In reviewing my friend’s post on “notable villains” past … it came to mind not to promulgate notions of building anything as toward concepts especially raising peoples identities to achieve concepts of grandiosity or enabling people to pick up traits that further reinforce old ideas of success and steer away from current trends toward conservative progress, they will never stop coding as a means to exonerate those to whom should not be affected, like shout out at a rock show, if you do get affected by shout outs, try not to contribute in public your thoughts as they may be used in reference or without reference to further raise understanding of ways in which stories can be used to ground stories and teach lessons, without everything ending up in a fight, when you gather your past do your best to move forward whether by interpretation ideas shared by others can be further incorporated. DO NOT incorporate into your solutions for coping those who have messed up in the past or not done well and as affected have committed suicide as accused, and then frame your understandings on their failures past that surely wont help you as a women be seen as the good guy and just as accountable for diving into relationships and when they don’t work out become surprised at the sides that aren’t working for you in your favor.
You’ll go through a lot of changes in life, some changes you’ll endure will feel like forever … the process, but most of the changes you go through in life are for the best. You body changes for you, it does more for you then you need to focus on … that’s the problem, self-care how much of us on the inside affects how we look on the outside, and how much of our energy and mental processes are required for us to stay well, this is something I am currently struggling with, staying mentally fit, and not allowing the voices of others toward me, or voices coming from within ie thoughts affect my inner being or state of peace … we all endure challenges in life sometimes to stay emotionally balanced easily affected by others or other sources of information …. We are not computers, and our thoughts cannot be replaced sometimes even with better ones, and just like thoughts our experiences cannot be replaced even with better ones, less reminders are sometimes best when it comes to moving forward, less is more, allow time to heal just as the body heals discomforts, and what cannot be medicated, sometimes if thought about will only cause repetition moving forward that is as talked about or experienced. That’s not bipolar, it’s a matter of knowing when to use your smarts and when to turn off your smarts to enjoy your now, whether its with people you love or can relate to learn not to rehash or be affected by stories or experiences in life so that you can appreciate now. Life is a learning process but it need not be made more difficult by reliving your past or as affected cause others to relive experiences as affected by your best decision making, not all roads will lead to one, meaning not all experiences and thoughts will arrive at a solution, not unless you keep reliving your past, in order to move forward and accept change or live in the now and accept or build a better life for yourself, it begins with you, what is it that makes you happy and feel positive, is it forgiveness? What is it that makes you feel strong? Is it success? What is it that makes you feel loved? Is it attention? And what is it that makes you feel good? Is it being who you say you are sober (for example). When your best decision making is guided by your own conduct and set of beliefs you fair well, your ideals such as being skinny, and when your best decision making gets thrown off it could be because you are living up to a set of ideals or standards not your own, understand that difference, and do your best to find a happy medium, between what is acceptable and what is you.
If you know not to say something and spend years writing online, if later stated thought to be an underlying current guiding your discussions as about or as affected by underlying words thought about not spoken, that’s whats gets attacked as reading your writing present and past for value whether or not influenced by a set of terms as stated during a bipolar episode following a 28 day hospitalization. My words are kept general because its not necessary to restate what is bothering me or bothering others about me, by restating words as though something I believe in or apart of any process of resolution or release of persons, that is not why I blogged as in cohorts or why I went to law school but yes is something not a set of terms or beliefs, to which I was directly affected by, as picking up my best friend from the airport, upon visiting her Father, no that’s not why I was hospitalized in law school and put in rehab for 2 months, as affected negatively … I was dumped during finals, nervous before an exam the night before my evidence final … this information only empowers the nosey but does no good for me moving forward to discuss what has happened in my life, as I am affected by my life now, everyone has lives of their own, and I write not to be in agreement with others, or to find agreement to my ideas or beliefs in life, grow a set of beliefs or understanding or common knowledge that is story based, that is not a positive process of healing to relive the past or as retraumatized by the sharing of stories, relive those traumas, as spoken to or about in the abstract. When someone writes without stating facts from their own lives from where information is derived or from where a response is derived that’s to not empower those who as directed toward a person can control their writing (my writing) and output, for anyone watching overhead, that is to deflect attention away from me, and to reject me as having issues related to a set of persons, individuals, or group of people who if exposed to react in the negative, if a negative reaction is sought, then the purpose cannot therefore be positive to interject ones self into the life of another, and if somebody persons or individuals seek to affect someone to create a situation in which a person looks like they are not apart of, that is to further dismember a person from society by speaking to them as to promulgate further worsen use of a joke or set of analogous circumstances to interfere with their positive progress in life, ability to be unique be seen and heard as unique. To create a unique tone in ones self to set ones self apart is to not be of influence and as influenced or copied be empowered by a following, and copies or imitations in life usually devalue the original, that’s not being a prototype for influence or change, respected, by to interfere with someones ability and skill to write, is a wrongful interference with a person’s future potential, and ability to adapt to the present, this is why its important to respect the privacy of others, not interfere with peoples relationships or embarrass them. To add value back to yourself, don’t imitate others in life be unique, and likewise you wont be retaliated upon or hurt equally, by a set of standards that they think proper procedure to steal, and as justified, think that doing so behind your back is okay, no that’s wrong to steal, wrong to take, wrong to hurt, wrong to exacerbate, and wrong to separate a person from their ability to lead a normal life, and thus be treated differently as someone who is mentally ill of lower intelligence and negatively impact their ability to live life … that’s putting someone back in the past or separate them to be worse of, having experienced loss react when no one knows what theyre reacting to. Sometimes its until I sound like I was that people let go, as deserved, I deserve to be well think well. Lesson: Do not respond to those who cause you harm, ignore #hate + discrimination - not everyone will understand where you are coming from in life.
I would write for myself but at this point that would be selfish to speak only from my shoes and not include the majority or people who can understand from where Im coming from and by what I have to say makes sense to not only me from my shoes but also to them. When everyone starts to feel better that’s not a time to pause but to be thankful for the strides that have been taken to ensure that others resume their lives not bombarded by controversies unless they choose to watch news outlets or read the paper and partake in the daily changes occurring in the world, some of us are better off our worlds small. I had a talk with my therapist today, about exposure and how I wish to be a product of what I choose to read. It doesn’t matter for how long someone has thought about code or for how long it has affected someone, who by their understanding has not had the same understanding as others, or by exposures the same know how and thoughts about life and about others in perspective. At what point do controversies become known and what point does one bear the responsibility to make a difference that’s not always social responsibility for everyone to use their business savvy to market and make money from the best understandings of others, if an original work, that’s not common sense, that’s my sense of the world, which is not necessary to be populated, as I am diagnosed bipolar, therefore my best understanding of what has affected me in my life is not to include what has affected others in their lives as understanding code. I used to read obituaries, and overtime, thought what if possible could I do to help improve the condition of the times, not make worse understandings as through coding to one set of ideals or shared stories, as I’ve gotten older, story sharing has provided for less eventful interactions, and more repetition in my life, as though I’m reliving interaction, not having new relationships. That does not mean that I am defective but because I once had addiction problems, that idea about me is being used to blame what they think is wrong with me, while benefiting from everything I’ve done right in life to interact with them, life is not a job, you are not required to think like others to get along well with others, but at work, what is more of value your life outside the office or in the office, its your choice, who you choose to focus on in life, not everyone can be God, you chose your own hierarchy from which to based your decisions off of, the world is a big place, filled with people like you, who equally feel affected when the times are off, or when people who should be in leadership positions do not perform to the standard required of them, to take on more roles as a professional. (Now on a personal note): I think I have done my best to be fair to everyone, and share my insight, besides hearing things along the way that I think are negative about me or towards me, but never have tried to change anyones opinion of me, that’s not for me to decide, it doesn’t matter how special or important you are, some do not wish to be apart of and if you are from a controversy that does not make you special or give you the right to share your story, and become special … if they have already designated you as something you are not, if you miss opportunities for amends along the way you lose supporters. A loss of support occurs when you are not ready to make amends and an amends is tried to be made. Once that support is lost, you cannot later open the door for forgiveness or acceptance of an amends, the relationship is gone at that point, and if you stubbornly choose to walk out or leave a relationship then they designate your losses in life as deserved, and that’s how a side against you is made out of nothing.
Have you ever noticed a dim in a person talking to them, that’s very human. Its not that we instinctually dim and light up to others … I wonder sometimes if that’s purposeful and that they are just showing off, or if that’s a gift … I don’t think that light is based upon attraction but by benefit, to benefit another is to light up for them, to dim is going back into your shell, I’ve noticed this a lot talking to others as of recently, I don’t think that’s fear either, maybe its by presence, thinking is there something wrong with my presence, could I light up differently, maybe its my eyes communicating too much as looking at me, can they tell that I’m reading them … is that wise to read others mid conversation … or should you be listening to what why have to say, how important is eye contact to a conversation, is it okay to be blind and not look at a person when you are talking to them or is that considered weird. I wonder afterward what they were thinking looking at me, am I easily read … maybe I look funny or its because of my writing online I worry too much what other people think, for the most part everyone is nice to me.
You will experience a lot in life … learn to weather the storm, or write a book in the middle of a fire. That’s how to keep going in life, not by counting your losses, but appreciative of what your do have in life, do not become the victim to your own storms in life. There will be ups and downs. There are multiple factors sometimes contributing to your loss of speed in life, and motivation, not all losses are because of your own doing in life, or misforgivings. Do unto others, as you wish to be done to you, that’s the lesson in story telling, not all benefit from the later sharing of a shared experience in life, some wish to be removed from relationships in life, and at their choice resume those contacts. Keep busy. Last year published 2 books, took my last course to complete my masters, and got a job! I was so proud of myself. If you set the right goals for yourself in life, you’ll be happy when things start to pan out for you in life. If you are focused on what you don’t have in life it will be difficult to achieve what it is you want out of life. We all want companionship, we all want jobs, and we all want a good life, not all of us are able to achieve all three in life, some of us don’t have families of our own, but that doesn’t mean forget about the family and friends you do have in life, there is more to be happy for than you can think of sometimes. Don’t make your unhappinesses with how your life has turned out the problem of others to resolve, just as you are trying to keep going in life, so are they … if you can’t keep up sometimes people will leave your life for good. You can’t therefore go backwards in wonder and think that things will turn out differently as reunited, that would be a mistake on your part, if you are not better than, or do not appear better than, then the other will look or appear better than if they think they are better than you, that’s what happens when you talk to exes, it feels good for a minute, but then you instantly get depressed or feel like $hit comparing your life now as it was then in happy matrimony, at peace. Not all relationships are fit for marriage past the point of disability, you have to then prove your wellness to progress or keep a relationship thereafter, don’t waste your good time on people who don’t love you.
Sometimes that’s the very thing people are looking for, whenever something doesn’t work out, an apology, that’s to relinquish themselves from blame. All is fair in love and war, and if you support multiple people, then with that support, support them in moving forward, that doesn’t mean help others to move forward by excluding yourself. If an apology results in excluding yourself and empowering others, than that may be the reverse of a #metoo, without you. Some relationships end amicably, and some do not, lets not go there for now. Usually when things don’t work out it’s the person who thinks things were going well and when things go sour, get upset, or when things don’t work out get mad at the other person for not saying the right things in response, or not being the person they expected them to be, that’s called disappointment. Always do your best to mend or repair what ties you can moving forward … not all bridges were meant to be burned, and not everything is related to your best decision making, there will be times when you will be the butt of every joke, due to poor decision making or choice words, be kind to yourself and others, patience goes a long way when it comes to amends, be thoughtful and others will be forgiving, but don’t at your expense switch positions with others and give away your upper hand in life and wellness, to make someone else feel better about themselves for leaving you, or feel less guilty for being upset with you for leaving or getting yourself into trouble off path in life. We all need days to ourselves, that doesn’t mean put yourself at risk of harm. Remember those who care have lives of their own too, its not all about you.
Self-injury is no joke, this can occur by self-harming or by enabling others to convince you you are something you are not. Don’t beat around the bush about issues you are sensitive to or think is about you because you can relate, not all facets of life you empathize with are applicable to you. Be careful not to compromise your good standing in life, to make others feel better or not as affected. That’s called changing positions with someone who if spoken about is deemed less deserving of a poor standing and in exchange someone of greater standing is given the position of someone who is better off or in better standing. Take care of the ones you love, and do your best to protect those who care from harm. You may not be able to solve all problems in life … people will read and constantly maneuver discussions to be about this or that, but its simple, those who are victims to discussions need not be mentioned as this triggers re-discussion of who is at fault, once someone is not liked no one wants to be associated to them, and once that occurs all interactions past become about who was using who to make themselves feel apart of, and afterward explains who those connections were dissed or severed later on. No one want to look bad as associated to people, and often time if someone is misidentified, they will look like the one to blame, if they do not react, or are last to find out what has been said about them, injured or affected by discussions about them … that is either purposeful to cause harm, or by accident we are not sure which disses are about whom and why but all persons affected by discussions matter not just me.
I think a huge part of life is wanting to feel successful, and from that success become a happier person. It’s not easy to achieve success when youre not at your best don’t be an unhappy person just because you’re not where you want to be in life. Success takes time, so does feeling a sense of accomplishment, or feeling accomplished in life, this can occur by education or work experience. For me my confidence has been achieved by writing online and going to law school, always maintain a delicate balance between being proud of yourself, and not making others jealous by your sense of pride and perfection in life, some only wish to be admired or imitated that’s their form of confidence to make others jealous of them and realize their own imperfections in life, that’s not how to build esteem but to break down the esteems of others … I’m not sure what that is, but it isn’t pride or confidence, its filling voids … voids that others have in life … which can best be filled with respect not admiration and hardwork not envy or jealousy … you are what you are in life, and whether or not someone accepts you, should not matter you should respect all whether or not they accept you in their lives on a professional or personal basis, you always have yourself in life, its not necessary to please others to find happiness in life or achieve some positive accord on a daily basis with those around you. -You’re bound to face more criticisms on your way up to any good in life, if you present yourself as insecure or in need, therefore its important to always maintain some self-reliance in life to avoid becoming too dependent upon others. I never wanted to be just another hyper blogger, its really insulting to point out, but its easy to appear with more energy as a writer than you have writing online, I think that’s the most uncomfortable part about writing online, is how you sound to your audience, always be mindful of the energy spent writing … reading is a different kind of energy, requires less. Be sure not to wear yourself out sharing, chances are they too (the reader) will become tired to hear you speak about what causes your discomforts in life, or through the discussion of what doesn’t make sense to you. (As a reader) Always be positive toward those who try hard in life, its not easy to be a positive person. From where did the impetus to write quotes come from … from reading online many years ago beginning 2013. I wanted to expand upon the services already provided through quotes, and share my writing online, in long quotes. I have had some exposure online, but limited, reviewing the blogs written by others, I never became popular or with comments until sharing on Instagram. -By reading what other quotes people had to share I decided to contribute. I never quite figured out how to make money as a blogger online, but read a lot of blog posts about it, just never signed up, that may be the next step, guest posting on other websites, and getting paid for my writing. Right now I’m working on a book. It takes time to develop as a writer, some people have more business savvy in life to make money and produce online, I’m not one of them.
Overtime everything improves, and with experience noticeable differences occur in outward appearances, it usually just so happens that as you mature, you get your look down. What was once your best if improvement keeps occurring looks half as good as you appear now. When you get your look down you should be proud of yourself, its harder these days, with more variations and options with makeup, its up to you to decide and make decisions for which products to use, there are many at our disposable, not all the same products work for everyone. If we could all dump our bags out for magazines if were famous, we would all be using the same products? Why do variations exist, and what is competition? Usually anything unique, depreciates as copied, and anything that looks like, depreciates in value, as compared to, not as good as, not as pretty as, not the same as, not as smart as, not as gifted as, not as talented as, not as beautiful as. What is beautiful? Beauty comes from within they always tell us that, no matter how many composite sketches you put over someones face to make them look like they are something they are not, eventually their true beauty will shine, give people time to heal, not everyone is adept at knowing how to alter, fix, modify, or improve their current condition, and signs are obvious on the outside when someone is not well, you can’t judge a book by its cover or someones face, as a precursor to their condition, wellness, or fitness of character, based upon what you hear see them as. On Facebook I made a short video while running “who do I look like now” that was in jest to my friends, do we look like our audience or do we look like those we are looking at, and what helps us maintain our uniqueness, is it by looking at ourselves, or by looking at others we change. Usually it is someone we look up to or admire we try to be more like, or improve to benefit them, match up to them, or be as good as, when will one start accepting themselves as they are, are we as women predisposed to changing ourselves not as a matter of competition but as wellness, lifes not all about being picked.