To Get Well and Get a Job: Stay sober, go to Therapy, Dont post anything that reflects poorly on yourself or others, be a happy person, be trusting, be social, try harder, write intelligently, dont complain, do your best.
I think what happens to you when you don’t know anyone, and don’t have any friends to be out with, I don’t think those are normal experiences to be out alone, and I also never thought that the world wasn’t safe or that there was something unlikeable about me, have never not been comfortable around people, or had voices (2008-2017). Ive only had voices (2006, and 2017), both due to drug use, so now I know that when youre well, that’s not a good time to be social, and that’s not how you feel good, or are made to make important decisions in life, taking care of yourself on bipolar meds, if you want to be well received in life you have to be out in the daytime, even if youre getting As in law school, that doesn’t mean that its okay to hang out with a friend twice, people will later not respect you by what they think youre doing with your life, and its when respect is lost of you, that you feel off center, get voices, and don’t feel solid, and that’s a consequence of someone seeing you as small, or not having taken good care of yourself or others, and seeing you as chemically dependent, not important, ghetto, or a drug addict alcoholic, if you are the thinnest you have been in your life, ran for 60 days for an hour, lost 50lbs and proud of yourself, without taking photos of yourself, your body, or sharing photos of yourself or body with anyone you know or don’t know. The point at which you are being observed, will always be when you are not affected by most things, and its not until you are affected that others feel like they have their power back, to see someone in disarray, to not know why, and assume that you devalued yourself, not graduating, not getting a job, misrepresenting the cares of others, not worth talking to, so while you may think life is good, and be at peace, if you are not the same person everywhere in life with everyone, and if you devalue yourself, that is why you wind up feeling lost, not trusted, considered an embarrassment, or a risk to yourself or others, “not intelligent,” “not smart,” “not of value,” “a joke,” “unintelligent,” “bratty.” --I used to only shop at Target (2013-2019). On a budget.
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