Just because you grew up well off, does not mean that you’re immune from controversies later in life, or immune from suit. Don’t expect anyone having known where you grew up or who you grew up with to respect you, or to be treated as any different than the next person. Its wrong to assume that someone who is born into privilege assumes that they are to be respected by others, like everyone else, we face the same pressures, to appear beautiful and intelligent, the standards of wellness are no different person to person, no matter what your socio-economic standing is in life. To be respected one must have a positive outlook in life, I was raised to always “see beyond.” That is never to assume what others are doing or thinking, and make the lives of others your business, to always focus on yourself. For example, if you cannot function without meds and taken off all medications, then expect to look, behave, and speak differently, than if you were under your “normal” conditions in life, now add to the mix negative judgment, how then is one supposed to respond in a positive manner, other than to stay home, and sleep all day, that was not the correct response to negativity toward me, to become suicidal. No amount of embarrassment or shame or ridicule should ever force one under pressure to not do what is right, always do what is right, “god helps those who help themselves.” It may feel as though you have been backed into a corner in life, sent down, but that’s whats an intervention is, when others who are in disagreement with your progress, seek to correct you in life, based upon how you look or appear, and based upon your present abilities in life, if you are not working or in school and not doing anything impressive with your life, youre expected to take a back seat to the better lives of those who are excelling in life, and follow the lead or suits which put you in your place in life, irrespective of whatever hardships you may have endured, it doesn’t seem to matter at those points in time, it doesn’t matter if you’ve been raped, it doesn’t matter if you’ve been drugged, it doesn’t matter if anyone has drunk you under the table, it doesn’t matter if you have failed, it doesn’t matter if you are doing your best, it doesn’t matter if you have lost 50lbs, and it doesn’t matter if you have an idea, that was nominated for a shorty award, if anyone wants nothing to do with you, they are reserved that choice in life, and without explanation are allowed to reject you and treat you as lesser than in life. That I don’t agree with. For someone with an understanding of mental health issues, I have always made it a priority to help others, throughout my career, to be treated as someone who contributed to any conditions faced by another, was insulting to say the least, how could someone who I have no direct contact with in person, suddenly not feel well and blame me? They will always see you as the problem, and others as victim, so long as they can label you as such, and that’s not a life, I thought worth living to disprove, that took about 4 years to undo the hardships associated with lawsuit, staying home and writing, not being able to get a job, with a record, and while under suit, on probation. My record gets expunged 2020, in addition I got a suspected dui misdemeanor 2013, after drinking 3 drinks and driving home from Hollywood, leaving HarvardStone Bar. No one sets you up in life for embarrassment, if you don’t allow people into your life, then no one can harm you, and that’s where Im at in life right now and where Ive been at for the past 5 years, alone, and enjoying my solitude. That’s not being anti-social, it takes one person to reject you, to stop you from being social with everyone, and that’s exactly what happened. Its not an easy topic to talk about, causes for suicide, but I’m glad I’ve overcome those feelings, and the shame and embarrassment, associated with being sued. When you have no money, it’s a big deal, when you cant afford Attorneys it’s a big deal, when you are not able to represent yourself it’s a big deal, dying is not the correct response to suit, especially if you have done nothing wrong. Many misunderstandings in life, cause others to shun you away from society, affecting your ability to be social, by bad mouthing your condition behind your back. There is a way of thinking about life, without causing uproar, and its called writing, the lengthier the better the picture is painted, its when we short-hand our deductions in life, and what we think, that others think that we are wrong, or have the wrong ideas about life, easily misunderstood, and written off as problematic. If youre a good person, and have always had good intentions at heart spent thousands of dollars fed-exing SCOTUS, then no I do not think that I should have been sued as someone to keep away from people or specific individuals as though I caused harm to them or threatened harm to their sense of well being, not by cupcakes and valentines day gifts, that’s just bipolar delusion, thinking one is in love. When you don’t have love in your life, don’t go looking for it, and every instant connection will feel special, that’s probably because you have had so few interactions, that all new interactions seem meaningful, it could mostly just be in your head, don’t get too excited about life ever, or about people, especially new people coming into your life, that’s a quick recipe for disaster, the more enthusiastic you are, the quicker they are to think that you are just some opportunist, looking to get better through people who are better, and then further treated as less than in life. Its hard to come up in life, and its not by connecitons that you do, its by your stability, and ability to make good decision in your life, not so much the matter with who you are surrounded by or who you choose as friends. Learn to let go of the dust in your life, and not make it your business the problems or losses of others, when people are ready to come forward for help they do so on their own, and speak among people who they consider trustworthy, you may not always be included among them. Just because someone doesn’t identify you as an advocate or respect you by education or upbringing, does not mean commit suicide if you get sued, that’s the bottom line and main lesson of their piece, not to self-harm, don’t do drugs, and #stopsuicide. One of my Facebook friends just died of an overdose, a twin, do me a favor and dont make a losing team out of a team that is already suffering, and alienate me or cast me out as someone who has not contributed in positive ways over the years to everyones well being. You dont know me, you dont value me, and whether I live or die now matters to me, take it to court! cc: #SCOTUS
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