Stepping away from the side note that was recently triggered by the Church Shooting in Charleston. I recall instances when in the past I have been required even within a loving and trusting relationship with a boyfriend of three years, be tested to confirm whether fact or fiction true or false and accurate depiction of who I am when a series of instances occur or whether I write in a way for a jazzy effect on the reader. No that "jazzy effect" is natural it is called my heart and if my words feel google that is because I feel good inside not lost or disassociated from reality. For what purpose or good does it serve to confirm whether I am who I say I am or set off a chain of events which only reflect a statement already written about enduring such pain, if only for purposes of causing additional harm to and NOT for adding positive light to character and create a situation for reaction only not because one naturally feels a certain way but because one is acting in a way that seems natural but for the purposes of bringing out qualities in another that look natural to everyone else including the actor but only to the chagrin of the actor eliciting those actions/behavior/consequences/emotions. Recidivism and repeat instances of failure do not reflect highly on an individuals character ever, especially not in someones character who is presently excelling and achieving in life despite the lacksadasical deep connection desired by the actor for his lover who he cannot be happy for only happy for when he feels like he can predict her or he can understand her and when he cannot understand her which is not willing to admit to tries to control her, why? Because one who does not understand or one who feels that not understanding may threaten his standing or critique of level of intelligence is acting only on his behalf and peculiar especially when one is acting on their behalf before any chain of instances have occurred requiring one to. NEVER try to control a situation that is already under control, know what if an issue is brought to your attention as a far removed person from my circle of trust which consists of only me and my laptop, that those issue have already been researched fully developed written about and dissected for review and critique and criticism and suicide rendered as proper substitute over retarding my growth and be remembered as peaceful not anyone fighting for anything who has the painful exposure of being mislabeled along the way confused for fighting for something she does not represent and he knows she does not represent but that in case the contrary his fear of support of release of, will justify his pre-planted destruction of my character my good character and purpose, which then forces me without ability to avoid reasons for which such attack to my credibility was made and why a war like tactic was instigated by him for purposes of humor which only make me look like a smart alec not an appreciative writer who generally appreciates fans would never chastise, once wrongfully prematurely chastised behind my back then any future later explanation and analysis for a piece written by my for whom? Hotline Counselors (*Certified Hotline Counselors) will not be received as genuine and questionned with same temperate distance as a lover to his writers prose he questionned and responded with confirmation of the later negative to sub-support an alternate confirmation argument of anticipated later decent and rationale good purpose for pre-plant, which other wise not explained as earlier stated explanation of the later not well received because will bemet with the same temperate distance of the questionner toward the lover who writes but is misunderstood not understood as writing for present but accused by way of tampering as someone writing in prose to control outcome of a future event or happening or control a set of circumstances arising from the coming out of a person in regards as it has the possibility of relating to a chain of events to which this person (not understanding I am a person with a brain) would understand circumstances affecting me if relating to circumstances affecting me at present (which I expressed to you at a Bar on a date Aaron) which you felt necessary to not discuss and by assumption destroyed me and tampered to cast me as garbage instead of something to be valued simply because you thought I was a certain way which I am not, because you read does not mean you understand, because there are words spoken does not mean accurate professionally reviewed for release to public, therefore since I AM NOT MAKING THOSE ARGUMENTS AND THIS IS ABOUT HOTLINE COUNSELORS THAN DONT PUT SOMETHING ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE IN SOMETHING FROM ANOTHER PERIOD IN TIME HERE TO THEN SAY THIS IF RELEASED IS FOR PURPOSES NOT SIGNIFICANT ENOUGH THAT PUTTING THIS HERE WONT MATTER. LISTEN.....BEFORE YOU TAKE CONTROL OVER SOMETHING YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT. AND HAVE NO EXPERIENCE DEALING WITH NO PROFESSIONAL EXPERIENCE DEALING WITH AND NO PROFESSIONAL OPINION REGARDING AND NO LEGAL REPRESENTATION OR AUTHORITY TO MISREPRESENT ME OR SET OF A CHAIN REACTION TO CAUSE JUDGMENT YOU THINK APPROPRIATE. NOT GULITY OF CONSPIRACY. NOT GUILTY OF NEGLIGENCE, I DEACTIVATED MY TWITTER ACCOUNT STARTED SCHOOL ASK TWITTER. I CANNOT DO SCHOOL AND TWITTER WHY BECAUSE I HAVE ADD ADHD AND CANNOT CONCENTRATE ON TWO THINGS AT ONCE CAN ONLY FOCUS ON ONE THING AT A TIME.