Don't blame Exes for your hardships you are always a product of your own mistakes in life not the responsibility of others to resolve your issues or take blame for your misfortunes misfortune can only occur by your bad decisions in life send you backwards in life that's how one becomes ill by regrets or mistakes in life why ones can't achieve who try to perfect selves when wrong off-beat non-acceptance is always if applicable noticed the barrier to one's successes in life not others approval or disapproval #noticethat #mymollydollblog appreciate who's in your life otherwise they'll leave your life too. #becareful.
To: (A) (Friend) I'm okay a bit of a chaos right now in my mind myself not perfect I try my best but not happy with myself right now not about anything I do feels like it's never enough but just need to be patient with myself and keep doing my best not go backwards in life.
To: (B) Wait but don't drain yourself caring for love it's not important just icing on the cake sex is stupid love you you're more important to me worth the wait I'm sorry I gave in too much to sin. Hope you'll love me anyways.
Otherwise blame gets placed on those around you bear your own shoulders in life in times of need not bear the issues of others.
Insult is a product of dissatisfaction with others stay up to get what you want attract goods in life.
Be good stay calm don't direct anger toward me I'm not the cause of your unhappinesses unless you allow me to hurt you let self be vulnerable to my needs always do you first let go xo
Sorry love you xo not try to fix the past for anyone's future is mental illness to go backwards it hurts me or others to revisit issues draining apathy. #mymollydollblog #mymollydolltext
Once someone doesn't feel good ie me nothing I say makes others feel good or makes sense gets ignored as not important or paramount to the best interests of others to listen to those who are sick or not well. #mymollydollblog
Be more like yourself not as others see or say you are how you become something you're not self-title yourself by positive affirmations to make well self when not well or strong. #mymollydollblog 🏇
Don't rub your faces in the faces of others to make well be well on your own should not have to prove your well to be happy worry what others think of you well or not always be kind to yourself + others. #mymollydollblog
What you post gets connected to you. Be careful what you assemble relate to what your matters are should not be professional matters your personal matters kept separate. #mymollydollblog guilty looks indifferent toward. Recipe for care is #helpall.
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You are who you identify w/#likeall before you are able to love, love others, not yourself to excel in life you have to be outside of yourself to see well not be misguided it's trusted who hurts the entrusted if you can't see well that means there's something not right around you so you have to change paths keep a log of your activities to notice subtle changes within yourself how to better assess your strengths don't focus on the weaknesses of others that makes you feel negative sends you on a negative tangent toward self hate or hold disgust for others #acceptall by your own positive thoughts is how you move forward. #mymollydollblog mymollydoll.com 😇 #letgo
Follow your every move not the moves of others to see forward how you get lost let down others you have to let go #moveon not to better just to well enough to live life on your own terms set by you how to be get well. 😇 #mymollydollblog 💕 #stopyourself you can't hide your errors. #livewithyourmistakes love yourself anyways blame no one for #selfharm. That's on you to #fixyourself.
Don't over sail over your errors in life that's not how to better self get better to have to regress go backwards to fix yourself. #mymollydollblog that's how to mature again. After you get put down, realize your worth again. You can't keep revisiting your problems. 😇
There's no method to #love you are either liked or not #moveon don't get too close to people who cannot be trusted how you get hurt set up for failure misused abused hurt. #mymollydollblog love yourself enough to quit when love is lost don't replace others allow the dust to settle give people time to heal that's not the recipe for wellness, others. Focus on yourself.
Make life about you to live life not about others don't be about others who are not well that's how you don't feel good trying to be like always be yourself admire others root them on but don't interfere w/abilities it decreases your ability to achieve + succeed in life. #mymollydollblog There's no rush to #success.
Listen to whatever helps you focus don't overstimulate yourselves that how you get tired. Don't burn out, focus on staying well. #mymollydolladvice
Love makes you high use that energy wisely don't give your hyper away it lets you down hold in your light don't trust another w/your light, or else they think you have no light. #CHP Always give light away freely. If you're bad you're light goes out God telling you to stay calm rest your light is dictated by who you are around let's you know how to be #trustothers and listen well to stay safe on time. #mymollydoll 🚑
Here for you guys an unnecessary cause to speak to (sometimes) but best spoken by those who it matters to to be heard from within are to be cared for listened to how to help well stay well and get well from within is all that matters, it's not about trust but about helping others calm down enough to realize who's important what matters ... Things? People? Lives? Future? What about now. Now needs to be okay. #feelbetter #getwellsoon Sincerely, #lesliefischman #mymollydollblog ⚓️ Let them know but don't care for others when not well you matter most, the not well.
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Do you do as your told to build trust that's not the best avenue. Be led by your fears? Wrong direction also. Listen only to yourself, too much pressure within, listen to all -too many voices. What you hear should be yourself not others opinions of you like yourself enough not to read into others too much of you you should not be influenced easily by others repeat mistakes to be like that only hurts you moving forward not a good pathway to change to give in to hate toward you. #mymollydollblog #nevergivein #listenoften but not as directed if it makes you uncomfortable then do as you feel is right not give in to bad feelings how bad happens.
Don't repeat the mistakes of others to build or make a point. #truestoriesoffailures #goodluck < #hurt
Don't backwards punish yourself presently that doesn't help you move forward in life to take past beef and wear it forward live for the moment try to be new not repeat old patterns love yourself enough to let go of the past accept now and be accepting forgiving of others over the little things in life. #nobigdeal #mymollydollblog you get punished don't set yourself up for hurt anguish yourself if another is wrong toward you that makes worse things. Let go #ignorethem.
Support yourself needed support is bad leadership #WEAK skill set. mymollydoll.com no connections = (pure). Good must be plentiful otherwise a rotten egg in distaste causes disgust if imperfect not viable for the future of leadership then deemed not worthy of pay. Expectations are not good indicators of your best work if you're thinking about now you'll appreciate you if you think ahead devalued if insecure feel not able if you set your expectations too high of yourself not meet them. You'll let yourself or others down. #mymollydollblog lead yourself not others.
Don't push away to break up a roll because you fear bad when good. That's not how to self-help. That's how you're in the wrong when you run away from #love or #help. #mymollydoll likeness is wrong.
When you explain something after its happened that's forced explanation to credit discredit you make you look stupid by issue pulling objectives from your current pleasantries to send you back to Hell.
In other words you've lost your angel wings - knocked down everywhere you go. #thatsokay
Once you become unhappy it sticks to you like a memory shadow glued to your back that hurts just ignore it try to recover think we'll about yourself and there's it takes time to heal. #mymollydollblog
Basically I made a bad decision caused embarrassment loss of trust that affected viewpoints I'm sorry of me not better but worse I need to realize myself known not keep knocking myself down to let others pass. #PresidentTrump #mymollydollblog #habit You deserve in life but never more than you.
Basically I made a bad decision caused embarrassment loss of trust that affected viewpoints Im sorry of me not better but worse I need to realize myself known not keep knocking myself down to let others pass. #PresidentTrump #mymollydollblog #Habit You deserve in life but never more than you.
Okay so poor timing for the I'm not gay #Tinder movement. If I barf that means not ready. That was a poor choice I'm sorry. #PresidentTrump that broke his heart ahead of time and as a result did not trust me hurt him. When you back out means #troubleahead. You stop trouble by being ahead.
By the time someone comes up don't punish them for something a long time ago accept them as they are new, improved better. 🌸 When you keep punishing a #good it hurts others makes not well onlookers to see inflicted pain and hardship on someone good who's eyes everyone's eyes a few eyes that don't like a person are not a majority but a minority of haters should not equate hate. #mymollydollblog
How can you take someone's personal issues personally if I don't even know you. #strangers Dear #PresidentTrump They blame their own thoughts toward me as bad I'm good enough. To each his own. I'm not responsible for the thoughts of others toward me. #whocares not my issue but theirs w/me.
Don't use beef to make new beef and say old beef existed #replies #PresidentTrump don't use beef to make beef and claim beef exists. #dontfight
Our designated problems are the business of #PresidentTrump
Group huddle. So what's next. #TrumpSupporters
Tired ... Resting in bed. Where you're wrong you hurt in the future in the same way you were wrong in the past you punish you revert to that feeling as corrected when wrong. Omissions are not admissions.
That's not how to fix disabled by making dirty or doing them dirty that just causes upheaval of interests non-existent you can't try to hurt someone on purpose that's wrong #bekind #mymollydollblog
Maybe you shouldn't share your likes or your hearts how they hurt you. #mymollydollblog be guarded always set boundaries keep your personal life to yourself otherwise they make dirt out of nothing to see if you make dirt. 🎶 Keep your mind clean.
If you face your fears you detect fears and then fears become you then people are scared of you because you look like fear. That's because you're afraid don't wear fears. Keep moving forward run away from fears. #mymollydollblog
If you focus on you where others are focused on you if others focus on you when you're focused you become de-focused focused on what's being focused on you or others - always focus on you otherwise you hear voices. That's how you unfocus attentions. #mymollydollblog (needs work*) #beyourself
You can write as you go in life but you can never predict the future by causing harm to those not deserving of hardship that does not stop pain from occurring present or not #staywell #nevergiveup #representyourselfwell mymollydoll.com
If you don't respect those who are well don't disrespect them when not well that's not the solution to cause pain to prove pain that's being a pain on purpose inflicting pain to justify causing pain to those you seem not deserving of respect that's unnecessary pain a grose overstep of boundaries to cause harm to someone harmless results in fighting unnecessary hardships on top of hardships causes a hard life difficulty functioning and achieving that's called disability an inflicted wound caused by someone well who thinks well is invincible or more able than they thought that causes disability when you mistreat someone inhumanely that's caused hardship not worthy of attention because it causes more pain to see overexpose pain causing agents to those in pain ie me #mymollydollblog that's overpowering a well person to cause disability to lift up what? That's called unjustified harm to someone innocent who is not of threat or harm to others only to themselves is a non-risk. Miscalculated risks cause hardships.
Step out stop right foot to the side - Somebody who already knows you has confidence when they see you. #BeHardtoKnow when they know you they do not fear you take you seriously #closetoheart takes things personally when not spoken to is not rejection or error but a made condition pulled away from others withdrawn is depression not lack of confidence compensating for another's depression lifting them can be depressing like an STD.
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Don’t fight in public or private to figure things out for yourself that’s not how to communicate wrongs when you’ve been done wrong or to correct a problem hurt others that does not stop crime to hurt good people or by attaching negatives to a positive to cause war or blame or hardship upon another thought not deserved of privileges in life or happiness.
War is selfish and does not equal world peace.
It takes awhile to be known for people to get to know you be patient if to be known God will have its way with us, and people get picked to represent us modified some don’t make it. Its about how you present yourself whether liked or not whether respected or not a trusted source worthy of time and attention. Worth hire is about when youre ready not about discrimination you have to fit the bill to get the job that’s how hiring practices work, whos well.
Its never right to hold down a victim that causes war let things go move on don’t hold people down in life. This causes hurt pain not regret pain. Note yourself not others.
[Its never right to attack anyone, and if necessary that bad gets attacked not the good in life, that’s how life works, to correct bad behaviors.] Attack bad people not good people, stay right, focus on you.
Polarize yourself to a positive -how your battery/heart works what youre drawn to not told to draw or be drawn to. To stuff that you like.
[Know where the good life is, at heart, its always achievable depending on your sight in life, not about whether or not you are known well-liked, be at peace on your own, without the help of others to achieve peace, you should be whole on your own. Sometimes you have to lay low in order to achieve peace, to get to the good life.]
Don’t teach lessons based upon your experiences to get others to see your viewpoint that’s manipulative to concern over concern yourself with the happenings in the lives of others or try to dictate their direction.
Be proud of who you are whether or not you are proud of someone else should not matter you should not treat people based on pride. Jealousy and envy [are indicative of] weak souls.
Youre personal life shares cause discomfort in others – causing them to lose confidence, how to behave [is a matter of what manifests itself inside of you.]
[Sometimes too much information is too much information about yourself, shared if it makes you uncomfortable to share something about yourself then don’t share it. What you hold on to in life are your personal regrets in life, things about you.] Listen well to those who are well, tip, to be mature.
Don’t compete with people compete with solids like books and work ethic.
Stop suicide, [its really stupid to hurt yourself over pain to cause yourself more pain, it only brings about more pain to deal with in the future a future regret, why you should accept yourself as you are, not go backwards on yourself, self-harm, move on in life. Reading helps you move forward, strengthens your sense of self and good character. How you achieve in life, based upon how much you consume, manifests itself inside of you, what you see, see better, know, think, achieve, or practice.]
Don’t be defensive over self or people or stuff only the deceased matter in times of need listen to them they wont hurt you. I committed suicide February 2009 because I saw war overseas and joined the #usnavy applied, but because on meds they couldn’t take me accept me because of adderrall.
Journal #4 Handwritten by Leslie A. Fischman
When you separate people it should be for good reason, when theres something off or painful that cant be reversed and two are turned off by the other not a healthy match communications wise. Hurts. Then two people need to be separated apart too much fighting early on is a sign of insecurity a deficiency to the bond not clicking.
Lying is never the solution to any problem it only causes paranoia and self-doubt isolates you weakens your ability to be present set aside your needs for others, into your own emotions. Why care for those who don’t care never cared. Only when well are we at peace when tired we may become ill when slow is not good enough.
You cant live your life disappointed with yourself. When conservative, never loosen up to adjust to others or overdo your mood to compensate for another emotion felt. You can’t reverse pain once you hurt someones feelings you cant turn around you either fix amend or you yourself change your outlook and accept be accepting of others. –When its too late independent people hurting one another. Theres a social problem, an attention problem.
What you say you will be reminded of –your mind recalls what you say when anything you say is off –anything off will cue you to an off feeling, and all off things recalled if said when on but not realizing off. That’s a later recollection looking back with judgment toward self –non-acceptance causes upset.
Anytime you experience slowness –that’s your body telling you you need to slow down process not where you should be in life because focus misdirected either by you or another purposefully or by accident to be sharp one must work hard to think clear that’s how to achieve a natural calm in chaos.
When you think things are about you –you are less likely to succeed in life, being self-conscious, not sure or embarrassed of yourself, not like yourself.
When things are not going right that’s not an opportunity to criticize who is doing well or not bothering anyone in life its by your own merits you succeed mature.
You cant worry about the past so much it only stifles you. Never go to war on yourself, unnecessary hardship due to self-harming behaviors –causes illness, you cannot afford to let down your guard –it injures your character and your ability to behave well. You cannot depend your present unhappinesses –to dictate future consequences –that’s you trying to control now to –predict the future –just accept what you know without trying to figure out your future. When well don’t hurt yourself.
You cant go through someone’s present to figure out their past –That’s not how to solve problems –but creates problems or hurdles for others because thought deserved. –You cannot predict the future but you can control how you see the past –always be positive.
You cant reflect well on yourself when you are preoccupied doing something else. Its difficult to speak when what gets communicated back is to spite you cause you pain, anguish, or hardship. That’s purposeful conduct to screw you over in life as though you think deserved. Don’t allow people to take miscommunications too far. That’s how you get hurt by what you focus on. Whos on whos team does not matter. How things look from the outside looking in are never clear to someone new unless studied in depth, an individual to cause harm thought deserved. Most people are concerned with themselves not others.
Relationship Woos -How to Keep Busy When in Love by Leslie A. Fischman #relationships #bonding #selfcare #awareness
Relationship Woos –How to Keep Busy When In Love by Leslie A. Fischman
It doesn’t matter so much what your needs are when it comes to caring for another person, that’s a given. If you put yourself first before the one you love, then you care for them, if you put them before your own needs then you care for them, also. That’s how to properly care for others, taking good care of yourself, while caring for others, otherwise people don’t care about you. How you behave is a manifestation of what you feel when you are around others, its basically how you feel about yourself, usually nothing to do with those around you, that you cannot control, others. When you recall your own life, do not project or infer, consequences as to identity and emotions, in yourself, as dictated by those around you, you are always in control of yourself, and should not be controlled by others, unless under their supervision.
Chapter 79: Journal Entries #3 (Handwritten) by Leslie A. Fischman
02-23-18 (Typed: 02/23/18)
#blogpost: Memory loss –causes for is it effective ever to reduce memory input –only if hearts sets on something else in life makes it hard to focus elsewhere.
#blogpost: Trauma and memory loss … improvement upon focus on elsewhere why the mind travels when maxed out or tired, or processing discourse. –Similarly upon insult a freeze occurs that feels like a fog but if you talk yourself through it you achieve your inner peace without worry for or about.
#blogpost: Lack of sensitivity –makes you look immature when you are put down when you come up you crack or crumble –how pressure freezes you. In order to maintain composure trust is needed.
#blogpost: Be efficient how to be efficien important not to let loose when shy be easily encouraged by others.
When you are not in the right or wrong or lost you feel out of place and out of place causes displaced happiness –emotions offguard set you up for pain, why its important not to let loose when shy be easily encouraged by others. –Once privacy is lost it cannot be earned by a better image, its not a bad life. Unless you make things worse selfish is when you are overly concerned with you needs.
What does bossy controlling mean? Insecure worried about assembly not concerned with interests likes or dislikes but the whole big picture someone who doesn’t care what people think are successful have room to let go in life, love.
When technology causes you illness that means you are dependent on technology to see forward be yourself that’s an unhealthy attachment to be dependent on material goods for happiness you should always find peace without necessities.
When everything seems easy it was hard to put together –something that settles.
When not happy not where you want to be in life don’t take it out on others –your unhappiness –that’s not how you get well.
When you talk $hit about good people it makes you look bad and the other innocent. Always direct energies toward self-esteem, progress, -bettering yourself best you can. When you are not comfortable with yourself you have a higher likelihood of being avoidant and a greater likelihood of delays or errors in judgment react poorly. When you take things personally you react poorly. Some commentary if looked for is not forgotten but everything else is forgotten only negative off commentary recalled negatives. –Don’t let people trash you because they think you need it or deserve it. If you cant comprehend something -that does not mean belittle to see better or make clear discomforts mistaken for hostility. That’s not the way out of a problem. Your best is the only way out of a problem. Your best is the only way to get to good in life feel good about yourself. Acceptance of self occurs when acceptance of your best is well received. Know your best –so when things get worse you have a place to go smart and well you remember in yourself when you don’t feel safe lose trust.
Chapter 78: Journal Notes #2 (Handwritten Notes) by Leslie A. Fischman
Confidence is bliss –it’s a created idea in your head that you are where you’re supposed to be in life achieved, you’re supposed to be in life achieved, living with purpose. –A purpose greater than yourself. You need no guides in life to direct your focus or ambitions. Its insulting to motivate the motivated or to egg someone who is already hard on themselves.
If you do well in life achieve happiness you are looked upon with admiration. Pain hurts and cannot be repaired. You have to be willing to go the distance for change, and be the change you see in the World, in order for positive change to occur. Addictions and attachments are not the same thing or the same type of emotional investment as is a dream in life. Why you keep your dreams to yourself to reduce interference. Things only come true when you are focused on the present doing well. Not by living in the past with remorse or regret, that is not how one achieves.
Making connections can cause instability and emotional disturbances. Your wellness should not be defined by others but rather by the strength of your character, good character. Always be well to do well in life, how to behave.
You cant plan your life in advance at best you can be prepared. Never assume that everyone thinks the same that’s not how to go about life and healthy conversation to mimic, figure out, or dead into while. You should just accept people for who they are without passing judgment based upon inherited by outside opinions with a higher likelihood of negative interpretation looking inward at all. You should not think like someone outside of you, that causes mental illness.
Too much loss is disruptive to your health it breaks your heart when you experience any type of loss in life can be devastating. How you cope is up to you how you deal with depression. You cannot fall victim to sin or be of low moral when you are down, that subjects you to more harm to engage in risky behavior, risk to your health. When you are not well only you know how to get well, no one can get well for you. When you experience losses that are only of consequence to you, think how much do things matter. How deserving are you of happiness in life and should the opinions of others as to the maintenance of your well being be the business of others to judge, no –your wellness is your gift in life when you take good care of yourself. Its never anyones business how you repair or lift yourself after a down or what happens in your life before a down. Always be strong first for self and others secondly. How you get hurt caring and taken advantage of. Always do your best to think, speak, and behave responsibly –as others expectations matter and the expectations of others can hurt your esteem if not met, these are unknown social skills.
Chapter 77: Journal Notes 1 (Handwritten) by Leslie A. Fischman
Being put together. Some people put things together to hurt you, if you allow them to and sometimes people put things together in a way that helps. –You cannot control the interpretations of others. Whether for or against you. It does not make sense why anyone would read along and not support me. But take benefit. –That does not make sense to me –why anyone would acquire information from a person they do not like. For what reasons are people negative toward others? For what reasons do people bring up the past (not true) to serve and benefit themselves, their viewpoints. For what causes do they seek to trigger to benefit themselves? There is always cause for worry once aggravated. Occurs when one side is not doing well and to better themselves bring down another side. This is called competition for happiness. When one cannot be happy for others or anothers happiness irritates them.
That doesn’t make sense to me. Everyone deserves to live a normal life and do the best they can to achieve a normal life. There is never any excuse for anger or hostility toward others. Is never justified if not purposefully provoked. –Some problems exist within themselves. In it of themselves –in existence – meaning not existing because of others. –Problems, ideas, or thoughts. Are most likely generated from their own concerns. Assume from a good place to not contribute to those ills. –I was thinking about this today –There are conversations, then you leave conversations. How to control yourself during unwanted conversations and what to do in the event of aggravation. Usually its best to walk away, leave the conversation and not engage others in conversation –avoid fights. –How you function afterwards –is in your control.
No one can control you your thoughts behaviors or how you function in life. It is never your responsibility to correct those who have harmed you. People who are exposed to abuse, used to those types of relationships will repeat those patterns toward you –hurt you again. Always be understanding. Especially when it comes to family and friends. Listen not tell people how you feel, but try to make new conversation, not relate whats going wrong with individuals not concerned with personal issues. Platforms are not for attention but for communication with others. How people identify themselves is their own responsibility, not the responsibility of everyone ever to help one person. A person should fix themselves to match their settings and blend in. Not stand out to be fixed. That’s trying – recipe for seeking unwanted attention to if talked about can place blame on others –try to make someone like you or have similar issues to be addressed or fixed. Best to get professional advice, not wear others out with negativity. Once you change it will seem like everything changes around you.
Be thankful for every passing day you live. Life is not short but it does not need to be painful or lived in regret – if you make the right choices no one can hurt you. –Only yourself by your perceptions. –Your cares and by your outlook in life and by the judgments you pass on others. Look to your future for peace. All that your left with then is your present. –Your present circumstances always figure out/predict your future. What may seem trivial in retrospect is never easy to bear when presently undergone. Everything you’ve been through in life matters. –Welcome your thoughts with a critical and smart heart that cares for yourself help yourself achieve your present –noticed achievements will always help others in a way that’s not hurtful but helpful. Never manipulate emotions recognize them and always set them aside first.
What you willingly respond and react to will determine your ability and your ability reflects your present outlook without having to explain yourself to others. What makes sense to you may not make sense to all. –You have to find your own drives in life –Whether or not always maintain stability a sense of normalcy to achieve inner peace –we discussed this.
“Once you change it will seem like everything changes around you” 12-18-17
“Always be the best version of yourself” (@leslie_fischman, Instagram 2016).
When you change what matters to you will help you overcome what bothers you. Change occurs daily never at once and always in parts. “Whole is the sum of its parts” #famousquote. Never cease to exist –your mind matters but your life and livelihood accepted is more important.
What does mentorship mean to me? It was suggested by Torah Botranger to write for 12 minutes everyday on her Instagram blog. It’s 11:45am now on 12-23-17. Great idea.
What does it mean to create an idea and from what basis do ideas come from. –Livelihood? Unbringing? These are questions I ask myself. –What are we drawn to? And by what categories of likeness are we judged by? Always see the big picture is the lesson Ive learned. When too focused on what others think I become ill. When focused on my own thoughts I feel well. –Ive learned to always appreciate where I come from, poems from Mr. Wendell and all. So lucky to be from Brentwood. It’s now 11:51am.
You should never become too dependent on any one thing or person for love. That is up to you how you play your cards in life and where you end up in life is up to you. Don’t fret the small stuff in life. Always focus on the big picture. If you’re not where you need to be in life and not happy then think about what will make you happy in life. Never get too caught up in the delusion of unhappiness. Don’t lock yourself into unhappy or unwanted thoughts. Think about what it is that will make you happy. Is what you’re doing right now going to help you achieve happiness in life why or why not. Don’t let anyone bring you down in life. –We all get sick sometimes its all a matter of getting well and staying well.
You have to be careful –what you consume affects you. What is becoming of you is when you represent yourselves and others well. Always be in control of your emotions. What you send out (energy) gets sent back to you. Especially on social media. –Where we are easily affected by others and easily misread. Who you are and who you are associated to matters. You build those associations to you by the likes you choose. –How people see what matters to you –and what youre affected by. Always see the big picture. –Nothings a big deal if you don’t make it out to be a big deal. Think in terms of consequences. –How does your audience feel. That’s a good indicator of how you should project yourself online to others –help make normal others. When you are normal everything around you will feel normal too.
Im not feeling well today. Im not sure whats wrong it must be stress … on my heart making me feel bad about myself. Im having difficulty feeling good in life and finding joy and satisfaction again in life. I just want to feel well and do well. Maybe I need to study for my life and health exam. [At the time I got a job as a life insurance agent, and did not stay, too difficult to learn new material right now, that’s why]. I think that will make me feel better about myself not communications. I think too many communications subjects me to harm and hardship in life. Im trying to just maintain a steady head on my shoulders at this point not worry too much about what others think of me and just stay positive. Im not sure whats wrong with me. I should not need to convince everyone of my mental illness or whats wrong with me. I just wanted to do well in life and now Im not doing well. I don’t think that my life should be ruined. I should still have an opportunity to achieve in life and do well with or without others. [ie. Be independent of others, regain my sense of self-confidence].
You have to be careful what you write online not all of it is in your best interests to share out loud –some of it when put together can make you look delusional and paranoid when written said out loud and explained. If its just something bothering you it need not be something that has to bother everyone. That is a misnomer that something that bothers you a little now is so important to discuss because it will bother you more at some future point in time. You just have to let things go and not be bothered by others or happenings, whether or not to do with you or others. That’s just a manifestation of your paranoia nothing to do with the judgments passed by others.
When you’re bad, people will try to situate blame upon you to get you to say and behave in a way that illustrates what puts you in those shoes in life and what is considered your downfall. Always listen to others and not try too hard or be defiant as that looks like ego over compensation for retardation or disability/addiction. You cannot change what others think of you or be put together. Sometimes you have to learn when to quit or change pace or stop before its too late, you only have one life to live, don’t ruin it chasing dreams, or you will not feel good about yourself if you do things to feel good or to make others feel good just work hard, be your best self.
Just because I don’t write doesn’t mean I have no thoughts. Im just resting need to conserve my energy due to burn out. What is wanted –is what is communicated. You have to be strong.
When people get upset with you they expect something from you provoked behavior to cause a consequence or a fact to occur to connect. That’s mean and elaborate to connect bad to good. You cannot go backwards in life image wise once youre done youre done. Its hard to repair yourself. Its never too late to get healthy be well.
You cannot be a machine in life you have to keep going but not put yourself at risk of harm. That’s not just about image but about your health and your heart. In order to stay strong you have to be good.
I feel like literal interpretations can cause illness. Its not for one to judge the other based upon choices in life.
Its never too late to change and speak well of yourself otherwise they test for negative patterns hurt you. Always listen to your Doctor trust them.
No Im not always on my phone. Im a writer. I wrote my book on my phone.
I don’t think that setups are necessary to hurt others esteem to prove guilt or not be watched constantly that’s an abuse of power an unwanted touching of my mind. Im not an experiment. I cannot listen to songs of victims. That’s too polluted harmful to the purpose of being positive not thinking negatively about self and/or others. I’m sorry I said to my Dad if he goes I’ll go with him, that wasn’t nice of me to say that, I should be positive. I never complain or blame others for my problems.
You cant win them all life is not a game to be broken or one sided or not. No harm to others is ever valuable to society.
Im having difficulty being. My sense of being is physically disturbed. Why Im on heavy meds. I don’t have identity issues. Im not a violent person toward self or others. Im not feeling well feeling ill need to get my rest and sleep now get my energy back no worry others. Not share pains or delusions just be normal.
I don’t think I handled the stress and trauma from recent events well. And went on a Tinder date. Then back to Jay, he called, 10 days later, now I feel grose. This was not a good two months for me. Plus someone left trash on the trash can. Snacks.
The fine was really traumatizing –pause long – nothing to say. Zoned out. I think that its very difficult to help others when you yourself are not doing well strong. Life can be traumatizing. I just need to focus on sleep and rest, recuperate. Think. Im starting IOP again. Was planning to, but not going to go, I don’t have time to sit and talk. Maybe that will help with my thought disorders. Keep me centered. Focused on me.
What happens when others try to be you in life not themselves problems occur. –You can always help others but you cannot always be perfect in life. It takes time to get to better in life. –Life’s not all about mystery. –When you share too much about yourself you run the risk of getting blamed in life for causes and circumstances outside of your immediate control. –You cannot change others only yourself. Don’t expect people to change for you. You are responsible for yourself always. People will think what they want if misguided to feel better than. –That’s irresponsibility toward others.
Secrets don’t really help when everyone knows something you don’t know. –Setting you up for failure in life, when you do your best and your best is not good enough. –You get compared to the ill –wealthy. Im not successful with money never paid. –Don’t make me ill, treat me as sick. –Need to take a nap now rest.
When youre not feeling well there is nothing you can do to make your life better. That’s when pain hits –its called disappointment occurring on a high note in life when you are doing well and you get sent backwards in life. –So you cannot function well. That is how people get hurt caring for and about others. Always be respectful of the time and spaces of others. –You never know who is fragile who is not. Always be kind to others.
I never self-sabatoge usually when doing well you attract others and from that attention a judgment is made as to your sense of being –niceness to others, care future well being in hardship.
The feeling like you cant go backwards in life is usually an error so grave that it hurts your esteem socially permanently. It takes time to recover from embarrassment to self. You just have to stay positive. Not everything you say matters. But you should always matter and what you say about others matters too.
I’ve been having a lot of anxiety lately about my future and what I want to do with my life. Start a career and marriage. Met a soldier online who likes my writing and wants to marry me. How sweet. It takes time to build a life for yourself. It doesn’t happen overnight.
I’m starting to get my energy back slowly. Ive not been well these past few months but just starting to feel better again. Ive been talking to Drake he’s overseas in Afghanistan. I’m going to meet him in April to visit and meet him. Im not sure what is best for him to meet me here in CA or fly to New York to meet him. This whole thing sounds complicated. He told me to be patient. He wants to marry me.
When Im feeling faint that probably means that something is really wrong or really unfixable. It’s the point –or past the point of no return. Sometimes you have to know when to stop. You can do your best a job well done but eventually you can never get anywhere in time. How do you prevent crime? If I knew how I’d keep trying.
In order to feel well you have to be doing well its hard to do well when things are not going well for you. –I just met someone new and I hope we are a match. I know that they always say that they can find better. But I just want to be with someone who thinks that Im good enough for them. –I was thinking about my AA meetings today. I was thinking about going back. I really need a car though. –I just started dating someone new online Drake Meyer. Hes a soldier. He really loves me and wants to marry me. He’ll be home for a month in April. I look forward to meeting him. He might even come to CA and meet my family. We met on Facebook he sent me a friend request and I accepted. Im glad I did I ignored all the other friend requests except for his. Im glad he sent me one.
When things are not going well that’s not time to change the way you are to accommodate anyone else’s needs but your own, that only puts you at risk of harm. Image is not important, and its impossible to look trashy in crisis that’s a gives. But when you do not value yourself or when you are not valued you will be treated as trash or trashy and that’s how you will appear to others is called image. Some don’t care some are picky some conservative. But how you carry yourself your image should always best represent yourself in life. You are in control of your own thoughts and behaviors –any emotional instability is always a product of your choices in life not necessarily by belief, trend, or influence, we are always on our own when it comes to learning, the hardest part.
Why Jealously is a Painful Attribute by Leslie A. Fischman
Usually those who are jealous misread others as better than or trying to appear better than feel offended and when they feel offended they feel like the other is trying to make them feel less than, why girls in groups who seek to get the attention of others within a group to focus on an issue, is called uncomfortable, purposeful and unwanted. When you go out of your way to hurt and out someone publicly as inferior to a race or gender, that is considered an inhumane hardship placed wrongfully upon another, who does not deserve such abuse or lack of trust, when you are wrong know you are wrong and when you put another down to be right know you are wrong to do so, that’s a trait of a weak character, lack of respect for others, knowing this doesn’t instigate what you manipulated dispositions in others to make your life easier so you can better adjust expect others to accommodate your needs, is selfish. To attach causes and consequences based on old beef is considered a plan. Do not wreck the lives of others or their plans because yours is paramount or more right than their, when you injure someone who does no wrong and is not guilty, wrongfully convicted it causes suicide, not wanting to go home is because of pain lack of acceptance and judgment past, Harvard Amish dew dew dew dew dew dew dew dew dew dew dew dew – So #mountaindew jokes aside he finished law school. I applied to the usnavy 2009, why was I put down and stomped on during finals. Recovering from your losses in life, awards that don’t matter, live and move on. Can I see your notes, well Yeshiva said she shared her notes with everyone.
How Overthinking Can Ruin a Relationship by Leslie A. Fischman
Overthinking is a product of lack of confidence, when you question yourself or others. There is really no one to blame when this occurs, not even your surroundings are responsible for your feelings, as you should always be strong enough to adjust to your setting, to others, and to be a good decision maker fair to others, not selfishly lead your life, toward self-destructive behaviors, and self-sabatoge, when you think selfishly, not selflessly, and about your needs not the needs of others, when you get turned on its usually because you made a bad decision you cant turn away from, and from that point on you have to constantly correct yourself as you go, to make sure that you continue to make positive progress and make good decisions for yourself. You then become selfish once corrected. The point of getting others to focus on themselves when wrong is to self-correct think about what theyve done wrong to reduce recidivism that is a future wrong by them.
When Things Don’t Work Out by Leslie A. Fischman
When your headed somewhere in life, and you don’t arrive at you ending point, or destination chosen, you have been misguided in life, either by self or by others. This is a normal occurrence and not unique to growing up wealthy or poor, privileged or under privileged in life, with or without connections, but best to be safe upon your travels in life, always prepared with confidence, that usually helps you get through just about any situation in life, without feeling like $hit about yourself when you fail in life, or end up somewhere in life where you don’t belong. A sense of belonging is felt when among like kind, this creates a sense of security among, and from that sense of security trust, and from that trust a bond. Bonding is the retention of some kind of interaction or social connection by words or actions that connect you to another person, that persons feelings and emotions. These connections can be chosen or sometimes forced upon us without choice, those are unwanted connections in life, usually things that make you feel uncomfortable or when inappropriate or appropriateness is in question –you call yourself into question. And when you question yourself, that signals to others that you do not know yourself well enough to know how to behave under pressure, therefore lacking the confidence and worth the level of trust required to rise above the situation present. When your life is in limbo, you make quick decisions, sometimes selfish decisions, and from those decisions you are judged as good or bad, or decisions are made for you on behalf or you about you or to your face, considered a certain way, and before long, or long after, or too late, they realize after the harm has been caused where they have been wrong toward you or others, or not have realized when wrong.
Even If the Time Change Stay the Same by Leslie A. Fischman
Even if the times change stay the same, nothing requires that you change in order to accommodate the needs of others, your needs come first when you are not doing well, and when you are doing well it is your choice to engage in services to help others, that is your choice, based on an assessment of your employer and you yourself by application argue fit for positions in life, and for employment. When we do not fit the bill, well then, we have problems, finding placement, if choosing the wrong career paths, or avenues for achievement, not fit for our skill set. When you change too much, you run the risk of not improving upon ones good character traits, by focusing too much on ones weaknessses. Its important to focus on one’s strengths in spite of hardships, why? Because you need to maintain your good traits in order to improve upon your weaknesses, it is with your strengths that you are able to correct your weaknesses and improve upon self, with that positive foundation, a positive foundation is required for any growth to move forward positively for you, for anyone, or for others or those around you to see you grow ie improve upon oneself, that’s what gets noticed, is maintenance + improvements = good merits, on good merits achieved, well-versed well spoken = kind hearted generally. When you are not at your best and do not sound like yourself or sound like less than, people who think they are better than you will punish you assume that you are up to no good or need correcting, that’s understandable while improving, you wont always get cheered on along the way, or encouraged, that’s for those who are suffering or need cheering up, one changes for them, why to be positive, extra positive, its for lifting people when they are down, not for excitement.
Some People Their World is Better Small by Leslie A. Fischman
We were not all meant to perform under pressure in life, some of us are best functioning in a calm environment condusive to focus, and when unable to focus unable to achieve, for some this is called a learning diability. Some people have no difficulties focusing in life. –Usually it is people who are wrong who lack focus, or people who do wrong in life who lose focus, those are marks of someone not focusing on the right things, in life, and because they don’t focus on the right things in life, don’t achieve, or don’t get good grades excel in school or in life, or in jobs. –For some people who have difficulty achieving a small world is better for them, and for some in a small world gone wrong, a bigger world is better for them, it depends on where you fit in in life, is where you end up in life, well liked or not, the main issue. When people who do not like you hurt you they are going out of their way to make your life more difficult, not by jealously, but because of their losses in life think paramount to your losses in life or needs. Those are marks of someone better than you, who puts you down, until you are able to achieve regardless of what they say. Those who are confident well adjusted do not care what people think or compare self to others, happy as they are, unaware of negativity not on their radar.
When Your Intuition Fails You by Leslie A. Fischman
When your intuition fails you –means you’ve made a bad decision in life you cannot go backwards from –remove from your memory. Usually occurring after suffering some kind of harm. –My boyfriend of two weeks told me today to try to stay out of trouble and to avoid tyranny. I never thought about that. The pitfalls of oversharing, and the thoughts that rule you. It never occurred to me that it was possible for others to turn on me or for me to even turn on myself if unhappy with myself. I’ve always been an overachiever my whole life, never had problems figuring life out for myself, always known who I am and what I’m about, have had no identity struggles or issues growing up. Only later in life, after suffering while in recovery from substance abuse issues and alcoholism, did it dawn on me that I had a problem which I need help curing, and that I was somehow defective now and have go tot just live with the fact that I’m not perfect anymore. It was told to me by an ex-boyfriend that I was never perfect. That’s not very reassuring from someone who I considered a friend, to say something like that in exchange for positive words, sometimes theres no going back from embarrassment, whether discomfort caused by you or others or they themselves, just because a relationship is tarnished does not mean ones image is tarnished, that’s what is defective mentally ill about me.
Social Influences by Leslie A. Fischman
Social influences in life are determined by (1) your upbringing and (2) your exposure. These things put together determine your likeness and how you identify within any given group –your adaptation skills. Some are better than others at this depending on their level of comfort with self, and knowledge of their needs and wants know how to navigate these waters we call social classes, setting boundaries, based on esteem, and letting down guards when amongst. There are some of us who are free floaters, that is if they have a job and have money and are nice, then willing to engage in conversation with anyone, that is someone who is considered a free spirit in life, i.e. fearless. Whe one is fearless they do not hold themselves in high esteem or categorize them in some echelon as above others. This may not always be indicative of comfort with self, nor of trust with others, or resulting from miscommunications and trusts granted, or privileges taken for granted, but a matter of being nice, for simplicities sake, civil with others, nice to others. There is no give and take to every each and every and all relationship, some relationships are conditional, and some are all together unhealthy to begin with, it’s a matter of respect, how we treat one another, and for what purposes we engage with one another. This is because we either one love one another, two have respect for one another, admiration for one another, evaluate and accept one another, or putting ourselves out there to be there for others, there are different kinds of people in life, some are more able than others not by given attributes but learned by skill to help others, we call these people members of the helping professions. They are not our friends, they are not our companions, they do us no favors in life, they are simply there for us when we need them, whether as sounding boards or helping us to navigate unclear waters and helping us to redirect out focus toward other sources, these are who we call members of the helping professions. Do not abuse the kindness of others, it never reflects highly upon you, in any case to put another down, that’s always in poor taste, usually someone puts you down to get you to say something to put them down, making an issue that was just to do with them about you, taking it to a personal level with you, where they interfere with you focus and ability to cope, making it personal, and thus affecting your abilities, so that in the event of any errors should anything go wrong, blame be placed upon them, with advanced warning as the cause of that hardship they’ve already pre-insulted you. Should you go public and try to accuse them of misconduct toward you. Planted. (That is made up commentary to make themselves look better).
Expectations and Recovery by Leslie A. Fischman
When you go through any changes in life, there are expectations that you will come out a better person, or have arrived at some new place in life, experienced some kind of life changing experience that opens your eyes to the World. You have to always be patient with yourself. You cannot rush through life, hoping and praying for everything to go as planned, that’s nonsensical and not realistic. Usually you live moment to moment and live for the moment. That’s the best way to live. Those who live rigid on plans, are usually unhappy people, when things don’t turn out as planned. Ask yourself are you one of those people? Is it your mission in life to cause unhappiness or happiness in the lives of others, and to what extent does your own happiness or unhappiness affect others. Those are questions you should always ask yourself, when considering the consequences of change in your life, how will change affect those around you. Some changes we can afford, some changes we cannot afford, and some changes we have no control over, some changes we have a say in, and some changes we have no say in. That’s just apart of life. You have to roll with the punches so to speak. We cannot control everything in life, at best we can control ourselves, and the decisions we make at the present and changes we seek to effect in our lives for the better, that’s at most the change we have control over. As far as other people are concerned, we are not able to control the changes other people make in their lives, nor are we capable of convincing people to change, people can only change when they are willing to change, on their own, that’s apart of life.
When You Don’t Value Yourself by Leslie A. Fischman
With enough love anything is possible. However, when you do not value yourself you run the risk of getting hurt, yourself, or have the increased potential for watching others get hurt when at a stand still not in action and off base with reality, therefore putting yourself or others at risk of harm. When you yourself are not strong, its important to surround yourself with those who are strong, and to request for the assistance and help of those who are strong to help you cope, as your aides. Never take under your care, others, when you yourself are not strong enough to bear the consequences of another’s instability. One should be strong in order to care for others. You cannot allow, people to run the course of their mental illnesses without notice, or without punishment, or intervention, these matters must always be dealt with on a case-by-case basis, accordingly, and swiftly.
When hospitalized in July, I was disoriented to say the least, out of my element. I was taken to the emergency room, they thought I was suicidal I was not, I had just not come home one night, and had stayed up all night in my car parked on Ocean Ave. I usually parked there to think at night, that’s where I have parked for years now. Where I went running everyday since 2014. My 20 min to 1 hour run.
You never know how things will turn out for you in life. If you do as you are told, and always do your best, then you should be fine. If you do not follow directions well, then things turn out adversely for you. That is but a consequence of not following directions in life. You have to always trust your superiors, as they are at best looking after you, your best interests, and the best interests of others at all times. We call these people leaders. Leaders are responsible for caring for more than one person, more than one person within an organization, and leads by what governs within that organization, by its rules, and regulations, and follows protocols within that group it leads. People who lead are given jobs, and those who are given jobs are respected in society. Those who are not given jobs not paid are not respected.