On a bad day such as today, everything you say, can easily be read into as insult, no matter who your talking to, the side of who you are speaking to, not feel well about you, or attack you as though you are a source of pain or mental illness treat you in life. This is when talking about the past is not helpful, and only makes you look like you are looking back on life in the negative or trying to use your memory or your life, to defend your condition now as normal when its not. Your past life cant save you from a later condition you get placed in in life, based upon what you talk about online, or talking about in front of others, and that’s your loss, if you give up on yourself, and don’t stay well in public, that’s really heartbreaking to give up on yourself and cause others to give up on your too, that’s a very painful disconnect to experience in life, when no one can help you, and when you cannot solve your own problems on your own. Then there is the saying don’t wait until its too late, and then that saying gets paired with taking things too far, that’s you being an example of someone who has written a lot, then experiences mental illness and self-harm, minding your own business in life at peace, that is to situate you among the sick, to see how you respond sickly or dying, or in illness, if your living conditions made worse, your ability to be social or date hampered, and that’s what dying feels like, when you have nothing to live for, and you have worked hard all your life to get a job, or to work, and find something that your good at blogging, and do well, and then get forced to talk about mental illness, that doesn’t make me feel good and Im sure that doesn’t help anyone else. You can only help by how well you are in life, even if you can only post once a day, I don’t think that more is the solution to writing, not if what you have to say is not helpful, maybe important standing up for others reservations toward you, but that is not “winning” in life, or living life in the positive, that’s saying things in support of those differences with you thought existing, and then something you thought happening to you in life, in real life, that’s saying your fears outloud. It doesn’t necessarily prevent bad things from happening to you, and cant stop you from not feeling well or going into mental illness in life. For everything that was going well for you in life, those are the bases for attacking you: (1) to speak as a recovered patient, (2) a top 100 blogger in personal development and self-improvement (3) graduated from law school (4) etc. Its by what is known about you that stands out to others, becomes the basis for experimentation with your health to disprove you are any of those things in life, and cause you mental illness, without taking responsibility for pushing me too hard in life embarrassment wise, and expect me to come out a stronger person, or expect me to live a healthy life, I don’t want to die, and I do not think I deserve to be treated as dying or gone, when I worked hard to have a second chance at living life, and was able to stay well after staying home and resting, why am I in a painful condition now, when nothing can be said to make things better, and if saying things to make things better hurts, then that means what I have to say will not help and cannot help speaking.