11-27-19
Ive had a few pen pals on messenger over the years, one Trump Account, sent a Book to Avenatti, during the Stormi Crisis, and even messaged Lebron James, regarding my previous campaign, where Ive been in life, and where Im going in life, what my plans are. In in between phases in life, sometimes talking to those in the other world, the successful world helps, to get ideas going, and to get your hyper energy back. Its not that its exciting to talk to people who are wildly successful, but you wonder, if they go through the same daily struggles that you do, coping with the present times, and finding their own way in life. Ari reflects that uncertainty, with his recent “IPO collapse.” Whats an IPO collapse? An IPO is a public offering [1], so when latimes.com was referring to an “IPO collapse” that means that he decided not to go public with his company. There are many reasons why a company decides not to go public. It has more to do with "business model" [2] fundamentals not so much to do with who his clients are or have been, in case you were wondering. As he is linked to “President Trump and Michael Moore, Martin Scorsese and Oprah Winfrey.” [3] He is the father of four, and the youngest of three, and has two brothers, one who worked as Obama’s first chief of staff, and the other a Harvard educated oncologist, we have nothing in common, except for the fact that my Brother taught at Harvard and was a Harvard Doctor, and we grew up friends with the Son of the Founder of UTA, another talent organization in Hollywood, Im not sure that makes us a connection in life, or even a distant one. But when I heard that one of his client’s is Michael Moore, I immediately knew, where I got my zest from on Twitter all these years telling movie and book jokes, and writing quotes to pass the time, 5 years of writing on Twitter before working on my first book, I assembled 2017, approved by Brady Campaign and FEMA, as a FEMA student, to write a book. I call the police often, I get paranoid, it would be very egregious to say that Im an advocate, after growing up around OJ, that’s not why, I was a crisis hotline counselor in Boulder 2004, certified, so this is my niche, not something new, but second nature to respond. I don’t think I responded in the best way, posting flyers on poles down Sunset blvd, and Hollywood blvd, in front of the Mann Chinese theater, police offices, saw me taping flyers and smiled, they said BRADY MUSIC CAMPAIGN, and mymollydoll.com on top, and my recent stats at the bottom. When the times get tough it helps to have everyone on one side, we did well for many years, but there have been recent shootings, that have really taken their toll on everyone spiritually and emotionally, of that Im sure. Especially to those who have followed me over the years, wondering what to do next, how to reset the tone, to help prevent violence in the community, and even fires. Im sure that’s probably how Ari Emanuel may have heard of me, but Im no Michael Moore, I worked for the Government at age 22, at the LA City Attorneys Office, a paralegal, so I have a much different vantage point, “1151 subsequent remedial measures are inadmissible as evidence for misconduct” … doing something seemed more important than doing nothing, and leaving law school to fly to DC twice for $2000, seemed like a good option, to be apart of discussions in DC, isn’t that where all our laws are made? I never planned to be a controversial figure as someone who cares, I think that its in everyones best interests to care, but can see how it can be draining, to not feel like your winning in life, or to feel like youre losing in life, if there are additional instances, that prove your efforts futile or not good enough. I assure you that showing up, and addressing those harms, are more beneficial than saying nothing at all. I even tried to start a Shorty Awards campaign, and got nominated for an award for my blogging online, and website building. Although my website at the time, was not fully evolved, it’s the thought that counts, even lost a best friend in the process of campaigning, Im sure being in the middle of everything did not make it any easier for her at the time. They even put me in the hospital twice, when they released her Father from prison, did they time that? Sometimes I wonder what is expected of others to hear when they hear something about someone, what things are made to look like, and whether on the outside, things are made to look a certain way so that no matter what is said, on paper, it looks like someone got released and someone put in, for what flyers? For caring? For volunteering? That’s not a big idea, and that’s not having a big head, that’s volunteer work, that’s not trying to make money, direct money, manage crowd, gather a crowd, or be bigger than I am as a person, it would be wrong to think that anyone who does care, is caring for the sole purpose of making a side, being on a side, or creating a side in life, that suits them, or helps to defend self or others, I didn’t have to do anything, I could have finished my JD, I started the semester, and left. Sometimes people don’t know when to stop, and usually they don’t stop, until things look just the way they want them too, so whether they are around or not, they have made their point, or brought someone so far down, to see what they are made of, as broken, whether angry, hostile, agitated, or resentful, I took myself to Didi Hirsch that’s the hospital that got recommended to me, after being hospitalized 9x, my Father was hospitalized too, why I got a job, to keep moving forward, I don’t think anyone should be brought down in life, to make a point, or to label someone of bad influence in life, then don’t care, forget I posted flyers, and who cares if I die or commit suicide then, is that what you want to hear? Someone worthless, who cared, and die in that memory, or die, as someone who cared, and did their best, and was deemed worthless to a few, who put her down in life. Do you understand how embarrassing that was for me, deflate what ego? That doesn’t apply to me, Im not an alcoholic or a drug addict, Ive had problems, but briefly, not over the years, and my mental health issues, have to do with the embarrassment, of being put in rehab, while in law school, and losing respect from my family, and my best friend, that was a huge let down. So no I don’t think that Im a positive connection in life, anymore, personally, because of what Ive been through and because of how many times I was embarrassed in public, but you don’t see me overreacting about it in life upset, or disgruntled … exactly what are you trying to prove, trying to upset me, hurt my image, and ruin my self-esteem? That Im some crazy Jewish girl, or mentally ill, or a slut, -I can do better than this. Im graduating from Law School, whether you like or not, and if I so desire to can go for a PhD, and wrote two books. When youre dying youre dying, and it feels like theres no coming back, that’s mental illness, and when you regain conscious awareness of your blessings in life and try again, that’s a huge step in the right direction, fighting with how you are treated, and about what meds you get put on, puts you nowhere in life, but below others, who are more well adjusted than you, that’s life! ~Why they say to take it "one day at a time." References: [1] https://www.google.com/search?q=ipo&rlz=1C5CHFA_enUS825US826&oq=ipo&aqs=chrome.0.0l2j69i60j0j69i60j0.751j0j4&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8 [2] nymag.com/intelligencer/2019/09/what-the-collapse-of-weworks-ipo-means.html [3] https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/business/story/2019-09-29/for-brash-deal-maker-ari-emanuel-ipo-collapse-is-a-rare-stumble-and-his-biggest-challenge-yet
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