It doesn’t matter who you are in life, once you F up in life, that’s how life is. So appreciate the times when you were allowed to be experimental and make moves in life, and with understanding and compassion for others, have since chosen to stay home. That’s not a reflection of my experiences in life, and that doesn’t explain when I was able to stay well, and why I am not able to stay well now. Blogging is about your content. And if its not something Im comfortable sharing, then that must mean it hurts me to share, whether that part about what I have written is accepted about me, you can only live for the moment. And later in life you realize you will be known for moments in life memorable, stories about you disfavorable, and its up to you to move forward in life, or to bring everything up, and not be happy with where you are, and what you have worked hard toward achieving in life, a job. Blogging is not a platform, for experimenting with topics, not relevant, or experiences not had, I do not use my blog to give sex advice, give dating tips, or share any romance tips, and my condition now, means that I made the right decision, to post once a day, tweet in fun, and check my rank, and monitor my own wellness, manage my bipolar, voices if occurring, and respond to whoever needed me to respond, who was either unhappy with me, or trying to change my condition or lessen any respect paid toward me, lighten up the level of seriousness, about me, or my experiences, and that’s being categorize as a whore online, naked. Not what I wanted. But you have to take responsibility for your decisions in life, as the FBI replied “you sent photos.” Meaning it was my mistake to take photos and send photos, which later embarrassed me. Try not to make things worse than they seem, who cares if the Shining Twins are all jazzed up running on San Vicente (Example: This is a painful mention, and based upon my condition now, an unwanted mention, to attach people who dont read my blog to my blog. No one has to do anything in life, life exists with or without you :) be here now, thankful thats all I meant, I understand if Im not well others dont want to be connected to my condition now, Im always doing my best, I wish I was stronger physically, my energy is coming back slowly over the years getting back up to speed but it took working again full time typing to get going again, learn the disciplined practice of working full-time on good days and bad days -Edit Here: 10-30-20), they’re healthy and positive and that’s all that matters, about that. Do not complain about the built in home entertainment systems in your hood, appreciate that much about life, you get to live around wellness, be so so thankful, and with kindness to all, not share horror stories about the streets as though you ever felt at odds or different, dumb. Some situations you cant get out of in life, and that’s when another is taking lead to where you are, managing your time, using your time, doing a lot of things in a short amount of time, that’s life. He told me he “was from Texas, and has done really bad things,” while driving my car, passenger side, listening to him talk, and turned-off, and then he wanted to hook up, and declined when he got on my bed, that wasn’t because he never gave me coke, or had me go to the ATM two times. If its happened to you once, then don’t be surprised if it happens to you again in life, and remember its how you tell your story, that makes others feel bad for them, empathize with their reactions to you, to illustrate you lack warmth, or think coldly about life, or have obnoxious things to say online like “come and get me!” That means whoever heard that was offended to think that you think there is someone guilty lurking, and to be so dumb to not understand who did it, and growing up around someone everyone thought was guilty, he was found not guilty. And its by the things you say that stand out, to others, that gives them permissions to hold negative judgments of you, not comprehend your fears, not show compassion toward your condition, and that’s why you get left, and that’s how you get remembered, as though your condition is important, or assume someone else doesn’t care about your health, or acts without worry for your condition worsening, life should not be a live or lose situation, and if you feel like your dying, explains why I went to the hospital mentally ill. And that was not because of what I said became ill, because I relapsed on cocaine and then got mental illness, and then became difficult to connect to, instability caused by choices in life, and my words in life, why anothers life was memorialized highlighted by two neon signs, while I got bullied in life, shamed, and things have not worked out for me in life, why jobs are important, and how respect of you is lost, the minute you claim you feel a certain way because another has made you feel that way, that shows a connection or an attempt at blaming the others for being peculiar about you, or not in acceptances of the changes others go through in getting to know you. That’s just life, you have connections, then you have to give up bonds, for new ones, jobs. I blog, not to cause problems or to experience heartbreak or focus on things that have caused me illness, when your thoughts or interpretations are of your own making, doesn’t make sense.
Socialization Tip: Once you become threatened, its you that gets rejected in life. And if you get sick, that is because you got threatened, and that’s because they connected, that was new to me. Apparently that’s a problem I have, upon being connected, I get sick. Im sorry if I have ever made another woman feel threatened by me, or my presence, and never would I want what has happened to me, dating offline and online, to happen to anyone else as experiment. Once you lose respect in life, say something crazy, then that’s how you get treated as threat and put down in life, if Stassi could shout obscenities that was hot in her case, but not in yours.