Chances are once you get to a better place in life, you’ll compare where you are now to where you have been, that’s perfectly normal, to reassess what needs work, and figure out what you did right, to get to where you are now. Don’t be so hard on yourself. In fact, “ruminating” has been found to interfere with ones ability to “implement[t] the behavioral changes necessary to prevent a relapse.”  It’s the very thinking about your own issues, not just the past, that may prevent you from staying present now, I assure you its just an adjustment phase, and like all days pass, allow time to pass, recognizing your own self-worth, and how far you’ve come. Its not just stigma that’s cause for embarrassment upon disclosure of diagnoses, but also comparisons to others who have not been well in the past, dumbed down as the same as, or worse than, you’ll never feel like yourself, if youre in constant worry as to who youre being compared to in life, keep your world small, its not necessary to inspire others or demonstrate any type of leadership when it comes to wellness, once you achieve well, your mental health comes first above all else, especially when fragile new to stability. A healthy outlook is not demonstrated by your words, but by your actions in life, and your future is determined by your present, not your past necessarily, if you can let go of that much, then do so. Its what you do from this point on that matters most, not by focusing on what people think, or by what is inferred by your presence around others or actions in life, live life as best you can, if keeping busy keeps your mind off where you’ve been then keep busy, if keeping busy keeps you from discussion of problems that send you through a whirlwind of negative fears about your present abilities in life, then don’t send yourself off into a freeze, nows not always a good time for therapy and overfocus on oneself, that can be easily be mistaken for selfishness, don’t worry about interpreting the behaviors of others, as everyone is doing their best to cope with their own version of reality, and portray themselves as they see best fit, know that not everything is about you, just as its wrong to use associations in life to bolster esteems, don’t subject yourself to being used to similarly bolster the esteems of others, by being vulnerable, retaliated upon, as less than, its not necessary to assert ones intelligences in life, confidentiality is so important to maintaining trust, and to be taken seriously in life, not look small minded or be treated as an opportunist in life, looking for a step up in life, if you cannot achieve on your own, don’t expect help from anyone to help you achieve, maintain autonomy , when it comes to relationships and building rapport with others, co-dependence is not a healthy show of acceptances in life, for one personality to dominate anothers, healthy leadership enables growth, fosters wellness.