I think people don’t think you have learned you lesson in representation until the cause a series of events to occur to punish you like you were knowingly an embarrassment, while doing your best, spreading gay offender jokes about you behind your back, as though you were some kind of reject to society your whole life, no that only occurs once people have an agenda, to then take sides, and at the control, make things look different or appear worse or beneficial to their own interest by sending you further astray in life to see how you respond, in those cases I need no one to get back to normal, I have my own education, I do not need help from anyone, to make me look bad in public, or look like other public speakers who have been proud of their protests and subsequent arrest in public, don’t make me one of them, I stayed home for years talking to myself, not writing, and self-harming, there was nothing that my family could do to console me at that point, that’s when you have to stop taking yourself so seriously, and focus on basic life skills, not what other people think or whether you are being made fun of. How could you give all your power away, why because no one wants to be blamed for school shootings or terrorism, its not related to my blog, I just called the police to complain. Don’t say things toward me, to raise conversations that raise hell, that’s not the solution to make things grander or bigger a problem than they are, that’s not the solution. Don’t trust people that don’t know you, if their lives don’t approve with you around, or if their luck doesn’t change with you present, and if they don’t benefit having you around, they will remove you from the equation before credited for having benefited the way things look or bringing in business to their establishment. How could you do that to someone who’s presence was accepted by all, and then treat them publicly as though they are up to no good or coding before woken up. That’s wrong, to assume that if things are about people, that they are aware that theyre being coded to. Focused in school that’s not something you think about the bigger picture, only whats in front of you to read and memorize, but now focusing on everyone else, everyone playing frozen to me, Im not making calls and prosecuting anyone, I let things go give people the benefit of the doubt, sadly the same benefit of the doubt was not returned instead trying to make me look bad as though someone who turned on industries, not helped, and not been a voice of reason later on, who else best should a story be told, than from someone who has lived though hell and back, and understands the kinds of pressures and necessity for refraining from discussion, the issues of others, especially those thrust into public light, to be picked apart by everyone, who would ever want to subject themselves, to negative opinion, that doesn’t make sense not for attentions, or for accolade, usually its out of necessity when nothing else exists to say no, no I don’t think that’s appropriate to subtly make fun of people, why not allow all to contribute now. That is without saying, it is wrong to cause harm to reputations of others, and if my reputation was harmed, then clearly it is expected that I bring no one into my life, situating me so that others are harmed as I was harmed to prove I put people at risk of harm, I committed suicide first, that’s not because my life was hell, things are WAY beyond repair at this moment, just as things get better, those opposed wish for you to resume a worse off life, Im not an offender, I get my record expunged 2020, I got sent to the computer shop, to fix my phone, I got sent to HarvardStone, and I got served a check outside, why? And I called the police to give me a ride home from the bar because I could not drive, and had no money. Its not what it looks like, you see police and think Im up to no good, I don’t care if you give up on me, I don’t need to be here in the first place as unwelcome, just say you don’t want to serve me, and I can leave (2013). Why was that already the case, leaving law school. I was not famous then or with fans.