For the most part things have been going well, everyone is allowed to talk in private to voice their concerns in life, that’s allowable, for arguments to be raised, but not face to face online, that’s really no ones business to see me upset, and do not think it is appropriate to be preyed upon to see if I blow up in public, or make myself look scary to scare others, by things that scare me, that would be an inappropriate use of intimidation and cause for separation of people, to make me look bad, or look ugly, to make others not like me. I waited 7 years to date again and have 2 options, and chose to keep in touch with one who was not fit to be with me, by issues, and the other, not well enough to be with me, given his personal standing as an attorney, which is why I talk to the police, there are ways of dealing with your fears that don’t need to amount to wellness illness, or fear in others, affect the happiness of others, to instill blames upon others and wait upon reactions to occur, to create visual evidence of sides and then label those viewpoints as being the same as. When it comes to mass shootings, being famous was one of the issues, so growing up next to someone infamous, it seemed, important not to enable others through a vehicle created by me, to express themselves from my shoes, so in order to enable that vehicle to be created to worsen my shoes to illness, awkwardness, gay, and something unhospitable and unsuitable for human, life, created a path for empathy which upon being stood in created a sense of illness as standing in my shoes and looking out from my vantage point. That was taking a position of wellness, and upon hearing and seeing my formulas for seeing the world upon not being strong, and making fun of me as repeated, when problem solving on my own, make things about jealously, or trying to be like, or about beauty, as though those were issues affecting my health or treatment of my throughout my life, no I was able to achieve regardless of what I looked like always popular, maybe not the most popular, but always well liked, it was never a competition for standing or wellness in my life, as Im an athlete am a team player, and accustomed to getting well and staying well by going to the gym that is how I feel well, and when not exercising I just don’t feel like myself, and finally now with time available to me, I am able to stay well, by looking and feeling good, as a means to stay well. It just so happens that like wearing a suit, when you look well others treat you special. That is something new to me, not something I ever considered as important used to toughness, and thought that was normal, being girly, or romantically involved, that started in college, new to it, never a whore, not oversexed, mostly focused on my studies.