I want to talk about at this moment in time, demanding of me sexually to please him or else he would put pages up on Facebook of photos of me requested for, then play victim to me making me look like I was coming on to him, or desperate. Im just a nice person, I don’t need a man in my life to feel loved, I don’t need love to do well in life, and this whole experience is making me feel sick, as Im sure the rest of my fans feel seeing photos of me made for by who hurt me.
Pen Pal (2): Met on Facebook messenger, though he was a Leonardo DiCaprio fan page, and then conversation was move to Google Hangouts, and then overtime, the conversation then promised marriage, and meeting, and paying fees in order for a meeting to be held, $7000 was paid over a period of six months, in pre paid cards and moneygrams cash, and as I slowly woke up from the fog of demands, which seemed small at first then kept adding up, the more embarrassed I feel now talking about it. These people ask for things from me, in order to be friends, and then hurt me if I decide I want out, or to discontinue the friendship, then make threats, and in order to stop the threats have to pay more, or send more photos, and things only got worse. It seems like everyone will F you over in life at the same time, if they so choose. The goal is not to get upset, self-harm, hit my head, or become suicidal and end up hospitalized. These people don’t treat me like a human being, they expect things done the day of requested for, the demand money from all bank accounts, and keep asking until you have no money left. Then if you accuse them of misconduct then they threaten to expose you and show pictures of you to the world and online to punish you and make you look stupid, like you haven’t already been punished enough, losing $7000 without a refund, and being publicly exposed as stupid.
The main lesson is that no matter how much you need love, make sure to meet them first on a dating network such as Tinder or Bumble, before you decide to continue on having private conversations with people you consider to be friends or close confidants. There will always be an uneven exchange, as someone who is younger, looking for love, from someone in your age group, loved by someone older, who is not as attractive as you are, and mean to you, controlling, and abusive of your image in public, slut shaming you to the world, when none of your take down requests are being honored by Facebook. Who can help you then? This is why I have begun calling a Judge for help, when you become absolutely at your wits ends, trying to negotiate with people who are causing you harm, there is always time to ask for help. Never give up, if you know you can do better in life, than these pen pals, then do better in life, and let your success make the noise. No one should have to put up with these types of abuses in life.
Originally Posted: 08-28-20