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I collect limited edition sneakers beginning in college, songs I mix myself and save, anything leopard, shorts, leggings, nighties, and t-shirts whenever they are sold whereever they are sold. Ive never been a big shopper, but I have always had a taste for collecting things Ive found unique, and have not been able to find elsewhere never afraid to stand out or to be different, including wearing sweatpants beginning in high school, I found every pair possible of track pants, which were only sold at one shop in Westwood, or a Sportings Good Store. You didnt need much growing up, not when you were young, when you were able to put your whole apartment into two stacks of boxes and your life was manageable, later in life you tend to accumulate more things and that includes paper and other mementos in life that you cant seem to let go of, and thats when you begin to slow down when you start having difficulty keeping track of whats important to you, and no flashdrives or system of backing up information can protect you from anything bad happening to you when something of value of your own falls into the hands of another, that much you have to let go of, no one can control you having something of value to you, it will always feel special to the beholder something of yours in their hands including your heart or your face for that matter, we all have a desire to connect to people better and there are better systems for connecting than to figure out what effects people thats not a proper way of figuring out things in life for yourself or for others for that matter, that only means that some power has been lost, when someone is not their usualy self, smart, and it happens to most, when our minds leave us but we never expect that our hearts will leave us too. So always remember who you are connected to in life, that will always be your solution for moving forward, let no ones happiness ever intimidate you on your way to "happy destiny," you can handle anything you set your mind to, no matter what pictures of you have been taken, no matter what you look like, be about yourself, and no insults will ever have been taken as though you were ever mocking a system of communication that meant more to others than it has meant to your own way of viewing the world and yourself in it, never be intimidated. No one is watching you until everyone is watching you, and everyone knowing you is not how to live a private life it does the exact opposite subjects people to investigating what your about, until you know what the rest of life is like or about, thats how someone with a good life, gets hurt not having lived a life of their own, with expectation that one is meant to suffer the same or has not suffered or has not been exposed to suffering, or who does not know what the temperature of hostilites are like, what protections are required or how many bodyguards are needed to guard one home at night, I made a song for them once, singing in the street, one looked like Sylvester Stallon, one looked like Davy Crocket, and the others name was Jeffrey, he was the one who walked us around the house at night and showed us where all the spider webs were with a flashlight, and thats what my childhood was like, protected not sheltered.
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