Some people don’t deserve to hear the truth (especially people you don't know or who you are not close to, to put love into anything and given access to by someone who does not appreciate your hard work) don’t expect everyone to be on your side in life, some are not -interested in their own selfish endeavors to create circumstances to make you look or appear less than significant or stupid. Don't be so trusting. If you interpret everything as related to yourself, then youre not learning from the past, but applying the past to your present well being, those who are wisest learn from not only their own mistakes but the mistakes of others, and based upon those understandings build better understandings about others. That’s not how to interpret a finished product, although you may purchase finished products that were made for you, they were not literally made for you, I think that’s what they mean when they say don’t think youre gods gift assume that your life was created for you but that life itself your life should serve some greater purpose, that all things were not created for you, but that those things in your life are to help you live life with the intent that they were created for use by others, that’s judging a finished product as not created with a sense of causing harm to people, but created in the sense to help others identify or to help build a better understanding of life itself. Based upon my own experiences I have never assumed that any person has intended to harm me or that any finished products are about me with intent to cause harm to me or others around me who know me. Never assume that everything is about you, that’s bound to leave room for mental illness, and assumption that others have additional intent or continued motivations in life to justify those attacks to your good character, never assume that everyone has your best interests at heart but also be wary of your connections in life, they do matter, and how you represent yourself will dictate how others around you interpret your understanding of the bigger picture and whether things are about you or not. Be patient mostly with yourself, afterall its your responses to others that matter most.
For the most part, what is known about you online, is based upon what you share about yourself, don’t expect everyone to be able to put together bits and pieces about you online to see the bigger picture, if in short whats understood about you does not match up to what you want known about you, then by all means be defensive. The times are tough … “It’s a good illustration of an issue we have in society — which is that we no longer have control over what people can infer about us,”  Pictures, blog posts, and personal data is stored on your phone, but you don’t have to store that information online too. That’s the main point, there comes a stopping point to logging your daily activities, and that includes personal information shared about yourself online. How much of a timeline is necessary to be kept? What you keep to yourself, is your right to privacy, when you share too much information about yourself online, is how and when you run the risk of public scrutiny, that is what you become defensive to, ideas about you, the wrong ideas about you, or when people think they have you all figured out based upon what they read about you, to know what you think and based upon your thinking make deductions about you and or others, is the wrong way to pass judgment, one should always think for themselves not based upon the opinions of others think, but based upon a totality of circumstances see the bigger picture. Lifes much to do with acceptance, but those issues with regards to acceptance should not expand to all people if its only just a few people who do not approve of you, or your sense of being or dialogue online, make sense. That’s not the problem always, one should never assume for what reasons others speak or based upon how they respond, interpret them now, as though this is how they were then, if a negative reaction can be generated from them use that to their advantage to say from negative places one thinks and therefore because of that response should not be listened to, as not responding likely to negativity and an expectation of negative response needed to make them feel better about being negative toward you. ~You should be strong enough to know when to say no, when to tell yourself, youre not willing to share information about yourself if you will be viewed upon in the negative, that’s not your responsibility for people to come together in the sense of jokes about you, or on you, to make themselves feel better, that’s not your responsibility to enable others to harm you in that way, ostracize you because of what you share about yourself online, and then made to share about others online too, that’s an example of an unwanted interaction, those who wish to be included versus those who wish not to be included, everything occurs with permissions, permissions to be spoken to and/or about freed. – For the most part I represent myself, and in that capacity defensive always. Acceptance is key to building a better understanding of what lies within, not harm self or the reputation of others in the process of working or finding oneself, who bears that responsibility, me. Not to do or say anything that misrepresents ideas about self or others, as well as the ideas I support or groups.
Not everyone has the option to pick and choose their battles in life, some jobs get handed to you, and depending on how you see things, get led astray in life, fighting things that don’t matter or staying on the political wagon so to speak on picked for topics of discussion. If you reside on the side that is not for discussion, well then that’s a not a side spoken about. You can’t do one thing and say another, my biggest faux pas, for many years made no mention of where I stood on the subject. When you take a stand on a subject, that doesn’t mean “stand your ground” its not that aggressive a move in life, to take a position, if you take a position that doesn’t mean that you need to fight in fact fighting only makes things worse. Learn to go with the flow … that sounds like letting things happen and then responding, but in taking a stand against something you believe in you become apart of a greater whole of people who care, and by those cares, able to make a difference, not by fighting. When you believe in something you may not always sound politically correct in saying so, and so long as not for political reasons making a statement, then will not be interpreted as saying something for political purposes ie wins or gains, as though losses are paramount. In a perfect world we would pick things to care about that benefit us, but in todays world that may not always be the case, sometimes we are required to take on more than we can handle, and at any given period in time, and emotional stability, required to act in accordance to a set of standards in order to be of service. If you are not fit for helping others, that does not mean that you are mentally ill or that there is something wrong with you if you don’t take a position in public, that could be whats best for you, to not take sides in public, or to not support any causes publicly, one should not support in fun, but make general efforts to continue to help in ways that they can.
For awhile now I have been wanting to expand upon the "services" I provide to others in a more professional way, by writing articles, instead of just thought driven dialogue about my life, and what I see. I think its best to continue my education and work on my dissertation, while continuing appointments with Torah Bontrager, to learn the skills necessary to write articles, and perform well as a writing professional online. So lucky that she is willing to work with me, in spite of my mental health issues. On March 3rd I plan to attend a Panel in Santa Monica addressing Gun Violence Prevention. Although I have had my battles with mental health issues, I have always made it a point to stay involved no matter what my abilities are or no matter what state my mental health issues were in, it doesn’t hurt to be a good person, even if you don’t feel better in doing so, it matters more to care for your cares in the world than to not care at all and do nothing. So thankful to have been accepted to her writing program for #leverageyourstory … I think based upon my website stats and feedback from Instagram, that everyone is doing much better with some systems of support in place, in response or not in response to current troubles facing the times … never stop trying to do your best, and help others, that’s the main lesson … a little help goes a long way, to #stopcontroversy in its tracks. You can have friendships and alliances in life, that will be life long, and those life long connections hopefully in turn will lead to other helpful connections in life, this is one of them. (Update: Friend Request Accepted on Instagram).
Its easy to get caught up in the moment when we have our good wits about us, defensive to the displays made by others, as though we should be affected by how another person outside of ourselves responds to a group or audience, it may have nothing to do with you and everything to do with them, always take that into account. -I just had surgery on my right hand so will be in a cast for another few weeks and physical therapy. I think this injury represents not being able to handle the times and in response to my frustrations self-harmed, I just got a gym membership at Equinox with a kickboxing instructor, so far so good, minus the fractured hand. Where do ideas come from … our tone, who advises us, or do we falter most by the advice we give ourselves. When one way stops working think there can be better ways at finding resolve, especially when it comes to addiction and self-harm, you don’t always know best, best to seek professional help and guidance, not blame others for any self-inflicted injuries. ie Take your meds, plenty of them and get back on track not easily affected by voices.
If there is something unsettling about a person, do not review their records as doing things to prove cases or sides, or to demonstrate knowledge and with that knowledge respond to others to demonstrate a knowing of something and then doing something to further that awareness or a having of that knowledge. That does no one a good service in life but a disservice, to then as a guiding light or force, use that force or guiding light to shed negative light upon someone, as not with love, or with hate, or not with love, take good care of themselves, if there is no transmission or sharing of a person’s private spaces, then that is not with harm taken. -That is a negative judgment upon looking at someone you do not like, thinking they are a bad person based upon what they look like in the privacy of their own records, not with love reviewed, but with negative judgment, a lot of photos need to be taken to get a good photo, do not judge those who are experimental with themselves in private spaces, or judge them for how long it takes them to be put together and create a positive image of themselves, the time it takes to look well is different for everyone, and in so making others feel heard, that is to cause me to self-harm, a losing party to any discussions about, hurt my self-esteem, my image, my abilities, or my connections in life … that is to hurt my ability to move forward, attack my character. What you make reference to you become a product of, that illness, and in so sharing spread illness of thoughts about a person, me individually, to get others to think ill of me too. Be careful what you keep a record of ...
If you rise to the occasion enough times, eventually you get hurt trying, that’s called being taken off course in life. Sometimes when our defenses are down while helping others, its easy to become (1) exhausted, (2) wind up in the wrong place at the wrong time, and (3) self-harm. This occurs when you are no longer guided by self interest but affected by the interests of others. When people do not understand for what reasons your mental health issues arise from the tendency is to be defensive as toward you in that case proving them wrong does not work but does both sides a disservice making the side, to whom your wellness, appear bad or in the wrong for having reacted in defense to your wellness or sickness for that matter. Sometimes when you get taken off course in life, you have less time for self-reflection as you are acting in response to circumstances, without your defenses up, how one who while helping others gets harmed in the process of doing so. When your defenses are not up, and you are not sharp you are more likely to get hurt as minding your own business, whether its working, or in an existing relationship, affected by others who in turn affect those relationships existing. Its important to note for what reasons contacts are made, in efforts that support existing relationships or existing causes not for ones own benefit are connections made, at least in my case. Be careful not to assume that these things are done by the person who is harmed, sometimes things are done to people who get harmed, that’s the main objective is to make someone look bad, its for those reasons some people are harmed, to make them look bad to others or a “sell out.” What is a “sell out” someone who stops trying in life, for selfish reasons, seeks to not contribute positively to the purposes of others, and in trading sides for themselves gets deemed a “sell out” while working on themselves. Be careful not to physically exhaust yourself, for any causes in life, if you focus on the right things, doing what you do best, then its by your gifts in life that you can contribute best to the causes of others, without interfering with their abilities to support those to whom causes are created. Sometimes in life we switch teams, and that can be either because relationships have faltered, or because one another does not support the causes to whom the other supports, and by those differences, relationships cease. That is to both a benefit, sometimes for relationships to cease, that is so that both can thrive without the other. Whenever a relationship does not work out, be careful not to take into account, what is going on around a person and blame environmental factors for an individual’s illness, that can cause insult to the environment around a person, and instead they will blame the individual as being of illness, and do everything they can to prove that a person bearing illness is of illness unrelated to their environment, that can affect the care given to those not well.
By bringing up the past sometimes you ruin future opportunities for success, there is a difference between a recommendation and a mention. A recommendation is by someone who speaks positively of you, for a future connection to be made, whereas a mention by someone about someone from their past can be interpreted in the negative as toward you and make the mention appear better than. Especially when it comes to references, referencing your past … don’t be so defiant by mentions, or defensive as to others, chances are less is more, the more you talk about yourself in the past and the less you talk about what it is youre doing now, the more anxious you’ll be and the more likely your audience will be anxious, not knowing whether you are living in the past, or presently situated at peace with yourself and others, don’t be bitter toward your past or others, everyone deserves acceptance and an opportunity to move forward in life. Reading Option B I realized its more important to forgive oneself for expressions past then it is to talk about or later try to justify how you have expressed yourself, people are most forgiving when you are honest, and about yourself not about others. People mostly want to hear about you, when reading, not about you speaking positively about others at your own expense make yourself look bad, its no ones responsibility to by mention defend others from your past, if everyone loves you thinks highly of you then do your best to promote the same, by speaking highly of yourself, and thinking highly of yourself, not allow the worst to come to fruition, there are many friends to be made along the way in life … its up to you based upon how well you speak of yourself to make friends. If you are uncomfortable … chances are you’ll make others uncomfortable … know your matches in life, and always do your best to bring comfort when comfort is needed, and never hesitate to ask for help when help is needed, you cant get anywhere in life living in the past as blaming others for your problems … if its addiction then stop, if its self harm then stop, and if its procrastination then do what you need to do in order to keep moving forward in life … life is short, meant to be lived to the fullest and without regrets … don’t overfill your plate with more than you can handle in life and always be thankful.
Never become defensive to the displeasures of others, whenever something shocking occurs, which you then think are related to your own mental health issues, its important to discuss but not as related be blamed for influences to others or as influencing concepts that guide thought processes about, who is to blame, who is victim, and what is to blame is not for anyone on the outside of anything to judge, as a person who has been affected from within from outside circumstances and by default from my own responses in life to hardships, that is no ones fault, its difficult as a writer to provide constant reminders of my positions to not create teams in life which have much done a disservice to those listening, as the people to whom topics are addressed and applied to for insight, or for feedback, to then require those to whom are designated as “mentally ill” then expected to write to a standard that benefits all, benefiting all is difficult, there will always be sides, and the readers job is to not be judgmental toward others, as by reading, and my job as a writer is not to write about others only myself, that does me a disservice in life when I have to deal with beyond my own mental health issues in life, and its not helpful to make things about someone who suffers that would be unfair to do to finish someone off, as bad, or to further ruin their abilities to make progress in life as well and good. -This is not about not liking my situation in life and then drawing inference to the situations of others, and bring attentions to things that do not matter now have already been dealt with.
Its not that people choose to be apart sometimes they are kept apart and for whatever reasons, there will be lack of synergy, or compliance … that’s just how authority works sometimes we rebel from sources of support, and sometimes those sources of support do not listen. That has nothing to do with anyones intelligence, its just a matter of instinct, what is considered approved conduct, friendship, conversation, or cooperation … anything serious tends to heighten tensions, that goes for everything, not just within writing, or within interactions, or by talking to the police or FBI, that just a matter of paranoia or doing your due diligence, if you understood how much work was put into building a website of this importance to me in my life, to have a voice, and be able to write freely, then you would understand that it was done so, with blessings along the way, maybe not at the getgo, a purpose for attending, only to visit the court during a difficult time for everyone, I think some more affected than others, as time gathers and more and more people become affected it becomes more and more necessary to not only do something (sometimes not our places in life) but if well we can … if things are not going right for you in your life, and you change your course in life, that’s okay to, you can support causes, and then choose to focus on the basics again your lives, sometimes its necessary to highlight circumstances, sometimes highlighting problems can cause problems, I know this as through my own life talking myself through my problems, that if I state an issue it arises in my life, or if I advise myself of what not to do, eventually it just so happens to happen without any reminders, be careful like me not to self-sabatoge and scare new people away by over divulging too much information about yourself for clarity of the issues they are not under the same kinds of pressures as you are and so long as you are doing your job, you can expect they can do their job and treat you for your problems. Its been over a year home on 4 night meds everyday, I used to not be on any night meds throughout law school, this is new for me.
Comfort with Self ...
I think theres a high expectation of someone who is a writer online to be comfortable with themselves enough to speak, some are soft spoken, if not used to talking in a public environment, that’s your whole life not a public speaker, then its hard to start talking at any later point in time, just be respectful of people who CHOOSE to write instead of talk, that’s I MY choice. Someone who is comfortable with themselves does not necessarily mean that they are comfortable talking or comfortable with their bodies, just because someone is portrayed as something they they are not, does not mean at some later point in time that way with all, or give the same equitable treatment to all, as though that’s deserved given their standing as lesser than. Don’t portray yourself as something you are not, that is what is to be learned of all of this, and then be treated as something you are not. My best friend accepted my friend request a few days ago, please leave her out of things, and not as meeting me tell your story as though I am someone special or someone who as known, have been affected by, live your lives as separate from my stories or how I have managed my life, my heart, my intuitions, and my thoughts, just because a different set of reactions occurs within you upon reading my writing does not mean that my body works the same way, just as no mind works the same way, everyone is different, you cannot treat all people the same, that doesn’t mean that they require special treatment it just means that as they are they are different, no one is made special by knowing someone special, if you want to feel special do well in life, no one can change they way you interpret life, just as I cannot change the interpretations of others about my life or things that I say as misunderstood, care rescinded, or to justify a past rescission of care, if upon being left to your own devices in life, are not as strong, then its important not to blame others, who as described or felt they have been described justify treatment of you as though you are an outter of special interests or BY misinterpretation MISREPRESENT others or YOURSELF. -Represent yourselves in life.
Whenever you build a trusted brand, its fundamental concepts must be sound, and counterproductive to things that are considered untrustworthy activities. This I learned through experience, with defamation, first hand knowledge, its trusting the opinions of others, is when I find trouble. -In order to bear a trusted opinion, one must be educated, it is not by association or connection, that one is trusted, why I built a brand with a pseudo-name mymollydoll unattached to anyone previously, or by prior association connected back to me. -When moving forward, the brands in existence for the longest tend to be the most trusted brands, how a brand is built, and how a brand is trusted, it takes many years to achieve trust. (02-07-19) Without SCOTUS I would not have build a company tried hard, and without their attentions, I would have not been able to help others, that’s trusting them. And with that trust trust is built, and from those foundations … people feel safe + smart.
Once trust is broken, by situating any confident or competitor worse off, you end up on your own, why they say “its lonely at the top.” I’m sorry if any past post portrayed anyone in the negative as not smart or not all knowing, naieve, or too responsive, or assuming the purposes for responses, I do not know everything myself. -There are periods when you make decisions in life or say things, that will not be in tune with everyones best interests, make sure those are not for selfish reasons decisions are made, and whenever a decision is made, make sure its with a good heart, meaning something positive is to become of that decision later on, that’s seeing the positive in decisions made, and when you accept your circumstances and live up to your potential well then that makes everyone look good, including yourself, and that’s not something you should not feel good about everyone deserves to feel good, even if at your expense along the way to achieving well, how quickly people forget the bad times, when replaced by better times, that’s one solution … to improve upon what is here, and do your best with what you have, and sometimes there will be people who will benefit from your wellness and that’s okay.
The resentments we harbor are usually due to some expectation that something needs be said to keep something from occurring we think necessary to keep something past from happening or something responsible connected past that is reason for something occurring usually a delusional connection. (02-07-19) You have one of two options, to share or not to share, to share what you have shared, or to not share what you have shared, to discuss what you have shared then as compared to now, and why what you have to share now is different but unrelated to what you have shared then, who’s fault is that … whenever you blame any one person or group of people for a system of sharing created to protect the best interests of those who are well, the ONLY way those interests will not be protected is if they have done something wrong then they will be corrected, at that point forward that person is no longer helped, but frowned upon and looked at with purposes for dissecting toward negatives, not helping a person get strong or achieve better in life, but seeks to worsen their core sense of selves to decipher what they are responsible for … that’s a system that relies on honesty, and if honest, and if one cannot determine the faults of others on their own, they should not extort from the good the wrongs of others or of themselves in order to make perfect their minds about whats gone wrong. [removed]
Its important when working cross professionally not to cross talk, as recommended by AA, just like any therapeutic setting as individually intimidated by others, this can affect output, that may be what competition is all about, input and output and trying to control others, through their speech, and affect their native tongue. Do not interfere with peoples abilities to communicate, and some may be more blind than others, encouraging of defaults in life, and less encouraging of defaults in life, never assume that someone is to blame for their conditions in life, and predispose them to abuse or discrimination based upon those rejections in life, be denounced, or treated as less than feminine or less than female, do not put in the new stories about people … as about others, as named differently … that would be to tell another story, as about, if you know who is who, don’t then go on to say that I am not one of them a victim … just like the news so are characters NOT based upon people not a party to a story … that’s not the same as using the real lives of people to share a story or to tell a story, by using characters with the permission of others to be used or mimic’d, for what purposes do people live their lives … for others, not living for people they do not know, maybe living off people they do not know, who earn income from fanship … but I know my family … how do others know my family as told through cartoons or film or music … that’s not how entertainment works, entertainment is about entertainment, and real life is about who is around you, not go by what is said about you through entertainment, that would be wrong to assume likeness, that in the past entertainment was used to tell my story or stories around me. Each story is to its own meritors, and by its own bureaucracies determined outcomes as to who is merited for those judgments, story lines, and predicators of the future upon which stories may be built or based on an even playing field, that is entertainment, real life however does not work like stories, from which prior to knowing how life was interpreted by others by use of film and music and television, is how people were being judged as not clean enough, and because not looking clean enough needing to clean up their image, and that that necessitated being hard on people, thinking they had an opportunity if found out about to later clean up their image, once you ruin someone, before they understand the beginning of time, then if they mess up in life, and they were hurt before they messed up and hospitalized do not punished them for getting sick, when they later get well, to see them get sick again, if not for the same reasons sick the first time, that’s outing a system of judgement, that needed not be made public, if possible to later use, characters in entertainment, and not limit those usages, based upon how they have applied and gone wrong, or caused illness in real life to people whether or not they were based upon people in real life or used as comparison to people in real life.
What you know is important, to disclosures. That is what is sought, is information unknown to others, but known to you, that is how one is interrogated, by information known now known. Usually people with information are known to others, and people who suspect information is known, interrogate those people. What information is known, is what is presently thought in possession, but not had, and upon such bases, a decision is made as to the outlook and conduct of an individual who has not relapsed and is sober, for which others are now defensive to. Do not suspect or interrogate those who are innocent, it is by your own misconducts, that innocence is lost, not by one you deem relevant judged as an offender for decisions past or present. Be careful not to intimidate people with your knowledge or think present circumstances non-existing that’s called delusion. Delusion is not a punishable offense in this Country, but theft is. Do not steal from others, do not steal the identities of others, and do not erase anything. That is considered the highest offense. What is not yours cannot be taken by anyone, I am not a dependent, I am an ABA Certified Paralegal, I never play victim. How one communicates is important, what you connect is what you deem relevant. I am not connected to anyone, and I have no associations, I'm very professional. I am like minded in the realm of public safety, and mental health concerns. Be careful of overzealous prosecution of innocent people, that leads to unrealized hardships, and does not cause one to commit crimes, but report crimes upon them. Distrust following statements of “noted for her honesty” does not make sense. Be very careful with your words towards others, not be offensive toward anyone, who you deem as not good enough or replaceable. Do not judge people for their character, or for their decisions or choices made, they are not your own. Always be yourself.
Being a positive influence requires knowledge of the appropriate settings for putting positives into motion. This requires tact. Not just responsibility to care for oneself and others, but for ability to respond under pressure, in the right, and correct wrongs as you go, that’s how you become a base station and a point of reference for assistance while in a state of trauma, trauma occurs when you are not in the know and something happens, so long as we are all in the know, nothing can happen by surprise anymore to us, that is my sole mission, to help others stay in the know and positive, so that they can react in a way that supports positive functioning not dysfunction. I grew up with ADD/ADHD, if I sound immature to you I’m sorry but this is the way I write and this is the way I sound, and this is how I react, always with assurances and always with positivity, I was raised to always see the good in others, and with that viewpoint, I have been able to achieve in life, not live in fear. Living in fear occurs when you see negatively, and see the negatives, by over focusing on negatives, that is how one becomes concerned with others, it is never your responsibility to care for others, unless you are a professional and certified by state law, Colorado State Law, I am a Certified Crisis Hotline Counselor. And with that responsibility it is my job to make productive the times in trauma, that’s how I help others. By not mentioning the negatives and not corresponding with negatives that is how we can best deter crime and stop crime, that is my theory that is my belief, in response to the times. The more ads you place above the more ads you get back. That is a given President Barack Obama put so many ads up in the Press Secretary’s room I had to respond to that crisis and put an ad up on my blog, which ended up getting taken down for a period in time by a court order Texas, we are sorry you lost your homes, because of a lawsuit, I got sued and put in jail and in the psych ward because I hit my head because I relapsed on cocaine and Leo died of Cancer. That is why sometimes, whether or not you agree, you should just ignore or block people from the reality of your situation, so things don’t become an unnecessary situation, where others live in fear, because one is not liked is no big deal, its just a consequence of someone being put in jail for no reason, a prisoner of war, until everything resolves itself, I came up with the solution: #bloggingcampaign. It is still in its developmental stages World Peace as we all adjust and respond by words or actions, this takes time says The Academy Awards, who are experts in World History, I am not a Historian I’m just a writer, and reader of what is assigned to me. I would never hurt anyone with my blogs or threaten anyone with my blogs because that is why I committed suicide because a Lawyer in the Valley threatened my Family to speak (2008) I read that blog on Google and committed suicide (2009) after joining the US Navy. Why a cruiseliner sunk, because of Petrocelli, it “hit a rock” and then Barack made the #MLKMemorial, I mean I’m not sure what he is trying to communicate, but I think we should all trust one another, and not cross lines, burn bridges, or place blame, if you have questions attack me that’s what I’m here for like a Juke Box EMLK for everyone!
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The stopping point is not your intuitions it’s the intuitions of others trying to control your intuitions, that’s others thinking that they know better than you and that because by what they know in life, think that they know best … that’s by their guided intuition, how they see fit, not with your best interests in mind always but their own, be weary of that. Don’t be egotistical about image that’s the main lesson, whats life about … what people think or what you think people are thinking about you or others, that’s the problem, not having a shared understanding, and thinking that everything is purposeful or planned, be understanding of the intentions of others and best intuitions, especially if it does not involve you. Unless you make something about you will it become about you and that’s how you give your power away in life, or call upon others, to do so for you, that’s whether in your best interests is up to you to decide, for yourself, when your interests have been met, that’s your right to privacy, no shared interests should require a meeting of the minds, or cohorts, or likeness in candor gesture or demeanor to be understood as together for one idea to take place, that’s not a shared understanding, but an understanding changed to meet the needs of someone else, who personally feels affected and not be understanding of someone who is not intending to personally affect another, whats this about “tardiness” “broken hand” and “#SOTU” all in attendance say “I.” I think unless you make yourself of subject will you become of subject and then people will take it upon themselves to correct the thinking about the subject to an acceptable wrong or right that either favors their interests or does they or others a disservice, people have their own set of ideas in life about others, and those ideas about others will not change unless called upon for correcting … be weary there are two sides to every puzzle and a broken bone in my hand, that now requires surgery and anesthesia, that needs PCP approval. -Therefore do not take personally that I am friendly and do not take personally that I do not make eye contact and do not take personally that I have difficulty in public settings and do not take personally that I am intimidated by others and do not take personally that I stare at the ground and do not take personally my health, and do not take personally that my health does not change by you, and do not take personally if I become sick, and do not take personally if I am well, and do not take personally if my face changes, and do not take personally if I get thin, and do not take personally if I gain weight.
Privacy is so important to any conversation … sometimes what makes you smile can come across as obnoxious as told by others, maintain steady ground always in the acceptance department … don’t be too hard on yourself … not everyone is reading, you can’t control people or their commentary or their thoughts. To be stable minded you have to think from within … not as in response to others … when everyone looks innocent its probably because they are and just minding their own business, it’s a lifestyle choice to not do well in life … not because of discrimination or victimization or whatever you think is the problem its probably more to do with you than others … let the innocent shine and be good to yourself in order to receive praise from others and feel apart of … it wont always be the case that youll shine and it wont always be the case that youll stand out youll have your good and bad days the most important thing for anyone to do is blend in not because you have angst or discomfort but because you genuinely want to not offend others, by your attitudes in life and genuinely not offend others by your discomforts in life, you cant keep your head down through all of life sometimes you have to look up. -I have attachments in life but not to people, to things, call that addiction, while separated from my computer in the shop fractured my hand … that’s a loss of control to a space I find comfort in … my computer. Don’t go bizerk because you have experienced a financial loss or a property loss, it happens to those who are not well me included, its not the responsibility of others to manage what is of value to me, only my responsibility not to complain upon such losses, or for things that I say out of tune. If people know your story or know about you they will test to see if you are that way and in doing so … hurt your esteems by making you look stupid or out of control and feel out of sorts, don’t be nice to people one day and gone the next and hope that everyone understands when that happens to people its not because of drugs or alcohol but because their mind is someplace else, why its important to focus on things that don’t change in life, as well as accept the changes that go on around you … you are only human, all humans age, aging is a process and so is trust.
02-04-19 (4-4) Not everyone will be on your side in life, and some will turn on you assuming you bear guilt, and from that belief seek to make others think that you are for the actions taken by others, as assumed everything is connected to you and therefore about you, as though your actions … have led to symbols posted in reference to you or your connections in life or by story to whom these individuals were connected to, those connections must be known in order for those thoughts to process, looking back it may have been best not to mention stories from my life, or help the courts in identifying problems, existing within me, and now being treated symbolically as everything is about me, that’s wrong to do, as for solution … blame any one person or group of people for all events that follow a trip to DC. I am now sharing my side of the story which you can either accept or reject based upon your beliefs before hearing from me … some are no longer with us today to witness the growth people have made, and as a result, I was further pushed until I am no longer respected devalued, and rejected as not well. That’s wrong to do to someone who is well spoken and gifted in writing, to be treated as though purposefully ill or mentally ill on ones own merits, sometimes its under many conditions that one becomes sick with pressure or sick with expectations of them, or in need of help.
Why keep conversations brief … is that a reflection of ones ability to listen well, or to maintain brevity at the expense of hurting the feelings to whom another confides in, what is proper timing and tone. When does professionalism stop, when more listening is needed and when support is heeded for. That’s usually a proper time to listen more and talk less, encourage the sharing of feelings, and discourage the direction of conversation or one anothers thoughts or output. Why during times of turmoil are we expected to be brief with others, for what purpose does that serve and how is ones ability to speak briefly reflect upon their intelligence, ability to communicate consistently, not strongly, but clearly, not brief in the sense that one does not make sense, but brief in the sense that one is heard clearly. When you speak well not only are you representing yourself well but you as speaking are representing to those around you, messages you think appropriate be communicated, whether others are in acceptance of your communications, be sure to keep things clean, that’s well spoken, not to talk dirty to others or dirty about others in conversation or during conversations, heckle with the mind, or cause anyone to question themselves or their directions in life, be frowned upon, as not smart or intelligent for so choosing to whom communications are made, those purposes for communications as most communications are, private, that’s not to protect people from harm only, but also in addition to preserve the image of others as heard in more public settings, much like writing represents us best so do communications when outside of enclosed spaces longer than as interpreted shorter communications understood … without experience just by looking at things, short conversations don’t say enough about people, than their work speaks for them, and much like writing, speaking is much different in tone. Researched work goes the same, what is researched and written about may make a person sound smarter, smarter than you think they are, then tested for clarity or ability as judged based upon their ability to speak, do not become defensive to what people think about your writing or how you sound or speak … everyone has the same problems, sometimes brief sometimes well spoken clear its all a matter of comfort, and when in the comfort of others, or in private spaces, don’t get too comfortable upset or by sharing divulge too much information about yourself for acceptance that makes you look worse than it makes you look better to explain yourself for acceptance or to explain your past for acceptance.