Upon Deletion and After Theft …
Upon deletion that is thought of as a right to take, or make fun of, a sign of guilt, usually when someone is well, that wellness is wanted to be benefited by the creator and there is a loss of energy upon creation of anything good, any break is not indicative of guilt or denoting a right to be given to the observer to take, sometimes there is a long process of saving or archiving or communicating, and in the space between creation and saving, is tired, and its during that period of tire that things are deemed as takeable as though not noticeable, it is the reader who memorizes, and it is by what is thought of as taken away remembered, no faces are as by exposed of by who is thinking about who their face changes, like mine, not by watching or imitation mimicry or by touch or transfer of energy, it is by exposure, the fewer intimacies and exposures you have the greater the memory of that person in your life, if you meet a lot of people you may not have the same problem as attached or by memory thought of, or impressed upon, it is the person who looks the most different that is deemed as the offender, I have looked the same my whole life, it is by offended “letter felt on a person” that have been impressed upon a persons sense of self and identity why people get offended when people are aggressive or say things not in tone matching or too strong of a tone for by what a person looks like, the more unrecognizable a person looks, that is not necessarily a given that a negative opinion is held of them sometimes self care is a process not a sign that their body is weak heart is weak promiscuos or without love sometimes people gain weight for whatever reasons, and its none of anyone business what causes heartache loss of energy or motivation in life, sometimes these are just phases and especially not be judged in the negative if experienced while growing up by a few bad photos, and all good photos taken, not remembered as well but only as not well, it is by those impressions a future impression or past impression is made about a person, as being that way their whole life without photos representative of them well, and by bad photos judgments is passed negative judgment which gets projected onto them moving forward without them knowing and its by others ability to change their face without them knowing why, that empowers people who think deserved, once you learn why your face changes, with limited contact and no drinking or drug use, and limited interaction, when well you present the best version of yourself, at work you wear nice clothes, and in the day if you do not have a job that does not mean dress down, and especially not if you do not fit in brand names jeans, they will always bring up the past as told by you and it is by the words of your story that they justify impressing upon you the interpretation of those who do not know you well and think by how you look or by where you are that something is wrong with you it takes many years to reverse negative judgment of you its by being good, and once you are able to function and maintain face, reset your face with makeup then you have made it to smart, unless you know how to manage yourself and practice self care then it is not wise to be too social drink or do drugs if you cannot manage your own identity, its by living and property beign taken away as living people who are not around you are able to attach to you and control you when you are well that attachment is good luck, stretched back to them, as not well what is taken becomes of less value, that is why people steal from those who are well to receive the benefits of that wellness by having something of the well while they are well, to be attached to well, and to understand why people are well, nothing well was ever made easily, and it may seem as though someone is strong, but its not by challenges that make us stronger, and its not by pushing ourselves that makes us stronger, past a certain age something that is easy to someone who experiences difficulty understanding, will benefit from that that challenge as faced by another, this is a reoccurring theme, as people are described as remembered from my life, that perspective is taken and then projected toward me as the one being negative it does not matter whether I look well or look young now, even if you achieve a well look and figure out what is causing your face to change, by that time your insides do not match your outsides and likewise you will be tested to see if you know your limits in life, and left for god to punish you, as confirmed as deserving of punishment based upon as weak or dull or broken how your outsides look to see if they match your insides, that’s called an unwanted experiment of someone who is well treated as appearing youthful to attract, not because deserved, and an older photo is the desired result sought to be projected, then those are they who will perceive your past as told or remembered to create those possibilities for you in the future, anything explained is not disempowering to any one side, but its just a waste of energy to explain why people trun on you when well, and by the time you get sick lighten up, and by then its too late.
Upon any first meeting how you look an appear demonstrates how fit you are to be around others, welcomed into their lives, and based upon whether or not you are capable of improving, contributing to a set of positive conditions, and improvable, some us of us were well, and after taking care of others for many years become fixer uppers ourselves, those who have aged over the years recognize this pattern, and note that those who you help get better will never forget you, youd think the opposite to remember those who you have not faired well among, don’t blame your past or those in it when bad luck strikes, allow people to make mistakes in life, and always prove them wrong, people will always want better in life, and the more you become desperate needy or overreact the less stable fixable you become and the more likely you will get let go, once they cannot see a future with you, that’s because your wellness is viewed upon as fixable to not fixable and although better not good enough, if they see a future in you, then you should see a future in you, if they can see a future in you but you cannot see your own future including them, doesn’t mean youre in the wrong place it just means that you have become so defective that until you are at your best and feel your best will you see and think your best, because that’s how you conditioned yourself, others may not be so conditioned to those settings of acceptance and clarity, that’s beyond perfection, that’s expectation, they always tell you not to set high expectations of others, what about you? If you do not set reasonable expectations of yourself, who knew that falling by the wayside confirms or automatically groups you among a set of rejects, losers, and offenders who when failure meets people, problems occur, and when problems occur, jealousy is at fault, in my best opinion its more than jealousy, if your body and face change and you become tired sleepy head and body in pain, but not suicidal because you have purpose in life to be awake for those hours, what then, I have seen doctors their choices are (1) asleep live life (2) awake live life. In my own words which is more painful, both, I think stupid is the most painful condition when you feel something or think something and cant articulate yourself and jibberish comes out and or humor which makes you look of lower intelligence and that negative opinion of you gets casted over your positive outlook until negative occurs in your life to confirm those negative judgments of you … no one intends to get taken advantage of … [redacted] the good always finds better, and if youre not good enough the best thing you can do is leave, however you don’t think that upon leaving you get picked and devalued, eventually all secrets become known, and if someone is not sure about you, hearing where you have been will not make them any more the less attracted to you, what is grose? Anyone in shape is not grose. What is beauty, anyone who recognizes themselves looks the same everyday is healthy not high maintenance but doing their best of course no one wants to look different everyday, and if people look well together that’s not love that symbiosis, and upon disconnect they should look the same, unless they connect to something or someone who is not a match or who doesn’t love them, then a part of them connects to when they looked well, why they are not happy because they wish they looked the same but because in a new relationship look different. You would think this only happens to women, bottom line pick your favorite Facebook profile and share updates when well, no one wants to see your face as demonized ugly or shrinking, only at your best, can you imagine if everyone documented their mental illness or bad days, then we would not remember the best of times, or when well, only our worst including your friends and audiences. Market yourself as well always, if you get hurt, don’t share with everyone what happened, just fix yourself, report always, and I promise God will fix your face, the body heals.
Whats Happening …
Whats happening is the spiriting of people, as toward you, trying to be something from your past to see if you react in the same way, thinking they know how you work. When you are not stable or lost people will shout things at you to see if likewise you react, and based upon the words that they use, or stories they tell see if you respond in the positive or negative as assuming things are about you, that’s creatively putting you down, by bringing up subjects to see if you are desensitized then trying to prove desensitized by bringing up subjects over and over again to see if affected whether guilt is existing or not, that’s someone creating a side and then taking the place of the person to whom they believe is not at fault, and then treating you as though you are at fault, and by the same token doing things you are not able to provide evidence for and then treating you if you respond in the negative as “bringing it upon yourself” proving backwards commentary not justified at the time commentary was made, that’s someone – reflects someone who thought you were less than and spoke to you as such until you exhibited characteristics of someone who is less than, if someone does not look well that’s not a necessarily a product of their environment, nor does how someone look or appear now show whether someone was well or not at the time they got sick, and based upon a fathomed understanding of illness, place beliefs as though obsessions exist that so justify treatment of them, and further justified by tampering, and once stated is how they keep harming you without ability to prove say that you are being experimental with them, only someone who is being experimental with you when they do not get the reaction that they had hoped for respond in the negative toward you, and when they achieve a positive condition and let go, is when you become disgruntled as they have no understanding of your comprehension and ability to not react, that’s assuming that you were punished because you react poorly to negativity, at what point did negativity begin? You only have a small window of opportunity to be normal, once you look or appear abnormal is when you get treated as being abnormal inside and out, sometimes our outsides do not match who we are on the inside, its at the point where everyone who was guilty no longer cares and unless a script is written for them for how to respond or treat you or something said as to how a few have treated you to see how the masses respond, is inflating the position of the few who have been experimental with you are not been able to keep you or maintain admiration or love for them, that’s when they have taken it too far not you, learn how to let things go, you cannot force people to love you or care about you, in an unprofessional way, people adjust both to people and their environment its not all about you or the wellness provided by you to be returned by someone who you think looks well and until they do not look well realize they are not well, it should not get to that point, when physical appearances change, sometimes because of mistakes we have to take care of people who are not well, and based upon that understanding people either stay sick or achieve well. Based upon where I was place was by choice, a hospital where smoking was permitted why I was visited in court and in the hospital is beyond me, everyone deserves a right to privacy, that’s not support for return, that’s making someone uncomfortable on purpose as though thought deserved, you cannot judge one interaction as all post interactions are the same or similar, just because you think that you are a catch does not give one the right to call someone mentally ill over song choices or sponsorship, nervousness is a manifestation not of aggressiveness around you, but by comfort, if not comfortable do not build trust with those to whom you think you are better than, if so achieve and find better than, don’t put someone down who is well to look better than, we are all victims at this point, and until you understand it takes time for people to recover will you stop fighting, blaming others, and heal. Its someone who does not understand your past thinks they know you or why you have become ill or treated the way you have been treated and they either reinforce those opinions about you to see if they are right to feel well, or just let things go not make things worse. Allow people to move forward in life, not everything is about you, and until you can empathize is not always a good indicator of understanding, sometimes empathy hurts, I am not well, why no one empathizes with me, that’s not because brought upon myself its because others deemed me not viable or unfit for representation, that people took on leadership positions about me and put me down as justified, to blame for their misunderstandings of mental illnesses. At what point do you forgive and move forward at what point do you stop taking people who are good and blaming them for when things go wrong, and let the ones most put together lead, when they stop wanting to lead, what then becomes of society, as led by the broken or people who have failed, is it really the strong who have lifted us, or those who are bad turned to good. How long can someone who is bad stay good, and at what point does one misrepresentation cause a series of misrepresentations, that is based upon the happening of bad conditions to be proven right, if the first misunderstanding was understood as a misunderstanding then the following misunderstandings would not have been made about them as justified, or amplified.
Stories from Your Past …
People will always be picky about what they remember about you, based upon how they have viewed you during good and bad times, and based upon your past as told or how they have judged you is how they build and create a current understanding of you as in the wrong, those are by people who are prosecutorial minded, who do not allow you to move forward in life, and wish to have you remembered as bad, at what point do you then begin to move forward. Whether you get viewed upon as one who is in tune with the past that was not well, is what they do to further discriminate you as promoting characteristics about you until changed, to further an understanding of where you belong or deserve to be grouped upon in life. You cannot move forward after punishment, that is something I will have to live with as intelligent, and after having done my best to live a good life and stay home, not exposed or tired by socialization or from talking to much, where my energy comes from seldom spoken and hardworking, its not just by who we admire that we are influenced, but by those who have good energy about them that influence others, do not be measured by the change you are able to influence in others, that does not necessarily reflect back some kind of a gift of being able to improve others, it’s the gift of improvement, that gets hired or attacked by those who experience failure after failure, and rejection who can’t seem to make good luck happen for them in life, without putting someone down with a gift to make themselves appear as the gift giver of wellness or deserving of credit for wellness, and when any illness is achieved or obtained, then abstinence is best from all social interactions and dating, that’s the point at which when your gift is gone, your gift of wellness, and those not affected are the ones who keep achieving well at your expense, you do not own people, not even your heart, and even if you get rejected or broken, do not empathize with those who have changed their minds about you, there are plenty of people in this world gifted who are able to help others achieve well, that is not a one person job, but sometimes a group effort, once you do not match up in life, think what characteristics or traits were changed about you after having been put down, is that the kind of person you should give your heart to someone who is fickle well and condescending toward you, if that’s not a match once it will not be a match again in the future, find people who love you for who you are, not dislike you for who you are not, not believe in you. It’s a choice to light up, once your light gets put out you become picky, how a person becomes picky about the energy they spend and put out into the world, whether to save energy or waste or spend energy helping others or see others improve while you become ill, what is that then, energy being taken away? Well Shakespeare, its about how much energy you put into each project, you can give and give and never receive any returns on what you think is your best work, or something of value, why? Because anything that looks easy or sounds well or complete is deemed to have been easy to make, when in actuality anything special does not exist prior, becomes devalued as copies are made or distributed how someone who is smart is despecialized, once someone carries on a gift made by one, and then worked on by another who is not the creator of an original work. That’s the loss of intelligence that occurs when you share your mind, sometimes in marketing what you share becomes better at you than you are able to perform, that’s in a general sense what happens when you figure out something that works and then teach someone else what has worked for you, and if they become better at it then so be it, and if you get drained that’s because you have trained and replaced yourself.
What the Main Problem Is …
The main problem is what team people are apart of and people on the outside trying to decipher which communications are being brought toward others, for that case it does not matter what I write online, I have good days and bad days in public, depending on my mental health sometimes I feel threatened by others and sometimes other feel threatened by my presence, that has nothing to do with having a record which no one knows anything about. And for whatever reasons I did not have money and got arrested is my own business not the business of others (2013, 3 drinks), for what reasons people were punished afterward, a bar was shut down. Discrimination comes in all shapes and forms, and its never by those who are threatened that get blamed for being scared of others, by what they hear or because of what they look like. Im not a dangerous person, I’m not a violent person, depending on who you grew up around, determines how people are toward you, growing up got along with everyone everyone nice to me, now however, whether or not I have a job seems to make no difference, people will always belittle who they think they are better than or by who appears as less than deserving of being put down in life, as deserved, that’s not how to treat people, and those who treat others poorly based upon how much confidence they have or based upon beauty should not be treated based upon beauty or physical standards of good health. We are all inspired by different things in life, and by different people, its usually by the good, we are influenced, and by the good we are changed, or try to better ourselves and those around us, sometimes people are credited for their wellness and ability to help others achieve the same wellness or better. When people are wrong they tend to come forward either emulating what it is that they have done wrong, or coming forward as though that has always been the case, not everyone communicates to one another [the same], and not everyone is friends, we were all brought up differently, and no one person is the same as another, nor should be treated as though like, as though inspired by or changing to be more like, what is defined as beauty thin and oval shaped head, if one looks that way it is because one has taken good care of themselves how they were able to achieve beauty in life. You should not treat people who are well as offenders by separating them from others to see if they are still beautiful on their own in order to identify them as the offender or not, one who is not beautiful alone would not be out on their own, able to look well from home to the bar, if they were the one in need of beauty or love, means that that person already has love at home, why they are well or feel well around others able to perform, and of intelligence. You should not treat people who are of intelligence as unintelligent based upon how they look or appear, and just because someone is closed off on their headphones not social or writing in their phone does not mean there is something wrong with them simply because they have not woken up to the depression or loss of light seen in others, that loss of light is not a product of the presence of someone who bears light, and one should not be discriminated based upon their intelligence as looking and speaking to others in public spaces, not all of us were gifted with confidence, some of us perform better around friends, some look better with boyfriends, and some look best on their own, just because someone does not have a boyfriend, does not mean that they should be treated as a reject or not capable of giving love and maintaining a relationship trash.
People on the Outside …
Generally people on the outside always want more and if they don’t get more from you or out of you think because its your fault or that you are defective or means something is wrong with you -that is a characteristic of someone lacking patience. You can give everything to someone, and still not be of value or appreciate overtime, this is not about anyone in particular, nor ever has been its about learning how to have faith and the appreciate what you do have in life. Its not worth it to share when one is not doing well, as treated as deserving of not being well, its people as attached who stay well, and its people who get thrown on the inside of anything that do not feel well. There’s no theory behind punishment, you either are doing well or not doing well, I can hear them saying now, yeah that’s what happened or yeah she deserved that or yeah that’s why she got punished, or it was for this or that or this or that, that’s not the solution. You either are good or bad, and depending upon the times and what you disclose about yourself, you add to your own stresses in life, the more you talk about the bad, the less the good shines, and the more you talk about the bad the more the good assumes that you are talking bad about them and then they put you down so that you look bad so they don’t look bad, public opinion when strong is not easily affected by rumors, this I have learned over the years, no one really cares what other people think, mostly about themselves and their own wellness in life, that’s a hard topic to preach, without changing the sick to well and making the well not feel special as they are not the only ones who are well but share wellness with others, to whom they don’t take a liking to, that’s an unwanted meeting of the minds, that’s not cancer, that’s just thinking someone is not well and putting them down so that others don’t think they are well so that they become a source of wellness to others, and someone who is not bad or not sick or not dying is treated as though they are until they believe it themselves.
When Life Gets Random …
There will be a lot of people attracted to you in life, mostly for your well being, not just being nice to you, but because there is something good about you, not necessarily lacking from their lives, but wanting to make you apart of theirs, you don’t have to be close to everyone, not even friends, but you can be nice to everyone and still get far in life. I’m one of those people who people open up to feel comfortable around, I get asked questions, and especially asked about myself, one should always feel comfortable talking about ones self especially in the positive. The more you have going for you in life, the better off you will feel, others may not always make you feel good about yourself, that’s a judgment call on your behalf, you cannot help everyone. You would think that with training, and positivity you would be resilient to all types of stressors in life, but that’s not the case, some people rub off on you, and if you surround yourself with the wrong types of people in life, then you may be changed by the wrong people in life, why its important to always keep to yourself, not be easily affected by others. Im not sure where I was going with this, getting lost … Don’t be easily offended by others when they want something from you in life that you are not able to provide or do not want to provide to them, you are in charge of your own well being, and if people start to not like you because you are not putting out or befriending others, well than that’s not your responsibility to correct the problems of others, especially not by bedding them or allowing them to bed you. Eventually you stop. There are some people in life who attract the well, usually people who don’t have many friends, to themselves, and work hard. That’s who I was, once you drink and do drugs you attract a different type of person, someone who takes risks in life and lives for the moment, don’t be one of them. If you are comfortable with who you are, you won’t change or let loose for anyone.
Looking Back …
Looking back I’m sure we wish we would have all handled things differently, now upon realizing how short life is, you’d think once you had kids you would realize the cycle of life, even those without kids come to this harsh realization that our time is limited on earth, be easy on yourself and others, always keep in mind that everyone is doing their best, always see the good in others. Some days likewise I wish I wrote less on Twitter and maintained a private life, living in the public eye is not always advantageous to your health, sure others get to know you better, but are you really better off? When your fears come out to play, what can you do to reduce your fears from taking hold of your positive outlook in life, everything is clear looking backward. Everyone makes mistakes in life, we trust the wrong people, we take risks, and most of all we learn from what has gone wrong in our lives in order to build a better life and future for ourselves. There were times when things did not make sense, and we were not put together, there will be times when you look back and wonder what you saw and why, and why others responded to you in a way different from your positive outlook, we were all brought up differently. My Father showed me a photo of the LA Times building, I had no idea that that happened. They have been though a lot, I’m sure most of us they have sheltered our generation from, I’m not sure how much computers helped to assemble to past, but I’m sure they’ve helped with presentation at the present. Just stay positive … You can only shelter others so long, before you yourself become sick, by what they have feared and by what you have feared, by the time you realize what it is that they are fearing they feel better, and at your own investigatory expense become ill, don’t let that happen. There will be people that believe in the present at peace with themselves and there will be people who are not at peace with the present and themselves, why they say do not let anyone affect you. Who is it that is around you that is happy with where they are now, and what can you do at the present to continue to make them happy, by that happiness spreads, not fears, and by that you become happy not sad, about your past, or the past as led by others, always seek to improve not get set behind.
People of Interest …
There will be some people in life who will not be of interest to you, not even show up on your radar, not know their names or faces, but they may know you, that’s what being a writer is about, not being known by face or name or attribute but known for your talents in life, your gifts not being known by face and name, that’s what lights up to the reader, having ones own sense of identity is called empowerment, taking away from a persons sense of self and identity is disempowerment. In order for the reader to feel better, they must remain separate from the writer, not feeling like apart of them has been taken away. Your fans are your friends, that is your support system, they are not friends in the sense that they follow you closely, worship you, or think highly of you necessarily, just that they appreciate that you exist, for some people that is good enough, type of support system, to whom does the benefit run and why. In any symbiotic relationship both the reader and the writer benefit from having known eachother. Its not that everything you know is influenced by one another, but whether everyone you know is influenced by one another, we all make fun of eachother for different reasons and mostly out of love do people insult or put you down thinking it will make you a better person, that is what makes them feel good to change you, for some that’s their source of empowerment, thinking they can fix you, its to their benefit to see change happen and when they feel responsible for those changes happening think that they are in control of what good stems from the good that is happening around you, for negative people that’s their sense of positivity, being controlling of others, that does not always work for everyone. Giving up in life is not the solution for happiness, you may lose motivation in life, and take different paths in life, but that does not always mean that you are in control or on the right path in life, sometimes we get led astray in life by what we think feels good or by what and whom makes us feel good, that doesn’t mean that we are good or that because we are good people try to control us, or try to make themselves feel better with us around, that’s called love whenever anyone takes you under their wing, that’s not control, and that’s not a matter of anyone negative trying to feel positive with you around, sometimes, its peoples job to care for others, not always out of good will, or sacrifice, but because they care, not all are gifted with the responsibility or ability to care well for others, themselves included. Why its important to never give up. Your motivations in life, should at some core responsibility be to benefit yourself, not to benefit others, and if you are being picked on when well, that’s because they think they deserve it, that’s not the CIA, its people who think that because they know you can control you and think that they know you better than you know yourself, don’t rebel you only end up hurting yourself, running away from people who think you are being problematic, or people who think they are better than you, trying to take your place in life, put you down, or treating you like you deserve it in life, that is punishment, not marriage or reunification with your ex for marriage or to have a child. -If I were married I would be living in Yorba Linda by now and have been married 2013, is when my ex was planning on buying me a ring, asked for a loan from his parents, that’s marriage. When you walk out on marriage to serve some higher purpose to stop something bad from happening, then you never come back from that purpose or cause, that’s when your purpose in life has changed, from loving one, to caring for all. You get two choices in life, to be monogamous, or to live forever from one heart to the next, staying strong on your own, that’s your choice whether or not to settle down, and if alone its your choice to be alone.
It Takes Time to Recover …
It takes time to recover, from any injury, pain, or punishment, life doesn’t happen overnight, and some injuries become permanent, if you don’t manage your health well, or by listening too much to others get sick, always follow your instincts, what feels right, and listen to your heart, know when to stop, and follow those feelings, when you do not feel safe, yes that means that something bad could happen to you, why its important to only do things that you like or enjoy doing, and when the timing is right do so, don’t get caught up worries about others too much, unless you are happy will you be able to make others happy in life. If people don’t know you well or think they know you they will test to see which stories about you are true based upon what you take personally, and then by how you respond, test to see if that is the truth of how things occurred, how you end up reliving your past, and then dug deeper into, when nothing makes sense that doesn’t mean that conversations are about you, it could just mean that people are at peace around you, unless you are at peace with yourself, will you be happy around others, in order to feel well you need not be special or better than others to achieve in life, just with a good sense of right and wrong, and doing the right thing, knowing when to let go and when not to go backwards, forwards is less than appreciative of those you forgive as when brought back into your present, lack of acceptance ensues, that is as though your newness belongs to someone who has just met you, those who love you will be accepting of your past and where you are headed for in the future, those are the ones at peace with you. Those who are not at peace with you, either (1) think that you are the problem (2) that your problems affect them (3) that you are apart of the problem (4) that by you being around them, you do not benefit the whole but need to be proven of value an asset that not being sure about you, that’s not loss of faith, that’s just not being treated how you think you should be treated. If you allow, people to think negatively of you then that’s how you will be treated based upon how you appear as confident or not put down, what others project toward you is always a manifestation of themselves, or their displeasure as expressed toward you with themselves. Don’t be easily affected by others, as when you respond to it, the only person you hurt is yourself. People will come into your life thinking you are something that you are not, allow people to pass judgment, they are only human, unless you are well people will not treat you as well, and unless you are high energy its hard for people to be open kind towards you as not wanting to be drained by someone deemed as ill, don’t be too nice to people who are mean to you, when one door closes another one opens, being on the street, voices and other conversations can be demeaning to realize that you are not well, don’t let yourself get bothered by the wellness of others, as directed toward you are not, you can always stay home and get well that usually turns your day around, everything feeling well around you as rested.
Do What is Right …
Do what is right, not just what feels good. If you put yourself first before all important decisions are made, then words tend to fall in your favor. If you allow the negative repercussions of the expressions of others as about your life, from their point of view, then those are the parties affected by knowing you and then expressing to others how they feel, when you are good those expressions are tolerable, when you are bad, those expressions may not always be in your favor, tolerable. Never make other people look bad in order to make yourself feel good, that’s not the solution. How is writing made, based upon our own thoughts, not by exposures, are thoughts had and made, based upon your education and upbringing, some people write about others and some people write about themselves, and if mentioned, it should always be out of importance, not to make other people look bad, if you are in general a good person, then anything attached to you appears well, no matter how hard the story is to tell, and others will be appreciative of you voicing those matters from your own perspective helpful to others, about what you have been through and what you are doing with your life now to become a better person. When things are not clear its easy for others to make impressions upon you try to influence you or change you, do not be affected by others, know yourself, and don’t be easily persuaded by others to change what you know best about yourself and others. Its easy to take a negative spin on events, and further justify those happenings as based upon a negative premise or outlook, that’s not always the case, for some of us, were brought up differently, from neutral perspectives and live life fearlessly not in fear of others, that’s a gift. Once that gift is shared there is an exchange of safety needs met, to the reader to whom the gift is given to, and the writer is then put in the shoes of the outside perspective, however without safety needs met, that’s a natural cause for instability and one should not be judged in the negative for that loss of stability resulting from the sharing of ones thoughts, not thoughts about others, but thoughts as coming from oneself, that’s how good writing is made, and positive outlook achieved, when the reader gifts back a condition of value, that is positive outlook of the writer.
Just to Clarify a Few Things …
For those of you disappointed who think that life should be better than it is and no happy even in times of peace, learn to be open to the fact that not all circumstances resulting in a person’s life are due to caused conditions purposeful, sometimes life has it so, that we react and respond, as to what we think is happening before it actually happens, and if you think something is happening then that’s how it actually turns out that way, you have to not only have positive life forces in your life, but not be attached to persons places of things that bring you down in life, that’s not how mental illness occurs, its when physically exhausted a set of circumstances come about when we are unable to read our surroundings, that not paranoia, that not being able to feel comfortable, that’s not as a result of being harmed to make others feel better, to see who benefits from knowing something is occurring without a person knowing, that’s not empowerment, that results in a person not feeling well and not knowing why someone is not feeling well, to then test for causes or create conditions in which a persons abilities are weakened or further exacerbated put at risk of harm, well how does that then empower anyone to have control over what is said to whom and why and how well received they are by others, how one communicates is much to do with how a person appears and looks, do not give up on others, alter their conditions or intelligences or appearances to say well they have had enough and don’t see the possibility for positive change in a person or believe in them and put them further down in life. Give people time to mourn, and remember those who have fallen, we are all not strong enough to be resilient to societal pressures and pressures to believe and think a certain way to always react and respond in the positive, especially when we feel like love is being taken away, if one thinks a person is trying to take love away from someone who does not have love, well then how a person responds shows not only how desperate they are for love or dependent but how scare a resource is having a confidant or trusted entity, the world is small, and relationships are built over time, you cannot just replace people, especially not justify replacements by causing illnesses to others, by changing conditions and due to lack of ability to adapt get sick, and then continue to alter them to better themselves at the expense of someone blindsighted getting hurt not yet able to see past what is now, or not fully understanding the big picture of what is going on, or how a person has been harmed, its never justified whenever any wrong occurs, and people are not meant to punish people, that is the responsibility of the government to resolve conflict, not for people to resolve their issues with people, by creating punishments for them, or causing them to loosen up, lose their wits about them, and see how they crumble or fall, whether they respond the same in illness, or able to be resilient to pressures outside of themselves and stay well, people become ill for different reasons, if we all do our best to help and support one another, then there is no reason for people to become ill or sick, and give up in life, or continue to be hospitalized made tired, or unable to see whats going on around them as directed toward them for being at fault, from what point does the sun rise and set and when is earth happy with the wellness of others, who then is responsible for whats going on in the environment around them the people in it, or the people around them, and for what reasons, are people excluded from the betterment of society, and put further down in life, to not be able to support themselves reach independence and earn a wage in life, some of us take time to work on ourselves, for some this takes longer to get ones strength and confidence back, its not always by talking or posture that dictates what has occurred in a persons life to make them that way whether deserved or not. Be caring toward others, and be loving toward those who need it, its not always necessary to pick apart a person who is not in need, and try to change someone who does not need help, that’s how people get sick sometimes, when help is unnecessary. What industries thrive and what industries fall, and where do the well work, the well work in places where help is needed, and based upon their own foundations of thought and best decision making skills are then able to work and perform under pressures, not be easily affected by others, trust that those who are professional always have the best interests of others at heart, and always see the good in others.
What Happens When You Abandon Your Companion …
If you butter someone up, you are responsible for taking care of them, because you have lifted them, it is you they will return to if they are in need of support. During times of need you may feel independent of others strong, its usually then that you are needed, often times needing to set aside your own needs to reply or talk to others and connect, people will not always tell you what you want to hear, but learn how to be in control of the conversation not get put down or allow others to be put down by others, the heart is a sensitive machine, and often times needs much reinforcement as it needs to be expressed through communications, its not always by your tone that a message is delivered, sometimes from within things comes about and sometimes forces outside of us, present themselves within us, you won’t like all the voices you hear in life, not all will be kind to you, and when the times are good usually when you get pushed to your limits in life to see what you are like, how strong you are, how resilient you are to stress and opinions held by others, and how well you are able to perform under the pressure of negative opinion, especially be kind to those who have supported you your whole life, do not make light of their experiences or hardships in life, decision making skills, we all vent differently, tantrumming is never to solution to be looking at as someone that can be relied upon, usually stable people are the most trusted people, and those not in control of their emotions, set aside as best opinion shared for making important decisions as to how to accept others, acquire viewpoints, adhere to values that build toward positive purposes in life, and steer clear of those bearing negative outlooks based upon their own wrongs in life. Never punish yourself for not living up to your potential or not becoming the person you thought you were, not everyone was made to be great, and sometimes no matter how hard you study you will not become smart and a 152 is the best score you can get on a practice LSAT after taking the test 3 times starting with a 143 at Princeton Review. If you can’t make it in life, there is always a place you can find to grow at your own pace to be at an acceptable speed maturation wise to be given respect or take on caretaking positions, getting in touch with your inner child is not the best avenue toward becoming a mature adult, its when our defenses down and our humor is up that we stunt our growth and the growth of others, to build a smarter understanding of now, what has past and see yourself in the future based upon where you are now, knowing your options in life, by the goals you set for yourself presently -by this understanding of self-growth you are either happy with yourself or find yourself dissatisfied, as you were in relationships on in public spaces, to freely emotional, or too freely expressing how you feel by looking on the outside as unkempt as you feel on the inside, we are at our best when everything is in order, organization comes to those who stay well, and keep up with tasks, not by those who fall behind, you are a sum of the parts of effort you put toward achieving goals in life, the more organized you are about your goals in life, the more organized your life will be, and the more organized you will appear to others, that’s maturity, not dependence on others to be put together, and not dependence on substances to feel good, when all is lost no medication or drug or alcohol in your system can make you feel better about yourself, if it is you that you are unhappy with, no matter what rejections you face in life, always live up to your full potential do not be the sum of the parts of life that have put you at your worst, allow others to dictate your best, or be driven by acceptance from others, for reassurances in life as to how well you are doing in life, you are bound to lose your sense of self to the benefit of the receiver of that need for affirmation, you know you best, others know you only by what you tell them, knowing that don’t set yourself up for disaster by forecasting your past to someone new in your life, to watch the past unfold again, as you were at your worst, be happy with where you are now, learn from your mistakes, and each day is a new day to begin again, start over.
Leaving the Past Behind …
There is a method to success, a measure of one’s ability to learn from their mistakes, become wiser decision makers in life, and enable themselves to achieve by moving forward with positive footing, that’s not smarts, that’s knowing when to let go, if your past is keeping you from achieving in life, you’ve taken the 4th step too far, punishing oneself, is considered self-harming, and forgiveness is a matter of recognizing what you have done well in life, and what you could have done a better job of in life, abstaining, that’s why people believe in preservation. If you get hurt looking for love, have no fear, love will always find you, and if you feel overwhelmed, chances are you will not match with those who similarly feel overwhelmed and best off finding companions in life, put together and achieved, including yourself. If for every decision you make, accept that in your past as doing what is in your best interest and in the best interests of others, not everyone will be happy with you, no separations in life are permanent, apart of you will always be in the lives of those you have come across in life, that’s called being human, friends, acquaintances, and professional contacts some get cut off from your life upon making new connections in life, and sometimes everyone stays in your life, and depending on how good of a person you are, you maintain those connections along the way in spite of your failures in life, forgiveness is returned to you, for not being well when you met those individuals in life who accepted you the way you were but not present enough to stay, bond, or maintain relationships at the time, that’s a product of alcohol and drug abuse, inability to connect well with others be present, those are tell tale signs you are off base with reality, not necessarily selfish, but not in tune with your environment, stuck on feelings and trying to cure feelings, instead of being a person in action living life, thinking about life too much, and then trying to self remedy what it is that is bothering you the past or broken relationships. The key to moving forward is not discussion of your past in terms of stories, remembering everything from your past is a virtue, if your memory is still in tact, if your memory is poor that simply reflects periods in time when you were not put together coherent, and stuck in the past or too invested in emotion based reasoning and determinations to think and react in terms of how you feel, that’s not using your smarts, when you get stuck on the inside of yourself, and out of touch with reality and whats around you including appreciating what you have in life, and what is before you, the years of your life to be lived, and the years of your life lived. People will remember you not by your past, alone, but by what you are doing now to better yourself, regardless of what rumors are going around about you and regardless of what predictions are made based upon what people know or think about your past as a predictive pattern bound to occur in the future if a set of circumstances exist matching a set of circumstances past to determine fault in the past and presently waiting for fault to be placed in the future to further justify treatment of you or further classify you among those who are not well or to be separated from society and others, as mentally ill or below the standard of wellness necessary to be apart of, that’s called being discriminated not just based upon how you look but how you appear and look when under the influence of any substance, based upon how you look is how you get judged in life as among or bearing resemblance to those who have harmed others is how you get punished in life, choose your associations wisely, and if you can always do your best to keep up with appearances, never changing for anyone, but only to become a better version of yourself, you can only take care of the sick for so long, until you yourself become sick, if you cannot take care of yourself well, then by all means take care of yourself first, its always by who is more put together that gets deemed as of value or the catch, and if you are not up to the standard of care required to be considered a catch or of value, then you will be treated as someone deserving of bearing qualities of illness or looks of those who have been devalued, as though deserved, no one deserves to be hurt, aging is a process, and if you take good care of yourself and others, we hope that punishment does not follow. When you start becoming selfish and only caring about yourself, be prepared to be questioned as though not for good reasons, time alone is taken to recharge, they always assume that if you are declared bad then it by being around others you look well or feel good, for those of us independent and who live alone, being alone is how energy is maintained and looks achieved, not changed by environmental factors, things you learn as you get older, why the sick stay home, the well work.
Being on Your Own Team in Life ….
Always be on your own team in life, people will judge you, your past, or decisions you have made in the past, or how you have lived your life, whether you deserve to be where you are now, and based upon your wellness as deserving or not to be connected to those who are well or have achieved in life. What we do in our spare time, or whatever amends we make among those we trust, just accept treatment of you as deserved, if you are intelligent enough to separate yourself from those who have caused you harm then the more power to you, always move forward in life. There will be moments when you feel like everyone is on your side, and moments when you wonder or think that others have turned on you, we cannot be well always and sometimes the work that we do does not make us feel well, that may be a product of needing more in life to achieve happiness (whats assumed) without taking into account a persons personal history and difficult times when one has not achieved well in life, or been able to stay well while achieving, that’s really no ones business to judge and if people cant have positive thoughts about you and only believe rumors, then that’s their way of not making you important in their lives, or not thinking of you as important or deserving in life of respect, or not thinking you are well enough to be supported by others, that doesn’t mean they are not on your team in life, they just think that their wellness is more important than their own, and think that because you make sense you should know better, or because they don’t make sense to you, but you accept them anyways, means that there must be something wrong with you because you don’t understand them, that’s people talking to subjects beyond or about themselves, which you either can or cannot relate to and if you cant relate then that doesn’t mean that there is something wrong with you, it just means that you don’t feel the same way.
I’m at work right now, everyone needs to settle down, not raise pressures. Its usually the case when I’m not stable, that something is not right, it happens sometimes, anxiety. Not a good time to get into details or argue with emotions and what anyone could’ve should’ve would’ve done if they were me, or were born privileged in life, probably not have taken risks in life, or put myself at risk of harm, or self-harm because I did not live up to expectations of me, worse off. That’s called embarrassment, when you are not proud of yourself, worry less what people think, own up to your addictions in life, sometimes what keeps you going in life, and what you think will make you or others feel better, is not right, or leaves you emptied handed, worse off. You live life as you go, if you empathize articulate that, if you feel threatened articulate that, but its wrong to blame people who try to help you, if you are in a better place now, means you got helped, whether you recognize what you were doing was wrong, or at the time, were wronged, its never justified to let loose, and trash yourself, everyones expected to do their best. Giving up is a sign of weakness, not a sign that you have been harmed or bullied. You can’t predict the future, and you can’t share your fears, to prevent things from happening, its best to avoid subjects, growing up, by not focusing on the problem, I was able to live off medication and without therapy, now dependent on meds and therapy to cope, don’t weaken your skill sets, trust your doctors, and share less, online is not a cordial friendly place with understanding and compassionate people, if you don’t have anything positive to share online, then that means you need to work on yourself, and build a life for yourself you’re proud off, not be less than.
About Being Careful ….
Usually when someone tells you to be careful its because they have either been through an experience in life, that upon recognition warn others of a condition occurring or to help not make happen a condition. Thats not by your cares in the world determined but by your focus. Whenever someone shares or opens up about themselves depending on what they share about themselves good and bad, they are judged and by those judgments treated, and based upon how they are treated either feel well or ill. That’s not to anyones fault but the person who shares, always be appropriate and use your common sense when sharing about yourself, if you want to be treated differently in life, then focusing on the bad will not get you there. If its a new life you want or to make better an existing life, then what can you focus on presently to get you to where you want to be in life, the more dirt you discuss about yourself, wondering if as interpreted could be used as dirt to put you down in life, then some things need no mention, and not in defense of oneself, share and explain what happened and how things look. When you share about yourself in a way that makes you look like you got in to trouble by your own faults in life, then thats how others will lose empathy for you, and their feelings toward you lack of empathy for you not feeling well, is not their responsibility to help or care for you, if you cannot care well for yourself, and make good decisions moving forward. Life works on momentum, positive momentum, you have good moments in life to enjoy, and there are moments, where you may not feel well that day or at that time, but that doesn’t mean that things can’t turn around for you in life, you are always in control of how you react and respond, and giving up on doing your best, is never a good option to take in life, nor is helping others when you yourself are not strong, or when you yourself, are faced with a new adversity, when your good character is called into question, as sincere enough to be left alone, or for an alterior motive, not from a balanced viewpoint. I think to make all things simple, attending law school was a great challenge in life, but politically seemed to be unsound, its for what purpose at the beginning people seek to achieve a good purpose in life, and how that purpose is changed based upon where they are now, does that reflect accurately a job well done, or to be marked only by failures not by accomplishments achieved during. Any accomplishment cannot be achieved by cutting corners or by getting help from others, its when we do things on our own, that we realize our potential, and when you defy those expectations are when as well you achieve beyond your minimum standard of wellness when you improve upon your best. If what people think comes true, then its you that allowed that viewpoint to be heard, as in rebellion act out in ways that justify that negative viewpoint of you, as not good enough, or not smart enough, or not pretty enough. Once all is said and done, upon reacting you are them measured by everything you say present as compared to your past, to deem whether you were better or as stated under the influence of substances that prevented one from achieving in life. You cannot blame others for your own misfortunes or lack of clarity, you build your own mindset in life, and focus points, thats for no one to judge, but its when you are affected by others easily, your focus gets weakened, not your mindset in question, but your abilities in life. Why well then, but not well now? As expected? Because of substance abuse? Is any skill set deserved, or are skill sets achieved based upon practice in a more disciplined arena? How do you measure someones abilities in life, by the meds they take, should they be judged or treated differently or the same? And when treated the same, or for whatever reasons not, is it because of the meds one is taking or because a negative judgement of them has been passed based upon what has been said, and that new viewpoint of them cannot be changed, whether one achieves well or becomes themselves again normal. How can you be yourself, if you are worried what someone else thinks or whether or for what reasons not accepting of you, because of your past, or because of the way you are right now, perceived as not well. Its usually at our best we fit in, anyone below the bare minimum of normalcy, usually gets looked at as though one does not see the big picture to which or whom wellness others feed off of. What makes people feel well, is to see people doing well in life, and when we don’t shine or do not receive attentions in life, thats no proper explanation for self-harm, if you take ownership of what has not gone right in your life, then no viewpoint of you past or present should determine your future, so long as you are accepting of yourself, no energy is required to be wasted by you in an effort to reach any standards of acceptance or wellness to feel achieved, but based upon your own happinesses in life, by what you have determine your satisfaction with your abilities now. What is a drug addict? How long does recovery take? And what causes people to turn to drugs and alcohol when things are not going right in their lives, does that really take you any place better? You would think that once a life is ruined, one would not make their lives worse, by doing exactly what they know has caused them problems in the past, relive those past failures, affected by becoming ill to, and not let the same things happen again in their lives, be the one who is wrong or made fun of, for allowing themselves to be harmed by others, look stupid. Forgiveness is key, first for yourself and well if they do not forgive you for your generosity and friendship, then by all means move forward in life, don’t solicit oneself as help help others, and then blame others who have been helped, when you yourself do not feel good or better, thats only sometimes the case that in helping others, one feels good in doing so, that would be a glamorous concept of advocacy.
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