Whenever new people come into your life, that’s a gift, of not knowing someone, and them not knowing you, you only have opportunity for so many first impressions, until everyone knows you, and by those titles in life, forced to live by, within the confines of negative judgments or poor judgment of you. You can only get so much positive reinforcement in life, there is not cure for mental illness, and addiction but positive thinking and medical treatment, ie meds that reinforce positive behaviors and thinking patterns, but you are mostly left by yourself to live the hours or your life, choose your surroundings wisely if possible, and make the most of your time on earth. You don’t need to be on the same page as anyone in life to know and understand the difference between what is well and not well, or who is smart, or who is not smart, and who we can identify as bad, and not intelligent deserving of poor treatment [is not the job of the public to decide but for courts to determine who is well, mental health wise, or fit for life and who is deserving of punishment or installment to hospitals], [any] public discouragement of others ability to maintain wellness is not appreciated that includes the improper maintenance of public spaces around you, your health, and the hearing space around you, as it affects others, not limited to your cellular devices, thats common sense, who is in your phones is not common sense, as listening or reviewing your work for criticism, hurt to make public what goes on in the privacy of your phone or computer, thats not valuing a website, but hurting a person, to devalue their work, based upon hurting their abilities to work, once you hurt someones ability to work and/or marry, allow them to live until 8pm each day, and leave them alone … [these are my] self-identified, causes for illness, as thought in connection or as though connections existed that ruined current connections, every person that comes into your life, serves a purpose to remind you to take care of yourself [not trust stranger[s], to the defense of those attacking me, and to always report to the police, in defense of me being careless with my body, as though I was suicidal or careless as well, everyones good health is deserved, poor health is never deserved, and we are each responsible for living the hours of our lives as best we can], ... I understand that every first impression matters, [it doesn't matter how short or long your life is, once you feel like you matter, then do your best to prove to others that you matter too, otherwise don't call attentions to yourself, as conservative negative attentions are not deserved, nor to anyone doing their best appearance wise, health wise, weight wise, beauty wise, or fitness wise, "to each their own"]. Always dress to the nines [at public functions, that is when you are expected to be a complete person, upon arriving to an occasion, if you cannot be at your best for every occasion that is for no one to judge you by, your looks, or wealth], be contentious of your public appearances, especially if you are a writer [presently working] online, is how you will be judged in person [as self-employed, and by what standard you will be judged by, certainly not applying for a Shorty Award if "chronic[ally] [experiencing] psychosis" on meds as directed, thats not suicidal, thats having difficulty taking meds at 8pm wanting to sleep at 5pm, a private battle with mental illness thats really no ones business to mislabel me as suicidal until I become suicidal hurting myself or others who care about me, hurt if I feel like giving up in life, or get suicidal, thats when everyone gives up on you, when you self-harm, thats how you get hurt by others, is upon your first failure, which is hardships you encounter by the use or misuse of alcohol or drugs, its to free others from blame, once you take accountability for your past failures in life, not relive the same mistakes, suicidal]. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, that is one common quotation, for people to read and then hold an opinion of you, and by what you share, for a greater opinion of you to be held, and understood, to build any alliances as for the public good to hold negative opinions of people, well for some as televised deserved and for some not deserved. Learn to let things go in life, and let people heal themselves and move forward … “time heals all wounds” quoting my Ex, if you choose career well then focus on career, if its your dream to finish law school well then focus on your dream, and as I was told once you “better yourself,” and are put together then you can have and achieve those things in life. Until then you are not expected to have it all in life, that is an assumption that one who does not have it all is not successful or cannot achieve success, and that there is some character default other than drugs or alcohol which explains why they are alone, it’s a choice. #stopsuicide Some people were not meant to be in relationships some need to work on themselves, until then it is for no one to judge those who chose to be alone, unmarried, unfit.
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