For a recent timeline of events with likes during phases of discovery and also during the difficulty of understanding and comprehending loss while accounting for situations or risk to music or industry have been in talks with Boulder DA for years beginning after the maker of my poster passed away in France. Report everything. So it has never been a difficulty figuring out the souce of upset which is not behind or too late or in error, thats no one who is disabling me, if I am not well, its I am not opening up it takes 11 months to open up sing fix face move on and be loving again, so tomorrow, either take schizophrenic meds, with attorneys interested left no money, missed opportunity to give my books to a governing body of attorneys to assess credit and damages to me for free clarity to anyone, with expectation of medication to fix insult, President Trump can, once, everyone else, is not a source of change, thats not a Pulitzer, me gone and another lights up, thats MY identity. my INTELLIGENCE. I AM NOT WRITING ANYMORE BOOKS, That was my best work. I want to work for DA Spitzer, move forward. And have to prove that I am not "gay" "stupid" "drug addict" "need help" "tips" "best alone single = smart energy." #sober I am not strong enough to be playful especially now with fires, COVID, power loss, everyone wants to understand why I am in a leadership position through writing, or upset, based on mourning not running sprints which is what I have done through every down, it was viewed as escape from responsibility so there were more down, if we are in a down, the best way to lift others, is not to talk about why, FIX the problem respect timing, content writing wise. It takes a year to recover from mental illness devastation, 6 months at rest writing hard no running, and 6 months or managing addressing a discomfort, until its clear in writing, I am not obligated, to shine, for free, light. And be insulted, thats not a Lady Gaga joke #usarmy name, I support her so dont accuse me of not addressing it on my blog and she got her dogs back, it helps its not in protocol there are no advisors you try it works. #helpall
Originally Posted: 07-08-21
If there is anything that you think that I have done wrong you can call Judge Brown (310) 725-3000, I have already reported the pen pal situation to my Judge to let them know that nude photos were exchanged, now I have notified GoDaddy that they have been placed online, and that is very hurtful in a physical way, a lot of unwanted pressure to improve and also not to allow for that type of behavior or letting my guard down loving, be used to make me seem like Ive not improved or not deserving of love, I am not sexual with anyone by text messaging or messenger or by video, that’s not in my eyes, or my body, if its something preferred that it is an image provided, all other lesser state of mind voices, or conditions and meds have nothing to do with my sexuality, rejections, or hospitalizations, I do not plan to marry have kids or date for the rest of my life, once you are loving and then treated as though there is something wrong with you physically or mentally, that’s how in defense of self you are insulted, and it will be by an opinion you repeat, that you get treated, lose jobs, and ultimately go into pain, and that’s in retaliation, for the years of your life lost, while trying to improve, and not being in a physical or mental condition with the capacity for another to received a benefit, if there was ever a time when by voice, body type or face, you have ever not been pleased with me, please take it court, I can take a drug test, be tested for alcohol get blood work done, I don’t touch people, I don’t have sex, I don’t complain about people, I don’t treat people as grose, I don’t look down upon people, I am not threatened by people, I don’t see people as stupid, I see all people as fun contributions to the grand scheme of things when it comes to survival and not make things about preferences, and allowing for one another to attack the other, based upon who is or is not affected, and then condemn anyone who seems like they have not been working hard not affected, or the basis for any misdirection of care, in terms of politicians, wives, friends, lovers, or companions, I think I have never been pretty enough or well enough to take center stage, I think by book or by blog, you are able when well to be a sound voice of reason, that will not be the basis for anothers wellness, or act of respect for you, if it’s a rumor or something you have said that they think you have been sexually explicit wrong mentally visually by eye contact tone or demeanor or gay, or an unwanted friendship or being nice, then that you can take to court if you think that I pleasure myself in being social or talking to a woman, who knows a man I know or who thinks that by conversing with me, I feel good in my mind, or body, and down below, I don’t think that I have any internal reactions to women or men in a way that my body magically rehabilitates itself makes sense or quiets, I think love is a feeling when you are well and others are well around you, and I get that not all people will be made to feel that way about you, once those need are met, that’s how instability gets made to be viewed as guilt, so if its my life you are not happy with the result, a result this result, or you wish to see me punished think that Im not in a loving way not declaring myself as gay, or staring at anyone, not in admirable way proud of those who talk and are confident, and responsive to most, that’s someone minding their own business, that’s not someone concerned with me, that’s someone who is taking good care of themselves, someone who is not bothered by me free to be themselves and improve, and that’s how life should be, it’s a very demanding time, where you have to be a certain way or else you get shouted out like your not feminine or beautiful or smart on the inside, and if you face changes then be treated as someone who is not beautiful within, by description of what you think happens when things are going well for you, or allow yourself to be bothered by voices, and face face dysmorphia, I don’t talk to people, no one at the park has ever complained about seeing me there, I stopped running everyday, Im aware to stay in shape, Im not purposefully getting fat, I would never connect with anyone, if it was to declare me bad goods, or make them feel like being exposed to me, means that they will not be liked and loved and adored the same, we all lose our interest and positivity toward those we think less of and that’s sometimes happens talking about your sexual history, so like most done be affected, and also don’t allow yourself to sound unappreciative or failing, that’s hurtful to me, and anyone doing well. I don’t think its important to see what my body looks like, if Im not in love, or if Im not feeling good, or Im not running, or shopping or dating, then you don’t have to worry about me being sexual with anyone you think is the cause for my heart to break, it breaks very easily, when you love someone who is okay with you, then you lose everything, like they can be replaced, they cant it is very rare for someone to be comfortable with you want to talk to you.
Originally Posted: 06-06-21