HISTORY THE ORIGINS OF SPECIAL, WHEN YOUVE GOT SMARTS, BUT NOT ALONE, THEY SHINE! ----> How parents DESPECIALIZE you, "why cant you be more like Leslie!" --- Once they dont feel hurt as made fun of, think thats how to talk to someone up!" No its if you do not maintain friendships, THE WHOLE TEAM MOVES TO FLORIDA, to punish you, demote. (Y) #WHOCARES (+)
Is that WHY you cried on the AIRPLANE after hugging OJ goodbye, LEFT THEM IN FLORIDA.
If you cant make friends, and your friend, who you were close to upon a move makes friends easily but you dont, and the most popular guy picks her with an AOL account, hangs out with you because youre the neighbor, and over friend or not, wait alone, sitting by a pond, them together.
If you feel under pressure as watched, that’s because you did know you were being watched for how long watched, and not being watched openly providing information or insights based upon who you know, try to be like, or because your best friend is half black is why you think youre cool, working hard, but look stupid, because no one who loves you wants to be seen with you, that’s because they don’t want people to know they are with someone who looks like you, based upon what they learn about you, think its stupid that a picture with someone you love is important. No one cares if you are loved, all they care about is what you look like when someone is disappointed in you, and who takes a picture of you why saved in your diary someone you did not have sex with who ended up in jail to say your low class not a top pick and because you journaled and didn’t keep all your friends from high school means youre a F up or a disappointment worth shocking on her last day of school -we knew her, shes not that anymore, and why shes not that anymore, is because she got high, dumped, friendless “shady.” Lose friends, get into college, nap through free period and lunch, then soccer practice. What is leadership, good in sports, selected because athletic “seniority” why don’t you “spread the love” wanted to pick other captains, played duck duck goose at practice, what is this? Why do we have a hippie soccer coach, and the uptight runner, finally got pregnant and cried to us.
“Voted Most Shady” ---“a term of endearment” MEANING now you care UNDER A NEGATIVE LIGHT, TO BE CALLED SOMETHING YOURE NOT, LIKE YOU DIDN’T UNDERSTAND BATHROOM SELFIES, GO WHY IS SHE TAKING SEXUAL PHOTOS, BROUGHT UP TO SAY: THAT’S WHY YOU SELFIE BC ITS ABOUT “HER CONFRONTING YOU ABOUT BEING TOLD I WAS TALKING $HIT ABOUT HER” AND I WAS QUIET, THEN HAD NO FRIENDS. ---WE CALL YOU BAD NAMES, BECAUSE WE THINK YOU THINK A BAD NAME MEANS WE HAVE PROOF NOW WHEN YOU WERE MENTALLY ILL YOU COULD NOT IDENTIFY MAKE CHOICES IN LIFE LOOKED LOST A REJECT OR SOMEONE LOOKING PUT TOGETHER TO BE HOT LIKE WOMEN WERE FINALLY AT 30, WHY WAS I PUNISHED LIKE ME LOOKING FIT, MEANT I WAS CONFIDENT, FIRST TIME SKINNY ASKED FOR PHOTOS, TRYING TO BE HOT FOR AS HOT AS, NO TRYING TO BE SKINNY, NOT STOCKY, TOUGH!
THE EXPOSURE TO PHOTOS GAY DETOUR AND AFFILIATE DETOUR COST ME MY ARM AND MY MOM THOUGHT THAT I WAS UNSTABLE TANTRUMMING, GIVEN ABILIFY SHOTS! -FAT AGAIN. --- WHY DO THIS MAD "CENURY CITY PARALEGAL 1/200 APPS ACCEPTED DIDNT GET PAID" ---THIS DIDN’T WORK OUT TOLD “COME HOME RIGHT NOW!” ---LIKE ME, AND REAL BOYFRIEND LEFT!
YA RIGHT I WAS AN ADVOCATE AND THEN BECAME A VICTIM BY AGE MET TO CLAIM THAT I WASN THERE BECAUSE SEX ISSUES WERE IMPORTANT, IT WAS A 40HR TRAINING VOLUNTEER JOB, HOW TO RESPOND TO A CRISIS, NEVER LOST A CLIENT, ALWAYS THROUGH, NO TOUGH CALLS, HAD TO TALK ABOUT, OVER AND OVER AGAIN IN TEAM MEETINGS, A LOSS OF LIFE.
JUST LIKE AT HIW ALWAYS MENTIONED THE SPONSEE WHO DIED, CANT GET OVER IT.
WHEN OTHER PEOPLE ARE TALKING ABOUT DEATH OR REQUESTING NOT TO MENTION THE PASSING, ITS BECAUSE AS COMING FROM YOU, HURTS TO BE MENTIONED BY SOMEONE EVERYONE THOUGHT WAS INSENSTIVE BC IF SAID LIKE THIS LOOKS LIKE THIS, AS EDITED, AND WHEN SHES GONE, NOTES GONE, ITS BECAUSE IT WAS HARD WORK, ARLUKE ARTICLE READ, STUFF DOCTORS DO, HOW CAN THEY TAKE CARE AND LET GO PUT DOWN, AN ANIMAL, THE TRAUMA OF PUTTING ANIMALS TO SLEEP. HOW THE FUCK DOES "VT" APPLY TO YOU AS REVIEWING HOTLINE COUNSELORS YOU WORKED WITH, TOLD: THEN THEY DO DRUGS AND WE LOSE THEM, WHY WOULD THEY DO DRUGS, SHES STILL WORKING ON HER RESEARCH ON "COUNSELOR RETENTION" ---READ A #5 BOX OF NAROPA RESEARCH: TRANSCENDENTALISM COOL, WAS TOLD BY MY PSYCHIC YOU REALLY SHOULDNT HOLD ON TO THE DECEASED BE.LONGINGS, I THOUGHT WHY, ITS FOR RESEARCH ON TRAUMA, FROM ANOTHER SCHOOL DONATED TO US, THE AUTHOR AND PAPER WRITTEN BY SOMEONE WHO HAS PASSED. CITED
Originally Written 04-23-20