Peace is achieved on ones own. Its not something you are taught, and there is no strategy for overcoming hardship on your own, that needs to be explained to anyone. If another's sense of peace is causing me mental disturbance, its because they expect more from me, while I have provided everything online and in private for review. Thats trying to build information through me, by attacking my sense of character and based upon seeing who Im connected make themselves of importance. Allow me to be at peace without chiming in, or "@" me, if its been clear that I no longer want to communicate with someone who is causing me harm, that is because hearing from this person, upon a moment of rest after hours of writing, makes me want to hit my head, self-harm, that means that an unwanted communication was sent to me, past wanting to hear from someone, who has harmed me. That is his choice to hurt me post a moment, of collecting my thoughts, and looking at things in the positive. I obviously dont care to hear his story, he just shared his face after 8 months of talking to him, and didnt even give me time to adjust to continue speaking to him, after sharing my heart, my life, my face, and photos and videos of my body to someone, I havent even seen. Thats too close for comfort. Someone who reaches a point or speed in life, thats ahead of you, often feels this way, as though they have won, conquered their demons, or wrestled a goliath, that makes them feel empowered to see your work, and then think they are faster than you, or as though their thinking and way of maneuvering around the issues, sheds a better light upon the times, whether or not they are making use of your image and identity, as a "shield" in order to attract attentions or to not be harmed, thats to generate a positive reaction toward them as though they know you better than your audience does, or have seen a side of you that your audience, loved ones, family, or friends have not seen. Typical opportunist, sees someone who they do not see of value, as she becomes of value, suddenly interested, as gone, disinterested and trashed, and then upon trajedy, act like they have a story to be shared about me. Threatening me to send all information to the FBI. Go ahead! Or threaten me by contacting Attorney's I have already contacted. Go ahead! Take it court. This person is someone who doesnt know when to stop. I have been through addiction and back, alcoholism, sex addiction, bullying, defamation, lawsuit, jail, misdemeanor, drug use, and cocaine addiction, never did I ever blame anyone for my hardships, always holding myself accountable for my own mental health issues, never did it ever cross my mind, that I was famous, or known, or that things were being done to me, to harm me, or even think twice that I was being harmed, to generate a reaction from people around me. Now I have an audience. You cannot control men who love you and who are experimental with you, and you cannot control people who do not know you and are experimental with you. And no one is there for you when you are down, struggling, suicidal, or self-harming thats for sure. Whats does this mean? Its means if you are held to high standards, and viewed as intelligent, then no one can tell you what is wrong with you, but if they hear in your 4th step, that you touched someones butt hole because Cosmopolitan magazine told you to touch a mans perenniel, and if your ex stuck his finger in your butt, then yes you accept the whole dick eventually. Thats love, no one knows what the F they are doing, and then there are those who see what youre doing, and as they are watching you do something well, interfere with that focus, that manner of intelligence, and ability, why? To be apart of that success. Which explains why I left Justice Roberts on his elbow for 8 years. Point of discomfort being, how I have come to know others, is not how all are able to know and treat others, and that is an example of how some people are hurt, by getting to know them, not respect them as they are, and by the more they get to know them, take them less seriously, never have I ever not respected someone I admired, and never have I ever had sexual thoughts about someone I looked up to.
Originally posted 09-20-20