Part of being a professional online in the tech “online” world, you have to with compassion, be mindful of the trade secrets held by others, company business models, senses of humor, and derivative consequences of any backlash faced by them in the event of destruction. Whenever guilts are passed to the creators, this causes a frustration of purpose, an energy coming from those who provide a service to others, and their ability to carry out those professional functions to others, to provide a source of light to them in life, and enable them to share their light with others, such as on “social media” platforms. The basis from which all connect is usually based upon positives, in a general sense, nothing off putting, combative, accusatory, or blameworthy considerations aside, not trying to reinforce poor thinking to others, when poor thinking is not the cause of their success or their ability to help others, usually when we are thinking right, or convinced we have the right ideas about life, we come up with ideas, with how to address situations, or “deletions” of private records, and the subsequent ramifications of those deletions of content from our private records, such as a theory about 9/11 apologizing to soldiers who died overseas before attempting suicide 2009 and then I was asked “who do you think did it?” and then my Father got a hemangioma Fall 2009 after my suicide attempt, know that life stresses are real, and whenever any blames are asked for concerning war, politics, and death, be sure to understand the consequences of saying out loud, when you felt errors occurred and by what statements. My parents separated when I was in Kindergarten, if that helps at all understand, a womans need to be alone, and when alone, not be used by men, while away from their families. I feel like I got mad at Petrocelli, because he was interrogating my family as though their connection was at fault for the death of Nicole Brown Simpson, as though jungle gyms in our backyard and a jungle gym in front of OJ’s house, was fruit for attack in the 90s, or even worse a set up. Both families were affected, which is why I have maintained a low profile seldom participated online, and went to two law schools, and that will not change about me, not being very social, and to myself, its not that the world is a dangerous place, its just that everyone wants to control you, what you think, say, and how you respond, upon attachments or detachments in life, everyone studying a case about homicide with fascination, as though the more they know the more they think they can better understand life, be mindful that upon studying others, that can lead to putting others in fear such as myself, and not benefit my condition, or my mental health, or physical health, now with a hemangioma like my Dad. You have a choice whether to live a simple life, or whether to share your story, and because I shared my story, maybe things did not turn out as well as I had anticipated, and maybe people who should have been protected were not protected when they needed protections, that God cannot save you from, things that happen to you while out, socializing, dating, or blogging, that you have to figure out for yourself. Know that not everyone will support you, when you do decide to come forward and share your story out loud, and not all will be understanding of you, just do your best not to be blamed for the misunderstandings of others, highlighting your hesitancies in life, as though you should be living life unafraid, like the world is a safe place as a victim of homicide. I am always doing my best to be mindful of who has passed, and have done my best to be understanding of others too. #stopsuicide: Please dont compound issues.
(07/07/20) Please Note: This story does not sit well, and is causing me pain, obviously, bipolar is difficult to understand and comprehend, Im in a much better place now than I was then and recently, so long as you bring things up past, that prevents you from moving forward to be accepted as normal or well,
Originally Posts 07/06/20.